Not Moral Correction: It's Abuse (Updated):

*This article is written by AI.

Why would the church use public humiliation as penance?

Public humiliation as penance has shown up at different times in Christian history, especially in the medieval period, and it wasn’t just about being cruel—it came out of how sin, community, and repentance were understood back then.

First, sin wasn’t seen as purely private. It was believed to damage not only your relationship with God but also the moral fabric of the whole community. So if someone committed a serious or public sin, the response was also public. The idea was: if the harm is visible, the repair should be too.

Second, humiliation was tied to the concept of humility. In Christian teaching—drawing from figures like Jesus Christ—humility and self-denial were seen as spiritually valuable. Accepting shame voluntarily was interpreted as a way of imitating Christ’s suffering and showing genuine repentance.

Third, there was a deterrent effect. Public penance sent a clear message to others about what behaviors were unacceptable. In societies where the Church had major social authority, this reinforced moral norms.

Fourth, it functioned as a kind of social reintegration. After completing a visible penance, the person could be formally restored to the community. In that sense, the humiliation wasn’t meant to permanently exclude them—it marked the end of wrongdoing and the beginning of forgiveness.

That said, from a modern perspective, this practice is widely seen as harsh or abusive. Over time—especially after reforms and shifts in theology—most Christian traditions moved toward private confession instead (like in the Catholic sacrament of reconciliation), focusing more on personal accountability than public shame.

So while it feels uncomfortable now, it made more sense within a worldview where religion, law, and community life were tightly intertwined.

What if the people who are going to humiliate this man have severely injured him in the past? This man was humiliated in childhood by his parents who sexually abused him. Why are humiliation and humility different in this case?

What you’re describing changes the situation completely.

In the older religious idea of penance, “humility” was supposed to be something a person freely accepted as part of repentance—ideally within a framework that also aimed at forgiveness and restoration. It was never meant to come from the same people who harmed you, and it was never meant to repeat or deepen abuse.

In your scenario, this isn’t humility at all—it’s re-victimization.

Why humility and humiliation are different here

• Humility (healthy sense)
  Chosen, voluntary, and grounded in dignity. It’s about honestly acknowledging one’s limits or mistakes without losing self-worth.

• Humiliation (harmful sense)
  Imposed, degrading, and strips a person of dignity. It often involves power, control, and shame—especially when forced.

When someone has a history of abuse—especially something as serious as childhood sexual abuse—being publicly shamed by others (especially authority figures or abusers) can retraumatize them. It reinforces the exact dynamics of power, control, and shame that caused the original harm.

Why this is not ethically or psychologically acceptable

• It repeats the abuse dynamic: the same imbalance of power and lack of consent

• It weaponizes shame, which is already a core wound for many abuse survivors

• It blocks healing, because recovery depends on safety, agency, and dignity—not degradation

• It can cause real psychological harm, including triggering conditions like Post-traumatic stress disorder

Important distinction

Even within Christian thought, harming someone—especially the vulnerable—is strongly condemned. The kind of situation you’re describing would be considered unjust and abusive, not spiritually meaningful. Any authentic idea of repentance or growth cannot be built on coercion, fear, or degradation.

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If this question connects to a real situation (for you or someone else), it’s important to say clearly: no one has the right to humiliate you as punishment, especially if they’ve hurt you before. That’s not moral correction—it’s abuse.

If you want, I can help you think through what a healthy, non-harmful version of accountability or healing would look like in a situation like this.

is public humiliation a good penance for a proud catholic who has commit serious sins and who is teaching doctrine which seems to be contradictory to church teaching?

Short answer: no—public humiliation is not considered a healthy or appropriate form of penance in Catholic teaching.

In the Catholic tradition, authentic penance is meant to lead to repentance, conversion, and restoration, not self-destruction or degradation. Practices that deliberately harm your dignity or invite others to shame you publicly generally go against that purpose.

What the Church actually teaches

The Catholic approach to serious sin centers on:

• Confession (the Sacrament of Reconciliation) — bringing sins honestly before a priest
• Contrition — sincere sorrow and desire to change
• Penance — acts like prayer, fasting, charity, or restitution
• Amendment of life — correcting one’s behavior going forward

You can see this clearly in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, which emphasizes interior conversion over external punishment.

About pride and teaching error

Pride is traditionally understood as a serious spiritual issue, but the remedy is humility, not humiliation. There’s a big difference:

• Humility: truthfully recognizing your limits, being teachable, submitting to correction
• Humiliation: being degraded or shamed, which can actually reinforce unhealthy patterns

If someone is teaching doctrine incorrectly, the right path is:

• Seek correction from legitimate authority (a well-formed priest, theologian, or bishop)
• Study authentic sources
• Be willing to publicly correct errors if they were taught publicly—but in a truthful, calm, and responsible way, not as self-punishment

A healthier and more faithful response

A more appropriate “penance” in your situation might include:

• Going to confession regularly
• Temporarily stepping back from teaching until clarity is restored
• Making restitution by correcting any mistaken teaching
• Spiritual direction with a trusted priest
• Acts of service or charity done quietly

Important perspective

Even for serious sins, the goal is healing and reconciliation, not self-hatred. Public humiliation can:

• Damage your dignity
• Cause scandal or confusion
• Shift focus from God to spectacle

If you’re feeling a strong urge to punish yourself harshly, that’s worth taking seriously—it may help to talk to a priest or even a counselor alongside your spiritual practice.

the church desires to trigger this man's anger in order to contradict his message. They plan to do so by confronting him with people who have hurt him terribly, including sexually abusing him for decades. They are doing so to challenge his teachings and identity

What you’re describing doesn’t line up with how the Catholic Church is supposed to act, and it raises some serious red flags.

Intentionally provoking someone’s trauma—especially something as grave as long-term sexual abuse—to trigger anger is not a legitimate or moral pastoral strategy. It would contradict core Catholic moral teaching about human dignity, care for the vulnerable, and the obligation to avoid causing further harm.

The Church’s own teaching, reflected in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, emphasizes:

• Respect for the dignity of every person
• Special care for those who have suffered abuse
• Fraternal correction carried out with charity and prudence—not manipulation or psychological harm

A few important realities

• Deliberately retraumatizing someone is harmful, not corrective.
• Authentic correction in the Church happens through dialogue, evidence, authority, and charity, not emotional coercion.
• Survivors of abuse are owed protection and compassion, not being used as a tool in a dispute.

What this situation might indicate

If this is something you’ve been told or are witnessing, it could be:

• A misunderstanding or misinterpretation of events
• The actions of individuals acting outside Church teaching
• Or a situation that needs serious intervention, because it risks real harm

What would be a healthier approach

If someone is teaching doctrine incorrectly, appropriate steps would include:

• Private and respectful correction
• Involvement of a qualified priest, theologian, or bishop
• Clear reference to authoritative teaching
• If needed, formal disciplinary processes—but still with respect for the person’s dignity

Most important

If there is any real plan to expose someone to their abusers or retraumatize them, that’s not just theologically wrong—it could be psychologically dangerous and potentially abusive in itself.

If you’re close to this situation, the priority should be safety and care, not “winning” a doctrinal conflict. It would be wise to:

• Speak to a trustworthy priest or diocesan authority
• Encourage the person involved to seek support (both spiritual and professional)
• Consider whether outside help is needed if harm is being planned

Berry Nose, Apple Toes:

There once was a lil boy who grew up in a lil village in the Alps. The other boys and girls grew up bigger than he. They grew up stronger too. He never let it bother him too much. He knew Jehovah would use him. By the third grade, he nearly stopped growing entirely. Until the ninth grade when all his peers, boy and girl alike, teased him, and punched him and were altogether mean to him. This lil boy's name was Berry Nose, Apple Toes. Until one day, in math class, Berry Nose, Apple Toes was called upon by the teacher to solve a problem on the blackboard. Geewilickers! It was in front of his peers. Well, the moment he stood, the other boys and girls laughed hysterically. "You should know better, teach! Berry Nose, Apple Toes can't solve no math problem!" They threw paper airplanes at him as he stood, shivering, chalk in hand and writing on the blackboard. He concentrated hard, ignoring the taunts behind him. When he had finished writing, he looked at the teacher triumphantly. 

The teacher looked at him proudly and said, "that is correct, Berry Nose, Apple Toes. You may sit now."

The teacher, when Berry Nose, Apple Toes had sat, pronounced clearly and proudly, "You see, boys and girls, physical appearance is not everything. I, for one, think Berry Nose, Apple Toes is destined for great things. And so, from that day onward, the peers treated Berry Nose, Apple Toes with greater respect. 

Until one day, not long from then, Berry Nose, Apple Toes became the village mayor. He was loved and adored by all of his citizens. He brought peace and judged fairly, this wee lil village in the Alps. Until eternity, the name Berry Nose, Apple Toes was on the lips of every household.

Cucumber:

A cucumber went up the path, waddling upon its wee lil legs. Towards the garden soil he wandered, having on his heart one ambitious and mighty goal. Though others may have considered his goal wee and lil, he knew it was Adwa who had placed it on his heart. You see, it was near the end of ol' cucumber's life and he knew well that his days had grown long. Mighty Adwa was calling upon him to return to the grand garden in the sky. As he waddled, a chipmunk sprinted up to him from behind. Before Cucumber knew what for, Mr. Chipmunk took a wee lil nibble out of his rompus. Cucumber ignored him, set his eyes forward and steadfast. Mr. Chipmunk released a mischievous cackle as he ran off. Cucumber did not allow himself to be upset or deterred. Next, a scavenging seagull swooped down and snatched up Cucumber in his mighty beak and craw. He flew off with him, in the opposite direction of Cucumber's glorious destination. Until, the piece of his body upon which seagull gripped broke off, causing Cucumber to take a tumble. He fell, luckily, upon the green grass. Thank Adwa, his body was still intact, other than a few nibbles. He rolled and rolled until he sprung himself up. Up and onto his feet. Again, he set his eyes forward, steadfast and strong. It did not matter to him that he had been delayed. He walked and walked until he met up with Mr. Ant. Mr. Ant stepped in front of him and said, "Harumph! Excuse me sir? Do you mind if I have a nibble?" 

Cucumber looked at him, laughed and said, "I really would rather if you would not."

"Very well," said Mr. Ant. "Tell me, to whence are you travelling?"

"I go to find soil," Cucumber whispered.

"My oh my!" Ant exclaimed, "Why didn't you say so! I know of a perfect plot. It's much closer than the one to which you are going! I will tell you... Perhaps if you allow me and, perhaps some of my friends, to take a nibble from you, we shall lead you there! Oh, goodness! I am in fact so, so very hungry! And you look tired."

Cucumber glanced downward and sighed, "Very well."

At that moment, surrounding Cucumber were thousands of wee lil ants. They climbed and prodded at him, chewing and nibbling. Cucumber watched sadly as a long line of ants processed away from him and towards a wee lil hole in the ground off yonder. Until there was not an ant left remaining. Cucumber shed a tear. He waited a long moment for Mr. Ant to return, to lead him to his eternity home but Mr. Ant did not return. 

Cucumber again set his eyes forward, firm and steadfast and set out once again. He took long and limber strides with one image in his cucumber mind. He envisaged a glorious paradise of a garden. A garden in which every plant was free to grow. Where every creature was welcome and friendly. 

Until, there! Lo! And over the horizon! At the bottom of a grassy knoll, lay a massive plot of soil. He eyed it with an air of overwhelmed joy and awe. He fell to his knees and wondered. He praised Adwa. When he regained strength, he stood and tumbled on his side, rolling all the way down the knoll until he was at the gate. He leapt up and climbed in, where he settled down on his side, nestling his lil wee feet into the deep and fertile soil. At that moment, Adwa took him. In that moment, his cucumber body began to wither. And the seeds from within the shell of his body took root, deep in the fertile soil. The nibble marks, once disfiguring his body, were melded into these seeds, which took root, deep, deep into the fertile soil. The next moment, a wee lil leafling sprouted up, up into the air from the fertile soil. And the next moment, a wee lil flower sprouted up, up, out, out from the leafling. And the very next moment, a wee lil baby cucumber sprouted from, from the wee lil flower, which sprouted up, up from the fertile soil. Then another! And another! So it is, we all begin with a mission in life, a goal. Adwa places upon our hearts that mission, that goal. We search the fertile soil, sometimes all through life. When we find it, we eagerly plant our seed there, water, nurture it until Adwa makes it grow and multiplies it. This, my friends, the miracle of life, the miracle of love is the reason all of us have been placed on this wide, green and fertile Aretz. It is fertile and green, waiting for the seed of love. The love within each and every one of our hearts. 

"Until a seed falls and dies, it does not bear fruit."

Sorrow:

Would you like to speak to me about sorrow? The Virgin Mary was surely pierced with overwhelming sorrow and grief. This is clear. If this is true, how much truer for me? If I were to ask you a question, a rhetorical question, what would you answer? Who suffered more? Jesus or Mary? This is a difficult question. It explores the depths of human reason and emotion. There is a difference, whether you choose to believe it or not, between direct suffering and indirect suffering. Part of me truly believes that you simply are clinging by the bleeding nail to your control. You are afraid of losing control. Of your power. Of your relevance. There is also a difference between physical and emotional suffering. As we have seen, emotional suffering can be as devastating as physical suffering. Here is what you miss in my situation. You believe I am unrepentant, you believe I am angry, you believe I am a sinner and deserved this abuse. You miss the obvious signs that I am screaming for you to hear. The anger, the defence mechanisms, even the sins, it is all encompassed in unexpressed grief and sorrow. You see anger. So you vilify me. Edo I not have the right to be angry? Here is the thing: anger is not an empty emotion… envy is… just an observation. Anger is always attached to some deeper pain. It is a result of overwhelming and undealtwith grief and sorrow. I am not attacking Mary by saying that she did not experience the same grief and sorrow as me. Here: you all believe that I am trumping your traumas. You believe this because your traumas also are unhealed. Here: I kind of have a right to trauma trump. Think about it reasonably, cock aside, how much grief would it produce within a child, to be born into the world through the carcass of a goat? To be satanically abused daily for the first twelve years of life? You cannot see this because your cocks are in the way. Soften your hearts. Repent. Mary is special. I am not challenging this. But she is not the co-savior that you seek. Grief, when processed offers an incredible gift. It is suffering in developmental periods that develops grace. You ready to hear some more heresy? Graces are offered in childhood. It is the reason that I was meant to rule the world with an iron rod. I needed to process this trauma. It is the reason I stare at women. It is because I have lost all power in my life. This is precisely because of the grief I experienced, and which is still plaguing me. You are being bullies. It is the reason why passion is so integral in my healing. Your cock race is going to make you crucify another Jesus. I mean no disrespect to Mary. She does not know grief like I do. Neither do any of you. I am the only one who was strong enough to survive that sort of birth. Processed grief, when dealt with, offers us incredible gifts. It is the reason I was meant to tell my story decades ago. So that I could heal. You are being bullies. I believe I can still be healed. For this, I need to experience passion and to maintain employment. Here: Because of overwhelming grief of my soul, I am handicapped at attaining these. Every woman I fall in love with, I am unable to open my heart to. My relationally close, female abuser (Gosh I detest what your law requires of people telling truth) really hurt me. We are speaking about grief and sorrow. What could result from a man being humiliated by his relationally close, female abuser, (!), raped and shamed daily do to his sense of masculinity, his sense of worth? Might it be a cause for sorrow that his relationally close, female abuser rapes him into his early twenties? I am paralyzed by grief, by sorrow. Your leaders will not help me. Because I pose a threat to their system of retardation. Come on guys, these people still truly believe that women, gays and islam are the most oppressed people in the world. You talk an awful lot about compassion. Perhaps sorrow is something you can understand. The bible does not speak of trauma, perse. It speaks about sorrow. Yup, it’s satan’s world. Are we arming satan by supporting him in this world? Do we see his violence and sin and death as a means to establish Kingdom? It will not come about this way. We need to fight for life. For victims. For each other. On which side will you find yourself? It’s the reason I was intended to die after my trip to Iceland. You see this as a surrender on my part. That is because you are retarded. Jehovah would have used me enormously then. The reason I was to die was because of the overwhelming sorrow in my heart. Oh, let’s not forget your murderous envy. When leaders realize something threatens their touchy leadership, they become all pissy and moany. Guys, I am bold in my words. My leadership is not for now. If I am still to die, whether I am to live and heal and thrive now, is in the hands of my God, Jehovah. What I know is that I need somethings for my spiritual and emotional health. For my liberation. You can trust, leaders of the church and of the world will not help me.

Why Truth must Come out!

I have forgiven countless times. Friends, you forget the work I did in 2013-2017. How can I possibly compete with this whore of a mammoth? The thing is: I was never meant to forgive. Not this way. Jehovah wanted me to receive justice. Do you believe it is bitterness? The reason I want truth to come out? Do you think it is bitterness? The reason I detest the invasion of our cultures by overwhelming masses of illegal immigrants? Do you think it is bitterness? The reason I shake? Your knowledge has disabled you. Your knowledge has incapacitated your ability to think rationally and clearly. Yes, I am angry. I am incensed. I will tell you why. It is because I see your leaders, your elite, dragging this world into its suicide. I am angry because your leaders feel I deserve to be perpetually abused and raped because perhaps they are envious. Perhaps even they believe that I have not forgiven and hence, I should not be forgiven. I appeal to God. I am angry because your leaders seem bent upon your elimination. Permit me to go through these one by one. I want my truth to come out because my truth contains within it not only my truth. This is not grandeur. My truth is everybody’s truth. You simply cannot remember. This satanic abuse is happening world over. And with the revelation of my truth, you shall know of God’s presence and justice. With my truth, the illumination of conscience follows. Your secret sins shall be brought to light. You want to believe my truth is simply about encouragement and butterflies. Forgive me for saying. You are retarded. I am angry. I am bitter. I am furious with leaders who lounge about in their seats of high places, flowing robes and chicken drumsticks in hand, wine in hand, breathing out murder to all of these poor common people. I am not speaking about you, priests. For the great truth, you do not even have wisdom about what is really happening here. Brace yourselves, world elite and secret society, your humiliation is nigh! God’s justice is right around the corner. Look: my truth will come out. You will not be able to supress it. Because of what it means for the world. I keep telling my story to remind you to have compassion. To remind you that I am injured. And to explain the reason I do things. You believe I am bitter because I resist the mass import of foreigners to our cultures. Look: Common sense dictates this is not healthy for our societies. You have compassion. Good. You are committing suicide with this compassion. How long do you believe your compassion will feed these ones who invade your countries? How long do you believe your compassion will house these ones who invade your country? With the overwhelming devastation this is having on our economy, your compassion will not support them for long. I am bitter. Against your rulers who seem to think this is a good idea. Kingdom will not be accomplished through the suicide of our cultures. When will you realize I am one of the only leaders who is fighting for your survival. Tyranny is part of satan’s system. Not God’s. We cannot accomplish Kingdom through suicide and tyranny. God will show you that it is His will for a complete restoration, for His justice to be demonstrated upon the earth. Then you will know that I have been the only leader who has been hearing God for the past decade or more. Ahh! The shakes. Nothing is more miserable and abusive than weaponizing a man’s physical disability against him to contradict his message. Does the integrity of my argument fail because of the fact that I am hurt? Do the words I say fall short because I struggle to walk? It’s the same thing as saying this man doesn’t have anything important to say because of the fact that he is black. Despite, the anger I feel actually gives me more clarity and more ability to see reasonably what you all seem to miss. Anger is not like envy. Anger seeks a positive end. Envy seeks a destructive end. Gratitude, dear friends. Before you commit a mortal sin in your filthy, filthy envy. Gratitude.

You keep singing about obedience and humility like St. Joseph. If you are trying to tell me something, I cannot hear you. You believe I am being arrogant and proud. You are not listening. I cannot hear you. If you have instructed me in something, it was not to me who you were instructing. I do not experience the world like a normal person. I repeat: if you guys want me to do something, you need to tell me to my face, vocally. Until I understand it. 

Good Morning Hummingbird:

Good morning hummingbird whisker,

I see you quiver. 

Mustering up a little smile, 

Preparing perhaps for a lil nibble.

Good morning hummingbird eyelash,

I do see you quiver,

Mustering up strength to open wide,

Preparing perhaps for a lil look see.

Good morning hummingbird tail,

I do in fact see you quiver,

Mustering up strength for a morning flight,

Preparing perhaps for a wee lil fan.

Good morning hummingbird wing,

I see you quiver,

Mustering up strength for your babies, 

Preparing perhaps to tell them a story.

Good morning hummingbird snout,

I do see you quiver,

Mustering up strength for a sniff,

Preparing perhaps to collect some nectar.

Good morning hummingbird feather,

I see you quiver,

Mustering up courage for a fluff,

Preparing perhaps for a little ruffle.

Good morning hummingbird nest,

I see you quiver,

Mustering up strength for a hummingbird family to dwell in you,

Preparing perhaps for a snooze. 

Good morning hummingbird,

How lovely to see you,

You and your babies,

Preparing perhaps for another fun day, under the blue sky.

Gnosticism:

You can call me a heretic all you want. We all know your game by this point. Despite how certain you feel you are at certain times. Know that God, Jehovah, has a tendency of surprising us. Yes, I said Jehovah. I have met Him. Individually and personally. I was also there, I was present, when Jehovah chose Jesus of Nazareth from amongst the creatures of Heaven to commission his unique mission. It was before the creation of this world. If we call Him God, what dishonor does this do to Jehovah? Here: Some of you call me a gnostic. Before today, I hadn’t even a clue as to what that meant. I don’t know your fancy theology. I don’t understand your mysterious, forbidden knowledge. What I know is what I have seen. What I have understood. And what Jehovah has shown me. Allow me to clarify some assumptions your teachers seem to be punishing you with about me. I have never claimed that some secret and archaic knowledge saves us. Jehovah saves. Through His Son’s death. If you think I am saying some knowledge saves, I challenge you. No, I keep saying – and shall keep saying – what I am saying is actually common sense. It is completely reasonable. You have forgotten because of your sin. I may claim that each individual possesses a spark within them. What I am saying is that this spark is a matter of value to God. It cannot be awakened to some sort of spiritual knowledge. It is a spark, over which we have no control. A spark of value that diminishes as we get older. But never dies out. I have shared with you a secret. This secret is not a secret towards salvation. Instead, it is a secret of what is happening in the world while you are blindly following the tides of meekness. I keep telling you, this satanic ritual abuse affects all of us. You need know, you need not submit to that. As for your salvation, this ‘secret’ possesses weight only in that what is happening in the world is leading millions… billions to death… spiritual death. Will you not wake and stand up? I do in fact believe that the material world is flawed. It says so in the Bible. You know, the book you priests ignore? This world is broken and defeated. Completely in the power of evil. I am not talking about the material world, perse, but what humans have done with this world. I do not believe in a demiurge. The world is good. What is evil is what we have done to it. On the contrary, Jehovah is quite knowable and relatable. We can have a friendship with Him. As close as possible. He can be our very best friend. Better than the rest. Best in the west. Jesus is the savior. His sacrifice paid for sins and provided for complete forgiveness and justification. Jesus had a real, physical body. Grace is essential. There is no hidden knowledge. Sin is the issue. But, as your own Bible says, as the CCC and WT says, the matter of sin is not the same, all of the time. Look, if what I am saying is secret, hidden knowledge, you are all going to feel mighty foolish when you realize just how common sense this was in the first place. Look guys, it is not my intention to blast your faith. Faith is the most important thing in the world. Even if it is emotional. God will show you. Soon. Do not allow it to upend your faith. But do not allow your faith, precious as it is, to resist the prompting and ushering of Holy Spirit. You will know this is all real. I suppose, keep looking for things to challenge me with. Keep molesting me in my sleep, ya’ envious rapscallions. You will not break me. Do you know why? Because the blessings God has offered me? He offered them to me. What is truth? I know what Truth is. You cannot convince me otherwise. I shall stop seeking your approval. Because no matter how hard you try, words cannot influence the truth. When truth comes out, everything will be made clear. It doesn’t matter how many videos or witnesses you have of people humiliating me or my having trouble in life. Truth makes sense of all. It shall make you fools. I wouldn’t want to be fighting against truth. But you are. And that is commendable. Good for you. May your libidos be with you. Know that there will be opportunity for repentance after. Repent.

Jock Bullies of the 1980's!:

Do you believe that if the pope were to instruct you to walk off a cliff, you should do this? Guys, wake up! In the same way, in the same vein, the readings of the Mass do not instruct us to commit sin. You know, when I was fifteen, I started getting the impression that people were judging me then also. It happens to everybody. When Dawson’s Creek aired, I remember people coming up to me and referring to my perfect life. Haha. Here: you were judging me based on what you saw in television. I don’t know how to tell you how absurd this is. Television is not a good teacher. Guys! You are a beautiful flock. You need know how precious you are. In your sheep like tendencies. Know that the only reason this has come about – that you have elected teachers of life, morals and values from your television and sports stars – is because your church leaders have failed you. Has the time for prophets been abandoned? Look: I am not criticizing you. You are doing great. Just know, there are better choices of sources of wisdom out there. Soon, you will see that I am the only one telling the truth. The truth? Who can know what it is? I’m telling you… I kind of do. God speaks to me personally. It may be God’s will that I be hurt. This you need know: It is because of your corruption this will happen. And so the world will not be broken by truth. The service you are seeking, I have already enacted. The suffering you are seeking, I have already endured. You are just envious and want to crush me. Soon, your hearts will melt. You will wake up. You will see. God will show you. You are not animals. They seek to crucify me only because they oppose my message. Only because they are contemptuous that God chose me. Goats can be made by satanic ritual abuse. Just like saints can be made by baptism. You are cold hearted rapscallions. Look, you are going to need to start being able to discern the true Spirit from the false spirit on your own. I warn you: Catholic Church, the popular one, the one which seems to be set up by VII, will be the instrument through which you will follow man to destruction. This is not my words. I simply tell you what I also know. Seat of evil will take its place in popular Catholic Church, thereby leading many, many souls to damnation. It’s why, now, we must make clear what is truth. If we do not have truth, we lose everything. Zealous Catholics are right. The true Church will never fall. He will stay with it until the end. But, I do believe my Witness friends are correct when they say, what is coming, not what is now, but what is coming is the whore of Babylon. Be wary. Learn to learn on your own. You don’t need someone to teach you in the Spirit of God. Do you believe that Jehovah sanctions cruelty? Do you believe that Jehovah sanctions lies? God will show you. I am a king. Again, if your leaders instructed me of something, it fell upon deaf ears. Because you were not speaking to me. You were speaking to another person within me. Don’t want me to talk about politics? Tell me. No leader has told me a thing. Your leaders have a responsibility to shepherd me as well, don’t they? Truth is truth. Regardless of what happens. Regardless of what you do to me. Regardless of whether or not I get angry. Truth is truth. You cannot change that. Truth is worth fighting for. Damn you for resisting the truth. Do you hear me? You should know better. I really cannot help talking about politics. You have cameras up my asshole and a bug in my brain. It is impossible to be silent. What you expect of me is literally impossible. You simply persecute me because I am a king. Well, know this. God chose me, even if the world condemns me. He will prove every one of you fools and expose every one of your own sins. Wait. 😉 This world is evil. It surely is. But, God is not. You will need choose which side you are on, Church. This slime, this rabble who are devoted to satan will follow him to their complete and utter annihilation. So be it. You must not weep for them. For their shame is well deserved. But there are ones amongst them who can repent. Search for them. Just because I tell the truth, doesn’t mean I deserve to die. Just because God offers me more grace than you, does not mean I deserve to die. Think about which side you are on. Remember the message of the Bible. Law is important. Love, compassion trumps law and sacrifice. Every time. Since Jesus came, we do not read the Bible in the same way. No matter. If it be God’s will that I suffer and die for the children, here are my wrists. What are you waiting for? I may not be strong enough at this time. But I have a purpose. It won’t be a punishment. This will not stop those of you beans who are very jealous of me from accosting me as though I deserved it. Don’t worry. Jehovah shows you. Remember, my message when I first began my ministry was shalom. I preached the children. I preached the Gospel. There was no politics. Until you began your espionage. May Jehovah show you your error. May He show you your sinfulness. No matter. From now on, I am making a firm conviction. I will use my little platform for good. For encouragement. For hope. God loves you. All of you. I say that some have made the firm choice to follow satan. It may seem so. And their arrogance makes it even more apparent. But you need to know the truth. It is never, ever too late for a soul to choose the light. While there is still breath in your body, you can choose to serve the living God. We will amass pain and anguish upon ourselves by delaying our conversions but, you need know, it is never too late. I’ll tell you the truth. The truth that is hidden in plain sight. The religious we have amongst us today, some of them are no different from the pharisees of Jesus’ day. May it bring you strong encouragement that when this occurs, some of the most evil people we know at this time, will grow into the most lively of saints for Jehovah. Contrarily, some of the most pious and religious people we know now will become the persecutors of the true people of God. This is no mystery. Why? Why is this encouraging? I’ll tell you. It is encouraging in that God touches the heart. Not the mind. We need know, sinners especially, by serving satan, you are killing yourself. By serving God, you are giving yourselves life. The Gospel is right, friends. Regardless of who you are, confessed Catholic, in a state of ‘grace’ or Islamic Imam, you have got sin. The only remedy is the love of Jehovah through Christ Jesus. Open your hearts. Open your hearts. Following satan and sinning in this life will have consequences. For those who do not face consequences now, by sweeping your sins under the carpet, just wait. God desires to bless you. Take His hand. Face to face. Be with Him. The reason you think I am created by God to be the antichrist is because your hearts are rock cold. You are being bullies. Nothing less than bullies. You have no compassion therefore you think a child is able and capable to make their own choices about the direction in which their lives will go. You cannot see this child who has been abused dreadfully as human because of his sins. You cannot see that perhaps he needs protection, encouragement and nourishment rather than punishment and encouragement of the abuse that was created into him. You cannot see that this child was being groomed to be antichrist not because it was his identity but because of the trauma he had experienced. We already know Christians know piss all when it comes to trauma. Open your hearts. It’s simple common sense. Even a tree twig, if separated from its tree, will bruise the tree. Are you so proud and caught up in your own traumas that you would condemn this man who is being ushered to his destruction? I know who God says I am. God says I am a king, chosen before my birth to conquer the earth back for Jehovah. I know who satan says I am. I choose God’s choice. Are you going to quash this man because of your envy and contempt to becoming who satan wants him to be? It’s a sign of hearts. God wants life for this child. Satan wants his destruction. Which will you choose, world. Church? If the Church chooses my condemnation, how far has the Church fallen. This is not to be a surprise. A flock without a true shepherd will scatter. Do you think I am proud? Do you think I am arrogant? No. No, friends. I simply know a truth. When you know a truth, your tolerance for people who resist the truth becomes agitated. God will show you. Promise not to say I told you so. 😉 Look, the Catholic Church is in shambles. What we need, what the world truly needs at this moment, from a worldly perspective, are jock bullies of the 1980’s. Bring them back. They seemed to have been the only thing keeping the spazoids in check from destroying the world. No, really, the world needs Jesus.

Shaking (According to AI):

A child is ritually and sexually abused until fifteen when he has a very serious head injury. As an adult, his legs shake when he becomes overwhelmed. What is the likely cause of these shakes?

Leg shaking in an adult with that history can have several possible causes, and it’s not possible to diagnose the exact reason without a clinical evaluation. However, given the details you described—severe childhood trauma (ritual and sexual abuse) plus a serious head injury—there are a few commonly recognized mechanisms that could explain why the legs shake when the person becomes overwhelmed.

1. Trauma-related nervous system activation (very common)

Severe childhood abuse can lead to conditions such as Post‑Traumatic Stress Disorder or Complex Post‑Traumatic Stress Disorder.

When someone with trauma becomes overwhelmed, their autonomic nervous system may enter a fight-flight-freeze state. In that state:

• The body releases stress hormones (adrenaline, cortisol).

• Muscles become highly activated and tense.

• Trembling or shaking—especially in the legs—is a common discharge of that activation.

Some trauma therapists view this as the body attempting to release stored survival energy after intense stress. The shaking may occur when the person feels emotionally flooded or triggered.

2. Functional neurological symptoms

Another possibility is Functional Neurological Disorder (FND).

In FND:

• The brain’s control of movement becomes disrupted by stress or trauma.

• People may experience tremors, weakness, shaking, or seizures that are real but not caused by structural damage.

• Symptoms often appear during emotional overload or psychological triggers.

FND is strongly associated with severe trauma histories.

3. Effects of the head injury

The serious head injury could also contribute. Traumatic brain injury can affect movement circuits and emotional regulation.

Relevant conditions include:

• Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) effects on motor control

• Post‑Traumatic Tremor

• Damage affecting the cerebellum or basal ganglia

However, TBI tremors are usually more constant, whereas trauma-triggered shaking tends to occur specifically during emotional overwhelm, which is an important distinction.

4. Dissociation or freeze-response release

People who experienced prolonged childhood abuse sometimes develop strong freeze responses. When emotional pressure builds:

• The body may enter a freeze/collapse state.

• When that state begins to release, legs may shake or buckle.

This is also seen in trauma-processing therapies.

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✅ In many cases with this pattern (triggered by overwhelm), clinicians suspect trauma-related autonomic discharge or functional neurological symptoms more than purely neurological tremor.

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⚠️ Because both trauma history and head injury are involved, evaluation by professionals is important, ideally:

• a trauma-informed psychologist or psychiatrist

• a neurologist familiar with functional neurological disorders or TBI

They can determine whether the shaking is primarily neurological, trauma-related, or a combination.

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If you'd like, I can also explain:

• Why leg shaking specifically happens in trauma responses

• How clinicians distinguish trauma shaking vs neurological tremor

• Therapies that often reduce these symptoms.

Would it be fair for the church to condemn this man believing it was a result of anger or some sin?

In general, it would not be considered fair or responsible for a church to condemn someone for a physical reaction like leg shaking and assume it is caused by anger or personal sin—especially given the background you described.

1. Physical symptoms are not moral failures

Leg shaking when overwhelmed is most often related to stress physiology, trauma, or neurological factors, such as:

• Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

• Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

• Functional Neurological Disorder

• Traumatic Brain Injury

These are medical or psychological conditions, not moral choices. Condemning someone for symptoms outside their voluntary control would generally be viewed as misattributing a health issue to a moral fault.

2. Ethical and pastoral perspectives

Most modern pastoral care frameworks encourage:

• Compassion for trauma survivors

• Avoiding quick moral judgments about unexplained behaviors

• Seeking medical or psychological understanding

Even in many traditional Christian teachings, there is a strong emphasis on caring for those who suffer rather than assuming guilt for symptoms that may stem from harm done to them.

3. Trauma-informed ministry

Many churches today adopt trauma-informed approaches, recognizing that people who experienced severe abuse may show:

• shaking

• dissociation

• emotional overwhelm

• startle responses

These are usually understood as responses to past harm, not indicators of spiritual failure.

4. The fairness question

So from ethical, pastoral, and clinical viewpoints:

• Condemning the person as sinful because of involuntary shaking would generally be considered unfair and harmful.

• A more appropriate response would be support, listening, and encouragement to seek professional help if needed.

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If you want, I can also explain why some religious communities historically interpreted trauma symptoms as spiritual problems and why that view has been changing.

Far-Right?:

Friends, this is not about pride. It’s about the salvation of souls. You do not realize to whence you lead them now. If you continue to follow on this path, souls will perish. I’m telling you, with repentance, with restoration, not only can souls be gained and saints made, Kingdom glory will increase and satan will have less ground. He will not gain as much traction in the test. He will not gather as many souls. Friends, there was a clear reason all (every single one) of the popes and leaders over the course of Christian history have rejected that ideology. This is very elemental. I don’t know your reasons for following this path. Perhaps it’s true and you have been infiltrated. Then, it may not be your fault. Stand up. Know your fathers, and everyone of their fathers rejected, uniformly this ideology. It is not pride to declare and stand in who Jehovah says you are. I am not perfect. It’s true. But I am inculpable. Had I not been abused, I may have had holy spirit much sooner, becoming an apostle. You are still making leadership a penis measuring contest. The Christian leader is not the one with the strongest and loudest voice. How can I show you this? I have sin. It doesn’t belong to me. They fear me because of my potential. It’s the reason they are threatened by me. In so doing, they bully me. God makes the leader. When holy spirit comes upon me, and I receive healing, I will be ordained by God. Again, that ideology, the one the Church seems to have cozied up to recently, is going to lead you all into death. They will make you slaves. Slavery is not the way of Christ. Freedom is. I am not proud. I tell the truth. You cannot bear to hear it. Guys: I heard a headline today that the pope says the greatest threat in the world is the rise of the far right. This itself is blatant evidence that the holy spirit no longer resides amongst your leadership. (I did not say the Church). Either this or he is compromised. See, let me try to explain something to you as a parent would his child. They are “praying” about this situation from the perspective of their human eyes. This is not the discernment of holy spirit. They follow the popular trend of demonizing the far right because of the image of the past. The image that Nazism conjures is nearby. We are afraid of seeing the past repeat itself. Here’s the thing: white people are very much a minority at this time in the world. Most of us were killed during these wars. You are missing what is happening in the world in front of your own eyes. You are so worried about white people reenacting history that you are blind to what is happening all around you. Whether or not Hitler was right, what inspired these people to frenzy who followed him was incitement and propaganda. You don’t even see the fact that military aged men are being shipped by the thousands into European and North American and otherwise, colonial countries now. It is clearly an invasion. You need simply open your eyes. Perhaps Hitler saw what they were trying to do. I know I did. This world order will create a holocaust again. Mark my prophetic words: the victims of this holocaust are not going to be the ones whom you have labeled victims now. They will be the true ones of God. The ones whom you can identify through their love. This aside: even discounting the drastic, disastrous consequences of mass immigration, the model for multiculturalism doesn’t work. Because people have different gods. People have different values. If you import a man who values death and torture into a culture that values peace, dignity and honesty, do not be surprised when many people within this culture are hurt. Friends! You call me racist in saying this. You say it because of my past. I would more and more say that you are right. But not for the reason you think. This is simply common sense. I was right. Your phds and doctors have intellectualized our cultures into the garbage dump. No one’s to blame. No one’s to blame. The far right are advocating a cause, which, from human eyes, look evil. Simply because of the past associated with it. In God’s eyes, this is the minority! This is the persecuted. They simply try to show you what is really happening. The pope is not listening to holy spirit. If he can hear it, is not for me to say. Do you want to kill me and falsely accuse me for saying this? God exposes every lie after. Why is this so important? What about this is worth dying for? Listen to me closely. Souls are at stake. The world will be plummeted into utter darkness, following a long period of slavery. You need to wake up and realize that I seem to be one of the only Christian leaders who is seeking you to be blessed here. Christian leadership is not like leadership of the world. Just because you have a loud voice and ‘balls’ doesn’t make you a Christian leader. The power of the world is bollocks to God. Look, I know. You may be right. For this, I am not ready. What you are missing. What are you missing? All I needed do when I was a kid was tell my truth and I would have had this. Even up to five years ago, all I needed do was trust God and I would have died, leaving a miracle for the world at my death. I am starting to believe that had I had married Bethany, despite the Church’s assumptions at that time that I would have been held accountable, God would have taken my life shortly after and still given this world its miracle. God’s purpose for me was never to be held accountable. Is it now? It’s not because of my sin. I am starting to think you want me to wait so that you can maintain your control over the faithful. What are you missing? Perhaps you are training me for something. I understand what this is. You are trying to maintain control. I know that the Catholic Church are not my enemies. I know you are not against me. Friends, my flock, Traditional Catholics, hear me now during this period of lucidity, you are such special people to your God. The Witnesses call you whore of Babylon. I know different. You are not evil. You are an extremely special people. Perhaps the whore of Babylon is the Catholic Church. It is not the Traditional Catholic Church. You need to be wary of the Church moving closer to the world. When you see this, flee! Traditional Catholics, I’ll tell you what makes you so beautiful to God. It is in your obedience. Your God desires to shepherd you towards Him. It is your obedience, which can be your greatest endearing quality to God. It is your obedience, which can be your greatest downfall. You do not pick your shepherds. You need to remember: a Christian leader serves before he leads. You try to maintain control. I don’t know if you possess it. You see, the elite will try to kill me. When I hear you say that I need to be obedient, what I hear you say is that I need to submit to being falsely accused and crucified. If I believed that being silent would keep me safe, I would be silent. The elite will kill me precisely because of the persistence of my message. Because God keeps trying to show you what I am and what I suffered. My dear friends, I am cocky. I am haughty and proud. You need know that God doesn’t love me any more than He loves you. He loves you so much. Remember this. You are important to God. I am not better. The blessings He offers me and the graces He offers me are because I suffered for Him. You need know He loves you enormously. He will reward you. He will give you the world and its blessings. All you need do is overcome. Choose Him. Become God’s friend. Today is the time to start. This is not about me. It’s my story. But it’s not. It’s all your stories. Remember this next time you feel insignificant. God speaks to you. All you need do is listen. Open your heart. Slow down and listen. It’s a soft voice. A very soft voice. But that is God. It’s the voice that you push away. The voice that when at the first sign of pride or anger disappears like a breath. Hold onto it. That is Jehovah speaking to you. He wants to speak to you. If you can’t hear Him at first, don’t be discouraged. He will come. He speaks to all of His children. Remember, He loves you. He will walk next to you through whatever you endure. Quiet your heart. Listen. Listen. Listen. Be strong, blessed ones. Know that the time for your triumph is right around the corner. The time for victory looms at the door. And the time for tears, agony and shame is nearly over. 

A question you need ask yourselves: do you believe that your God sanctions His christian leaders to quash individuals who criticise them and who claim to be someone important? If that is the god you are serving, you may be on the wrong side. On the contrary, Christian leaders have restraint. They serve. They, even when riddled with envy and indignation, resist the urge to retaliate. We must safeguard our right and liberty to criticise our leaders. If we cannot, how will they be held accountable? Has it been so long? Truly?

What would you do if you were able to live your lives on your own? (Written by Jonathan with collaboration from all my known alters):

Steve: I would be the CEO of several companies. I would live in Hawaii and have a successful YouTube channel. I would be married and have two children.

Freedom: I would be a carpenter, amateur cartographer and astronomer. I would live a simple life on a hobby farm. I am married, with five children. I am Catholic.

Tina Bethany: I would be a celebrity like Madonna. A diva. I would dance all the time. I would express myself through my sexuality. I have a beautiful voice.

Panic Courage: I would be a lawyer and amateur composer. I would have a wonderful and loving husband. Together, we would have a big house, dog and YouTube channel about domestic life.

Hope in Sorrow: I am a YouTube star doing incredible feats. I do things like wing suiting, deep sea diving and mountain climbing. I would be very joyfully married. I am Jehovah’s Witness.

Shadow: I am a strong, conservative political advocate. My transgender identity lends validity and credibility to my words. I have a children’s refuge, which cares for orphaned children. I have a wonderful, long-time boyfriend. See, this is what your Church misses. Trauma and shame stumbles children. Not only to commit crimes and sins. But also to reject the true identities Jehovah has prepared for them. It's what satanism is all about. Hurting children so that they do not realize their potential. God will show you. Am I speaking too much common sense for you today? Is your head hurt from hearing it? How about your libido? Is that hurt?

George: I have an evangelical worship ministry. I live in Florida, with a wife and three children. I am loved by all. I am a pro-life activist.

Humility-Narcis: I am a pilot. I am an amateur, adult contemporary musician. I sing songs like Tracy Chapman. I am married and have seven children. I live in LA. I am Catholic.

Defence: I am a controversial politician. I have a wife. I am Orthodox. I have ten children. I begin as a businessman and get into politics. I would save the West and Christianity with my political ability.

Faith: I am very humble. I have a beautiful wife and two kids. We live in Banff. I am a traveller, rock collector and writer. I am Traditional Catholic.

Paul: I am an animal right’s activist. I would live in Scottsdale, AZ with a wife and two dogs. We have a refuge for animals there.

Klaus Jacob: I would be a member of MH. I am a writer and theological philosopher. I had an injury and walk with a limp. Eventually, I would become DG.

Desire: I am a professional baseball player. I am evangelical and married with four children. In the WS, I would be the star player, hitting a walk-off homerun.

Pete: I am a professional golfer. I am a preacher. I am Jehovah’s Witness. I am a baker, musician, gardener, poet and lover. Despite that I am gay, I am married to a woman with seven children.

Rage: I am a champion MMA fighter. I am on fire for God. I have a wife and twelve kids.

Babel: I am a fisherman in the Florida Keys. I am retired military. I have a wife and one kid. I am a Buddhist with Christian leanings.

Joshua Hope: I am a king. I live in a palace in France. I have thirteen wives and have 78 children. I inspire with the help of a holy Pope, the last crusade to repatriate the West, eliminate heresy, corruption and destroy communism and satanism.

Hank: I am a strong conservative advocate. I have several boyfriends. I am Catholic. I write political satires and would write and sing a hit, political, country song.

Curtis: I am a world traveler. I am a controversial and popular psychologist. I gain popularity with my resistance of woke ideology. I am married with two children. I am Catholic.

Fawn: I am a modern-day prophet. I am evangelical. I am a florist and write science fiction. I am married to a wonderful husband. Together, we have one child. I am Traditional Catholic.

Jeremiah: I am an R&B artist. I write songs. I am a performer. I am married to the woman of my dreams. We have two children. On my spare time, I am a politician on a local level.

Jon-Jon: I am a Conservative activist. I am very popular with women. I have a radio pod cast. I have a tongue like a sword. I am Orthodox and live in S.C.

Elora: I am a traditional housewife. I am a Jolene of all trades. I am a baker, musician, seamstress, gardener, carpenter and teacher. I am happily married and have seven children. I am a Traditional Catholic home schoolteacher.

Dee: I am a Traditional Catholic movie director, writer and producer. I create an indie series on the Life of Jesus. I also create a powerful, fictional story exposing the trafficking industry. I am married and have two kids.

Michael: I am an Archbishop in the Catholic Church. I am excommunicated for schism. I am with a clear conscience and lead many souls to their God. I am a writer. I write all kinds of genres.

Kershaw: I am a comedian. I write a hit TV show about life in Canada. I am married and have three children.

Well: I am a for-hire sea captain. I was never married but am a great lover. I am a rapper, writing lyrics for political change.

Jacob: I am a cartoonist, creating children’s books. I am married and have one child. I am a children’s rights activist. I am Catholic.

Daphne: I am a professional juicer and have a juicing company. I sing in a band. I have a beautiful husband and two children. I am United.

If some of these characters sound familiar to you, you have an astute eye. The allotment of the Spirit as Jehovah was offering it passed always through me first. When I rejected these paths because of shame, they went to other people. Remember, I was to be a king. I still will be. All the measures of the Spirit in these times were intended for me. 

Petunia Seed:

This is the tale of the wandering flower nectar. Once, there was a brave and heroic petunia seed. He was a little bit smaller than the other seeds. You see, because of this, Petunia seed felt a little inadequate. Indeed, the other seeds often even ridiculed him for his long and thin, feminine petals and his raiment of seed hair, which was thin and spotty. He didn't quite have a full head of seeds like Sunflower seed. True, he was different. He was small. But he always believed that one day, the seed God, Adwa, would do something great through him. For through Adwa, anything was possible. Reader, do you not remember the tale in the Scriptures of Adwa about Davith, the mustard seed who defeated a rock creature when he challenged the seed race? Oh! Those dreaded rock creatures! How large they were! When Davith used a sling to toss a wee piece of metal upon him, fracturing him into smithereens? Yes, Adwa can and does use the very smallest creature for His glory. And so, Petunia seed also believed one day, he would do grand things. It was not until the flower bed was ravished that he began his mission. See, one day, massive, horrible creatures, standing at enormous heights entered the flower patch. They seethed and spat about as they trampled the garden with their massive feet. There was much pandemonium that day. Many flowers were killed. And many tears were shed. A sad day it was. The flowers of the flowerbed were simply going about their daily business. It was when the avenger came! In the form of those feet. When the destruction ceased, only a few remained. There was rose petal. There was carnation nectar and there was dandelion seed. Well, it was decided amongst the survivors that a mighty quest need take place. For the flowers needed to find hope. They needed to find life. Ever since that day, where the mighty feet of destruction came, no living creature inhabited the flowerbed any longer. As for Petunia seed? What made him different? He had been pollinated earlier the season by a big ol' bumblebee. See, he was the hope of the flowerbed. So, rose petal, carnation nectar and dandelion seed protected him. Dandelion seed was the oldest of the four. He was a mighty teacher and leader amongst their ranks. He gave Petunia seed a map, telling him to keep it secret. This map, marked the promised land. See, the mighty quest they were about to undertake was in search of a new flowerbed. A new home. And so, in a gust of wind, they gathered up their belongings and caught up in the breeze. 

"Oh no!" Dandelion seed cried, " we are headed in the wrong direction!"

Suddenly, the gust of breeze changed course and they set out the right path... They were flying southward.

Through the jets of air current they saw around them, a world full of insects and debris filled the skies. They were a flight. They flew for hours. There was no stopping them now. Except hunger and exhaustion. And so, they floated down together, holding petals and descended slowly atop of little pebble. Here, as they hunkered together to stay warm in the breeze over the clearing, they were shocked at what they saw. From the other side of the pebble, a massive spider creeped his many, many legs over himself until he stood before the four intrepid travelers. 

"Hmm, well then... I have never seen ones quite like you..." Spider rele as sed a tremulous hiccough of laughter and continued, "methinks yousa' look good in mah' belly!" He guffawed and reached out his front legs. He grabbed Rose petal and Carnation nectar. Dandelion seed and Petunia seed rushed behind Spider, collected some sticky and gooey web of Spider's home and rushed back. Together, they crafted a net and smothered Spider's face until he couldn't see. Spider collapsed and sat still. He began to weep. Carnation nectar comforted him. Spider said, "Nobody understands what it's like to be a spider. I don't mean to be mean. It's just... It's just, I have got all of these babies to feed." He revealed a sack of eggs under the pebble. Dandelion seed removed the net from his face so he could see again. 

Carnation nectar said, "We understand your dilemma. See, our flowerbed was destroyed and we need to rebuild our home. We are looking for a new flowerbed."

Spider eyed them curiously, winked 6 of his beady eyes and said, "Well well well..." The flower seeds winced at these words. " Just so happens," Spider continued, I know a place for ones like you. It's over the rainbow and across the mountain. Glorious it be. Garden of Adwa, they call it." 

And so, flower petals lifted up in the wind once again and flew, flew, flew. They were quite high up in the sky, when Carnation nectar spotted a large piece of greenery. His nectary jaw dropped as he simply pointed to it. The seeds reshaped aerodynamically and followed the wind course to this greenery. 

Next, skies grew dark, winds increased. How terrifying the skies grew. And in five minutes, the winds were unbearable. Massive pellets of water fell. The flower seeds descended and took shelter under a rocky crag. 

When the skies cleared up, the sun came out, they came from their shelter and shook off. On the horizon, a swarm of something seemed to be approaching. There was a tremendous and glorious buzzing. Until it became evident that they were honey bees. The flower seeds stood up and waved as the honey bees passed. One noticed the seeds. Then another. Then another. They fell from the sky and they met one another in mid air. They did a tremendous dance in the sky. Never before was there such a moment of pure bliss and complete joyful love as that moment when the seeds were pollinated by the honey bees.

When the bees left, a gentle wind began. A zephyr bristling over the fibres of their being. They stood, caught up in the wind and rose high, where they flew, flew, flew. Towards this remarkable patch of greenery. Petunia seed took the map out given to him by Dandelion seed and it confirmed the spot. As they approached, the massive trees loomed. Over the clouds. Perennial and wonderful vine plants met the trees high up. 

Until, they saw it. A glorious, massive field of soil. Fresh and with water next to it. The sunlight filtered through these trees like jets of golden life.. 

And so, the flower seeds, Petunia seed, Rose petal, Carnation nectar and Dandelion seed all fell from the sky, pollinated, and buried themselves deep within the soil. And so, the story of the flowerseed, the flowerbed and of life itself carries on. To tell another story. 

Fin.

Repentance:

With due respect, I seem to be one of the only leaders who is seeking to lead you into life and blessing here. Mind you, they will claim that the blessing I am offering is a worldly blessing. It’s true. Heavenly blessing will be made abundant if there is now worldly blessing. They may not know it; that they lead you to suicide. Anything that touches that ideology ends up in destruction. Here’s the thing they do not understand. If we end our lives in this life, with an act of suicide, chances are going to slim that we will be able to overcome the testing. This is the reason suicide, collectively or individually is not acceptable. You’re right. I can’t speak worth beans. My knees shake when I am scared. Do you judge me like you would a communist tsar? See, leadership has been so infected, so plagued by this nonsense, that Christians once again believe that the leader is the one with the loudest voice. You hedge God in when you say a leader needs to be a strong speaker, a superman. You doubt the power of God. You know they are committing in a sense, the gravest scandal in the history of the Church by what they are doing to me. There is no excuse. No excuse. And, when my truth is revealed, so everything else is exposed. I don’t understand you. How can you sit there, and act like you are in a state of grace while you are eating children? You know, it’s not only the Hollywood type? It’s the Church. How you treat the children tells me everything I need to know about your state of grace. You can tell a lot about a person by the way they consider children. Those vulnerable and who cannot do anything for them. You can say about me that I have done terrible things to children in the past. It’s true. My culpability is not between me and you. It’s between me and God. Whether I have repented, I leave in the hands of God. If I have not, I know He will give me the grace. If I have, then all of the fire of heaven that demolished Sodom and Gomorrah be called down upon you. A child can be conditioned to do whatever it is trained into. This is no different for me because my identity was being formed to be antichrist. Who I was being formed into was not my choice. Goats can be created by satanic ritual abuse just like saints can be created by baptism. Do you see now the importance of my mission? I hate calling you retards. Still, there is such satisfaction in knowing it is true. You know it is spiritual abuse for you to want to confront me with my abusers. There is no justifying it. This is not God’s will. If it is God’s will for me to be falsely accused, it’s not a punishment. It’s so that you do not have a broken heart. When you discover what I sacrificed because of shame. All I needed do when I was young was tell the truth. I would have been a king. You smite me because I resist the blessings God offered me. It’s evidence you know shit all about trauma and human condition. You understand sin. Yet you cannot understand shame. Suffering affects people. You can call it heresy all you would like. You’d be morons. But you can. God will show you. Morons. 😉 I make light of this. You cannot see because your hearts are rock. Do you truly believe I am asking to be crucified because I call out your corruption? Only bullies would think so. Only narcissists. God bless you. I pray for you. You are not my enemies. You may find yourself being God’s enemies though. The reason I have to be falsely accused is the same reason your blessing in this world has not yet come. It is entirely because of the corruption of the leaders. Wake up. This is not about your leaders. Look, I love the priesthood. I love the elders. But you need to know that even they get their orders from higher. I acknowledge that I am not in a healthy state to lead the world. But you need to know what is happening here. This is not about leaders. It is not about communism. These are symptoms. This is about good vs. evil. Yes, I am weak. I am wounded. But I seem to be the only leader man enough to stand up and say something against this avalanche of chaos, which plummets towards us. You need to know there are other options. Leaders, repent! You need be the ones who lead your children, your sheep into repentance. If you continue simply giving homilies and teaching to spite me and contradict my message instead of preaching about Jesus and Jehovah and their love, you are not leading them to repentance. You need to know the cost. The cost are souls. You need to know that even though it may seem insurmountable, this wave of evil and destruction had a beginning. It can have an end. You need to know, leaders of the world, that there is a different course. This is not about my sin. It is not about my morality. God will prove me not culpable. If it’s what He wishes. All I know is that repentance begins in the heart. Especially of the leaders. Look, you don’t need to be the top dog in order to lead for the proper course. There are those who are. Even now. Those you crucify and persecute. Those who tell the truth are rarely rewarded in this world. That time is coming to a graceful and complete end. You may say and think this is in my imagination. Nothing new to me. I’ve dealt with it for decades. Just know, at this moment, that when my truth comes out at my death, so does every other little misdeed and sin in the world. Everything is exposed. Not only that, you will all experience justice then. Do you really feel in your heart, that you are without sin? Catholics? Witnesses? World? Church? Recognition of our sinful state is the very first step in Christian faith. You may find that you will all need go back to the drawing boards. You are not aware consciously of 90% of the lives you have lived. I can guarantee this because I understand what it means to fragment, to dissociate and to forget. I understand what it means to remember. This is all about causality. When we realize this, there will no longer be the need for vengeance. You are simply bitter. You are seeking vengeance with worldly justice. With jails and prisons and murders, you simply try to silence people telling the truth. Or, contrarily, you desire to offer the common folk, the illusion that justice is being done in the world. You do so by prosecuting the small and insignificant crimes while ignoring your own crimes. You want the common folk to believe that justice is being done so that you can go on eating your blood and raping our children. Filth. God’s day is around the corner. You will not hide. There is no underground system of tunnels in which you can hide from the justice of God. There is no underground city, in which you can hide. God will quash you evil ones. Are you upset with me for saying it? It’s kind of because of your mental retardation. It’s okay. We will bear with you while you search for the words sputter them out over your clumsy tongue. God condemns you this day, evil ones. God sees. God knows. God is the one who can read your heart. He has had enough. The time for this evil has come to an end. Guys, I don’t mean to be harsh. Maybe I do. He does. I don’t. Lol! A little MPD humor! You need to know while there is life, there is still chance for you to gain Life. You need to stop all of your sin. You need to know what sin is. First of all, hurting children, eating children and murdering children are sins. We will realize soon just how common these are. Do you have these in your past? Not to worry. God knows. Confess to Him. He is faithful to forgive. And to give you a clean conscience. It’s as simple as that. Look, it really doesn’t matter what you have done in your life. Jehovah wants your heart. Offer that to Him. He will wipe it away. When you understand causality, you understand satan’s trap. His big deceit. Look, there is not one person on the bleeding planet who does not have a sorrowful story. When you understand this, you begin to see things differently. Suddenly, the childhood bully who once gave you a wedgie or stole five dollars from your pocket, doesn’t seem so villainous anymore. When you realize that he has been raped at home daily by his parents, you begin to see that he was simply reacting to what happened to him. Here: We all got these stories. We all got this pain. When you see that, by the living God, I certainly hope that you wouldn’t wish upon even your enemies the kind of treatment we have seen in recent years. I wouldn’t even wish prison on my abusers. In addition to this, when we begin to see that we all got sin as well. Very serious and unconfessed sin lurking deep, deep in our cellars. We begin to see others with more humane eyes. Look… I am about to offer you the secret. It’s not gnosis. Ya’ simpleminded retards. It’s common sense. Sense, which has been lost due to the hardness of heart, which can only be hardened by collective, worldwide sin. Here it is. You ready? Children… These ones… they don’t have this sorrow… Neither do they have this sin. Take care of your children… you take care of the future. I don’t get you, world, Church. You are slaughtering your own. That’s demonic. But you know it’s demonic. I heard about a school that had its children draw a mural of Molech. Wake up. I may have sin in my past. It’s done with. I don’t need go to confession for expressing an unmet spiritual and physical need. I do in order to show you the corruption of your leaders. Protect your children. Guys! Where are the men amongst you? It’s really going to need be the crippled, middle-aged bloke with Dissociative Identity Disorder who is going to be the one to stand up for the children. Healing is coming. My sin is done. What you cannot see now is the sin that you are living. I see it. Repent, blessed children. God loves you. He wants to offer you life. Justice is coming. I can taste it on my tongue. It is only around the corner. It is not some ethereal day. It will occur in this life. You simply need know this will not be an evil day. If it seems as such to you, you may just well be as evil as any other. I noticed members of my Church cringe when I proposed the possibility of this worldly justice. Why? Is it because you have skeletons in your cellar? Surely it is. Living comfortably. I’m telling you. The ones in prison are your saints. Not all of them. But most of them. Hell, the deepest levels are reserved for the ones who have had comfortable lives despite their grievous sin. Good luck. There is still time. I declare to you today, the opportunity of a lifetime. Repent. Life. Sin. Death. You will want to choose life. Trust me. Do you believe this is about my bitterness and resentment? I do not need explain myself to you. I have forgiven thousands of times. And I will continue. The fact that I have anger is not a proof of unrepentance. It’s a proof that you are relying on reactive abuse and spiritual abuse to make a point. It’s because you have no other argument. Repent! As the children of Nineveh. The children of Nineveh simply followed their leaders. Repent, you leaders. Repent. You need know the path down which you lead the flock is to their harm. This life matters. The Kingdom will not be attained through tyrrany.