Revive Us, LORD!

“But there is need for a further restoration. It is for the sake of souls. If Dag wins this fight. . . if there is no restoration, he will drag with him billions of innocent human souls to the Gehenom. Just as the Son was transfigured prior to his murder, the Aretz now will endure a transfiguration so to speak. It will not only prepare the faithful for the trials that await them. It will provide many the needed help they need to turn to mercy. This is where you come in. Before you were born, Charadrii, you chose, bravely, to endure this suffering so that this transfiguration of the world could occur. They will see their own sin. And they will have a choice. If the end occurs now, many will say they were not prepared. They will say they did not know. If only they knew. After this. . . after this transfiguration, they will know. They won’t be able to have an excuse.”

A quote from my newest book “Charadrii”.

Here is the primary reason for the restoration: the shepherds, the clergy need to be reoriented to a right path. There are much corruption and much sin even in this class. The Book of Malachi speaks to this restoration and purification of the Temple. It’s interesting how it’s the same book that prophesies the return of Elijah. Here: I get the feeling that you think me to be unzipping to measure against you. I am not saying that I am better. You need to get a grip. I am not asking to be hurt simply because I am drawing attention to the fact that you are corrupt. I am not asking to be hurt simply because I am drawing attention to your envy. I am saying: You don’t seem to recognize how perilous it can be for the true flock when the shepherds are struck. The flock scatters. Of course you do not think you are corrupt. Maybe you do. If you do, how dreadful that you are trying to censor me. That you use my sin against me as leverage is probably to be expected. But God will show you what is happening. The infiltration has become crystal clear. If it is true, that communism and other nefarious organizations have infiltrated the Church and her teachers, what does this say about her teaching? I am not saying I am a better choice. You know my fate. It wasn’t supposed to be my fate. God’s Spirit was meant to act in me when I was young and I was supposed to be a king then. I am a king. This was not the life I was supposed to live. God will show you. The reason their discernment is off is because they are worldly. They do not see by faith. They do not understand who they are fighting against. Jehovah has promised me that at my death the truth about what happened to me will come out. Not as a reward for me. But as a blessing for the world. They do not understand that this blessing is a thing that Jehovah desires. Do you not desire it? How is the state of your world going? They do not seem to recognize the impact that truth will have. They are trying to cancel me (as they cooperate with Communism to do it) because they believe that my reputation is associated with my message. They think that if they cancel me, they can highjack my blessing and message. Watch them! They will cancel me. For sure they will. That won’t stop them from stealing my message. Watch them! The crooks! You who are so high and mighty and with no sin. What are you going to do with the wisdom God gave me? Crooks! God speaks to whom He speaks to. He chooses whom He chooses. Better luck next time. If Jehovah speaks to me, what does this say about my wisdom? Wisdom is not a thing you can fake. Who gives me this? Satan? The same was said of Jesus. The fact is that Satan cannot create. He doesn’t have wisdom. Schooling? Hahahahahahahahaha. Schooling has destroyed faith. Schooling only teaches you how to be a better servant of the world. Wisdom cannot be attained by anything of this world. What does it tell you about wisdom that you don’t need to pursue education to attain it? We need to pray for it. If God doesn’t respond? Again, if I am teaching heresy, watch them carefully. Watch them after my death. What will their message entail at that time? They can slander me because I am angry. They do not even understand what anger is. It is not a bad emotion. It is not evil. Everyone, put in the same situation, has the potential to become angry. Anger develops in response to injustice. Who is the aggressor? The one who satanically abuses their child or the child who gets angry at it? Anger is an overwhelming inability of expression of grief, sorrow, fear and shame. It rarely grows on its own. Anger directed towards a specific end can give the bearer absolute clarity, absolute motivation, absolute determination. It can even cause incredible creativity, the likes of which the world has never seen. Friends, you are missing the point, we have all got anger. It’s what we do with it that matters. There is little purpose for me trying to explain or justify the nature of my abuse any longer. I know it makes me inculpable. I know I am right. God will prove this. The nature of my childhood was not conducive to the expression of healthy anger. I am learning. I have better role models. God is on my side. You will not get me angry. But it is telling of the state of your hearts in using the mental health of someone who has endured terrible injustice as a weapon against that one. You’re simply bullies. You are correct in saying there is no government or king of this earth who could create lasting change. One who is free from corruption could. One who is anointed with the true holy spirit could. For a time at least. If this one’s reign were to come, it would be perfection. For a time at least.

Look, I am sorry that I am hard on you. Here’s the truth: I love the priesthood. I adore it. Jehovah adores it. Why would someone become a priest unless he wanted sincerely to shepherd a flock? I wonder about those who seek power in religious authority. Here’s the thing: for those in authority, there is much responsibility. Jehovah will hold them to account at a higher level than those of the flock. I also cherish the Eucharist. I have no argument against this. Except, let the hands of the one offering Him be pure. Are you cleaner and more loved by Jehovah because you partake? It is a beautiful Sacrament. When I first converted, I attended Mass sometimes three times a day. When I found a piece of the Eucharist on the ground after Mass, I brought Him to the priest. The Eucharist is a blessing to our faith. Never think that if you are unable to receive Him for a time or if you are denied Him, you are somehow less loved by God. The love of God transcends any physical sign of love. If the Eucharist were the access to faith, what could be said of a man who goes to gulag for decade? Would he be condemned simply because he had not the Eucharist? The Church’s understanding of mortal sin is backwards and repressive. Sin is sin. There is a human element to it. One you have been missing. The priests are caught up in a catch. See, if the seminaries are fallen, their education and training have also been tainted. Our priests are not the problem. These are, for the most part, good. The problem is deeper. Or higher should I say?

There is a figure who will come who will deceive many. I have met him personally. Don’t tell me he doesn’t exist. Another reason the restoration must occur is because if the Faithful King doesn’t come alongside the antichrist, the world will all be deceived. If King doesn’t come, very, very few will be saved. I wish he didn’t exist. But his existence is according to the will of Jehovah. He is not doing the will of Jehovah. But he will come so that those remaining on the earth will be tested. It’s so that the true intentions of hearts will be made clear.

He has put a new song in my mouth, Praise to our God, Many will see it and fear, And will trust in the Lord. Psalm 40:3

Through this time, there will be conversions of every nation. Here, especially the Jews will convert. Luke 13:34-35: "I tell you, you will not see me until the time comes when you say, 'blessed be he who comes in the name of the Lord.'” It is pride, which seeks to claim ownership on Jehovah’s love. The fact is that Jehovah chose the Jews first. We, gentiles, have only been grafted in. They rejected Him, it’s true. It does not change Jehovah’s promise. I have knowledge of this personally. God cannot revoke His promise. Those in the Kingdom of Heaven can and choose a different allegiance. As for Jehovah, His heart is pure. He is completely loyal. Jehovah loves to death. He keeps His promises. This mass conversion of the Jews will be synonymous with the happenings of the entire world. When this day comes, Jews will convert, yes. It will be a sign to nonbelievers. Nonbelievers will also convert. The conversion of Jews will be a manifestation of awareness. What awareness, you ask? I am so pleased you asked! Compassion. Your hearts will be stirred. And you will once again see things with love. As it says in Romans 11:25-27, a dullness of sense has come upon the eyes of Israel. When the rest return, Israel’s eyes shall be opened and they will experience salvation, the forgiveness of their sins. As it says in Zechariah 12:10, an awareness is coming to our Jewish brothers and sisters. They will suddenly realize their actions and weep. They will realize that Jesus is the Messiah and understand. This does not mean that every Jew will convert to Christ. But throughout the grave, the message will be spread. Throughout the world, the message will be spread. Jesus is the Messiah!

O God, You are my God, Early will I seek You, My soul thirsts for You, My flesh longs for You, In a dry and thirsty land, Where there is no water. Psalm 63:1

There’s a skeleton in everybody’s closet. When the Illumination of Conscience occurs, the world will be made aware, in an instant, of its actual state before Jehovah. Here’s the thing: you think I am a bad person because of my sins. You’re not even aware of the sins that lurk in your own closet. Who can justifiably say that they are aware of everything, every event in their memory? We forget a lot. There are a lot of murders that have been committed. Lots of rapes. World over. That have been forgotten. You just forget. So that you can function. How much truer this is for those in power? Those with authority? I wish I could show you just how beautiful a thing this will be. It will sting. Like ripping a bandaid off. Afterwards, we can begin the process to healing. Look: I know what it’s like. Carrying a sin with you so close to your chest that you completely forget about it. I am the one telling all of you – priests, popes, teachers, doctors, actors, directors, presidents, princes, you are all sinners. Everyone of you have sins in your history. Some you cannot even remember they are so serious. Here: The beginning to healing, for any Christian, is to recognize our sinfulness. It’s only a start to the process of faith. What does it say of priests and holy people who think they got no sin? They are white as doves? Confession gets a bit. Here’s the thing I am trying to tell you: You’ve got sin in you. You are not even conscious of.

The communism they are supporting is the same disease that is destroying our world. I don’t get your apathy and almost cooperation. I get the impression that when you hear me advocating against immigration, you hear a race argument. What you keep talking about, the fence that Jehovah sets to keep out those who don’t love Him. This very same concept is occurring all over the world right now. The fences have not only been opened. They have been knocked down. This fence has been knocked down for the nations. I heard a stat recently saying that in 2020, 400000 immigrants came to Canada. You’re missing the picture. In 2021, with COVID, 800000. In 2022, 1000000+. In 2023, 1.5 million +. These are not precise stats. Go look it up! This is not immigration. This is open borders. Friends, you have seen the effect this all has on our nations and countries. The remedy is so incredibly simple that a child could spell it out for you. Seems the more we adult, the more retarded we become. This is no surprise. It’s our sin in us that amasses the older we get. This is the problem in our world. In fact, there is no other. Every western culture will break. They are replacing us. By listening to their teaching, you are complicit. I want to make clear: I am not against immigration and helping refugees. But, if we accept the world’s refugees, we shall become fourth world ourselves or worse. A nation looks after its citizens first. Then it seeks to help the universe around it. I know you are eager to be justified in your profound correctness that the end has come. But do not let your drive for vindication blind you from the reality that things can improve if Jehovah desires it to. I shall be silent on immigration, politics now. We shall see what Jehovah desires.

In an instant, the world will be made aware of its terrible sin. Essentially every person on earth. Do you not realize how glorious a moment this will be for all of mankind? If sin really separates us from Jehovah, this moment will offer us the grace to really and completely make the choice between Him and satan. Jehovah and Jehovah. And satan and satan. There will be justice. This justice shall be a foretaste of divine justice. So that the world will know God’s presence is real. There will be a line drawn differentiating between evil and good. I’m not trying to scare you. But you need to be aware of two things. First: you have secret sins. Very serious ones. No matter who you are. Second: This truth is coming out. Very soon. This needs to happen so that all hearts are realigned to Him before the end. So they can have the actual choice when choice comes. Our souls must be prepared for Jesus’ return. Men need to repent. This needs to happen so that people will repent. Mankind has become evil to the nails. If the world ends now, very few will be saved. Know that there are not enough prisons to house the guilty on that day. There will be a profound expression of mercy. An outpouring of Holy Ghost. Mass confession. God will see. Yet He will pardon. It will be your own hearts that convict you.

Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord, and that He may send Jesus Christ, who was preached to you before. Acts 3:19-20

You think I am treading water by saying this. That’s only because of the monopoly on power you have been given. What is Christian leadership? Is it a tyranny? Is it a dictatorship? Previous popes including our present pope have indicated that that is true. I would like to offer a different perspective. Christian leadership serves. It humbles itself before its subjects like a child. This power has gone to your head. I have the right to say whatever I want. And to be safe in doing so. Free from threat. Free from murder. Here: expect me to be silent. Yet you have cameras in my asshole and microphones in my skull. Guys, if you don’t like what I say, stop the surveillance.

Listen: Your worship deviates from truth. Every form of worship. Even my Catholicism. Even the Witnesses. In spite of our best efforts to recapture the Truth, the Way has been corrupted by millenia of corruption and sin. The message of Jesus has been filtered. And, of course, you want to believe that your religion encompasses the fullness of truth. It’s your faith that tells you so. Your faith is beautiful. We have what is essential, it is true. But, how much more glorious the fullness of truth when it is realized. How many more souls will be brought to Jehovah when it is realized? Your faith is so incredibly precious, friends. When it is strengthened, there will be no stopping the Children of God!

My restoration is not a political restoration. It is part of it. But this is much greater and grander. With truth, you will understand the need for hearts of children to turn towards parents. Children are broken and hurting. Politics is meaningless. It possesses within itself no power to change. Jehovah is the one. Do you wonder how there have been previously, times of restoration? Josiah? Abraham? Elijah? Acts of Apostles? Jonah? It has not been the human effort. Human effort will always fail to create lasting change. Jehovah is the one who stirs hearts and creates change. You try to silence me because you believe that by doing so you can prevent my revival. Who knows why? A treat for the first to respond! Could be because, they are now hand in hand with the enemy of civilization. Could be because their leadership has become intertwined with this enemy of civilization. Could be because of their contempt that God would speak to someone other than them. Either way, you miss the gravity of this. You can silence me all you want. With truth, everything is proven true. I will be completely justified and vindicated. No matter how foolishly you try to cancel me. The jig is up. Your time has come. You have failed. You have failed your Highness. I am a Jedi. Like my father before me. My father is Jehovah. Your father is the father of lies. Do you not see? They are trying to finish the work satan started? They are like their father.

This is and has always been about resurrection. The resurrection power of God is so powerful. It literally causes me to weep. I believe, strongly in the resurrection. Jesus rose from the grave. Just like we believe in the resurrection of the body, is a resurrection of the world and of the Church too difficult for God? You cannot see it because you have not asked for it. You have not asked for it because you are eager for the world to cease. It is like a flower. Fading and fading. You see people who are opposed to the gospel. Let me tell you what I see. I see potential candidates for conversion. The great commission never ceases, friends. And I will tell you surely: If I can convert, if I can have a change of heart, Jehovah has the ability to touch any heart. Any heart in the world. Believe! Believe! Believe in the resurrection, friends. Our loving and beautiful, noble and pure God has been showing us throughout the years. Peter and Paul raised dead to life. Saints have raised dead to life. Two come to mind for me. St. Joan of Arc. and St. Philip Neri. Guys! Can you not see? Can you not see the hand of Jehovah at work? Here: The hand of Jehovah is busy until this very day. The hand of Jehovah creates. He is eager to create. All we need to do is ask Him to create. He will restore everything. And then! Then, the world will see. They will see and know without a doubt, that He is LORD! Only He can do that. And He will. But we need to ask Him. I am a preacher. Nothing less. I am not a prince. I am not a prime minister. Yet, God speaks to me. May we be attentive to His words. To all who say they have no time for God, I laugh at you. Not out of contempt but out of pity. Your knee will bow too. God loves you all so very much. He desires to show you how much He loves you. By recreating a hope not seen since the beginning. Satan is the one who believes in the destruction. I cannot believe my church wants to follow satan. I can’t believe how anyone in this world could want to follow satan. He is literally trying to kill you and you are handing him the gun. Take it from one who served him, though extremely under duress, you’re not gaining a thing by serving him. Offer your hearts to Jehovah and His Christ. He will give you Life. He’s the only one who can.

O Lord, I have heard Your speech and was afraid, O Lord, revive Your work in the midst of the years! In the midst of the years make it known, In wrath remember mercy. Habakkuk 3:2

Guys, lest you believe this message is all conviction and gloom, I want you to know foremost, my message is one of an incredible hope. I am telling you. There is reason to rejoice. The most important reason for the restoration before the end of things is a glorious reason. If you cannot see it, I just ask you to give me time. To give Jehovah time. The reason Jehovah will create peace is so that His goodness will be known. In these last generations, there has been much pain. It is the reason for this universal justice. It will come as a strength to those holding the gate, encouragement to those fighting for truth. It will come as vindication for the poor souls who were defeated in this life by these powerful people. The blood of Abel is crying out for justice. It will come as an urgent wake up call for these powerful people. In many cases, rather, it will come as condemnation. If you cannot see how this is glorious, maybe you have secret sins? This generation needs to know God’s goodness. They have forgotten. So many lies. So much death and violence. You can shame me, lie against me, silence me. It is not me who speaks. You can neglect me. I am not looking for attention. I am looking for validation of what I endured. You don’t have to treat me like a flower. Man’s glory is urine on the floor. But soon, you will realize what has been robbed from me and help me. In addition to a message of repentance, I am calling out. It looks like I am the only one calling out. Telling you that with a little bit of repentance, just a little bit, things in this world can be better, more glorious than they have been for most of history on earth. Things can be like how they were originally intended. If this happens, you can trust and trust well that when the end comes, God will differentiate perfectly between hearts. When this happens, no one will be able to say, “I didn’t know.” For they will see, fully and completely, the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God. When they do not choose Jehovah after this, it will be their choice. Not Jehovah’s. Repent! The Kingdom of God has come! And it is fabulous! Become like children. Have you even ever seen a child? Really examined the way it behaves? When it loses a mother or a father, when it is hurt? All it desires is to be comforted. The crazy thing about them? They actually believe they will receive this comfort. It is crazy because in this disgusting world us adults have made, we overlook the needs of others like they are leeching goodness from us. The child, still, even though he is deprived of being comforted by us knowledgeable and wise adults, is the first one to comfort the adult when they are hurt. Become like children. Innocent and vulnerable. This is where the secret to holiness lies. In vulnerability. God hasn’t changed His mind. It’s been written since creation that before the end came, He would restore all things.

But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength, They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Remember compassion. Without that, what are we? Remember compassion. Truth will come out. You might get a surprise. I’m not making any of this up. There will be reason to rejoice. God bless you. I am prepared. Remember that whatever darkness comes, will be quashed. Trauma and unprocessed suffering is like leaving a door open for the evil one. I was a child. All I will do is continue to have faith and to express love. It’s all about God’s mercy. If you believed in God’s mercy, you would see why Jehovah would want to save the world before the end. Like Jonah, like Abraham, God relents from the destruction He promised. For the life of me, I cannot understand how you are rooting for the world’s destruction. Obviously, you are anticipating a greater thing after the end. But we need to know the importance of life. Just like with the human person, an act of suicide does not end well. Please don’t commit suicide, world. By embracing what you seem to be, it is tantamount to suicide. Let us fight. Let us fight for our loved ones. Let us fight for our culture we have built. Let us fight for ourselves. Let us fight for our children. Who convinced you to give up? Don’t you have the conviction to stand for Jehovah? If you have the faith and strength to die for Him, where is this same conviction in living for Him? Please, in addition to a call for repentance, I am telling you that God doesn’t want us to roll over and accept defeat so soon. Here: defeat in this life leads to defeat in the next life. I am not talking about physical defeat. Homeless? That’s not what I mean. I mean despair. Shame. Spiritual defeat. For the love of all that is holy, Church! Who broke you? I cannot find a word to describe how foolish it is to think Jehovah wants us to surrender our lives in this world. Suicide = probability of eternal death.

I’m asking with love, please don’t get caught up in the superficial aspects of my life, don’t make assumptions regarding the way I act so that you forget what I have been through. There’s a reason for everything in this life. Hope you can see why this is exhausting for me. And it’s really traumatizing for me when the truth is concealed. None of this is how it was supposed to happen. I was meant to be at rest. Still, I’m hardly thinking of myself or my loss. My heart breaks when I think of what has happened. Remember compassion. Without that, what are we? Facts are not truth. The evil one is skilled at covering up truth, which clearly includes covering up facts. Truth will come out. What I know is that if I do overcome death and find rest through my faith in God, there are many ways that truth can be made known to the world. In certain timelines, there will be a miracle for the world. Just trust. Believe that good things can happen, world. Believe that good things can happen.

I will not stop speaking truth. There is a reason truth is so obscured and the darkness has become strong. I continue to remind myself that your reaction and disbelief is understandable. Wait for truth. Then there will be opportunity to rejoice. Truth will come out.

This is not the only reason I didn’t tell when I was a kid. Most of my life, I simply could not remember what happened. I have DID. The psychiatrists don’t want to see me and are delaying offering me an appointment because they know it’s true. If I were to receive a diagnosis, I may just be criminally not responsible for my sins. Huh? There seems to be a lot of oppression, which if it didn’t exist, would place me receiving the power that was created for me. If it didn’t exist, the natural flow of justice would bend in this direction, wouldn’t it? Keep oppressing me. God is greater.

You’re not giving me a chance. When you have cameras up my colon and a microphone in my brain, the fact is you’re going to see something that displeases you. You’re just being bullies. You have this leverage over me and it excites you. I keep telling you. There is no reason to measure your manhood with mine. I secede. You win. But, it doesn’t really matter what I say does it? For one greater than I approves of me. Even over you. Jehovah has approved of me. How can I show you the devastating and satanic nature of communism? Maybe I can’t. But I need to try. I can’t sit by idly and watch our country, our world and our souls sell themselves out to evil, evil men. Evil as nails. Here: your faith is really quite adorable. I can only wish to develop a faith as rock solid as yours. But you’re missing a lot here. To you, the communists serve as kind of a means to an end. They will literally be the end. See, I have a bit more optimism in terms of this world. I would be an irresponsible shepherd were I to simply stand by and watch as my world, my church and my flock, embraces the death that calls out to them. I’d be like the rest of these shepherds. Hah! I am very simple. I am not even aware of the little plan they have for me. I know they’ll try to cancel me. It’s what communism does best. All I know is this conviction in my heart that things can improve phenomenally before the end approaches. Like I say, I can scare you. I can teach you. I cannot control what you, in the end, do. But I can warn you. This ideology you, world, are embracing, is wicked. You will be destroyed. Is it worth the risk to wager that you don’t have a soul. If Paschall’s wager is true, how much truer if we have an immortal soul? Why is the Great Commission so great? We are commissioned to preach the Gospel to the end of the world. Does this stop at politics? Religion? You do not seem to recognize the fact that by reaching the leaders, the kings and the princes, you can affect a greater change than by going to every soul in the world. Good princes can rise. The end will come. It is close. Let us appoint a prince to restore faith and order and justice and goodness to the earth before that day. You preach a lot about truth. Yet you ignore common sense. Walking today, I caught people’s glances of incredulity. To a couple of them, I said, “Does it really have to be me who is the guy to show you how silly this idea is? A crippled, middle-aged man?” I have no intention of being hurt more. And know that I am not provoking you by calling attention to your dreadful, dreadful envy and corruption. Our feelings and actions are our own. No one else’s. If you hurt me, it will be entirely your choice. Your foolishness. I am the one screaming from the mountaintops, leaders, Church, kings, laity, children, repent! The Kingdom of God has come! Things can and will get better. But you have got to repent. This is not about my sin. If I am in mortal sin, I leave this to God. He will show you the truth. He will also judge me righteously. The fact is that you all are also in mortal sin. You simply don’t remember it. My sin serves as leverage for you to keep me silent. In fact, it never was about my sin. This is about the world’s sin. This is about the Church’s corruption and sin. This is about the secret sin. REPENT! For the Kingdom of God has come. All it takes is a change of heart. And as we have seen time and time again in Bible accounts, repentance works. Let it start from the top. Are you upset at me for pointing out the fact that there are secret sin in the world? What could this indignation mean? Perhaps it is true? Look: This is not a thing I am secretly plotting. I am not scheming to have God bring out all your sins when truth comes out. I am not that powerful. My story is. It’s just something that is going to happen with truth. You can try to hinder it. You’re gonna’ look like mighty, mighty fools. And your sin, in that case, will be even filthier. Again, I am not plotting to do this. Just going to happen. There may be no avoiding it. How do you like your humiliation? With a side of just desserts? 😉 Take it from one who has seen all your hearts. You don’t want to hinder this. There is more chance of going to hell if you enter purgatory with all of this weight. Goodness! Think of your souls! I see through your crowns. I see through your religious garbs.

Will You not revive us again, That Your people may rejoice in You? Psalm 85:6

This is going to be the final post I post here for a while at least. I feel as though I need to rely on and place my trust more completely into the hands of the Father. With the faith that whatever arises, He will redeem and glorify me as I deserve. I will continue to write. I will absolutely not give up. I'm asking for your mercy. Believe me, with the fullness of my heart, I want the best for all of you. And if I have hurt people (I know I have) God knows how sorry I am. I hope that you can sympathize with me and what I was going through. Please just know how much you are valued and loved. Remember that it is not against the Gospel to help those who are suffering. Jesus, come. “The Spirit and the Bride say, ‘Come.’ And let the one who hears say, ‘Come.’ And let the one who is thirsty come; let the one who desires take the water of life without price.” (Revelation 22:17). Salvation is available to everyone. I went into this knowing I'd have little support. Darkness has been permitted to grow strong. But only for a time. Truth will come out. I am certain of this. In everything, God be praised. Read it again. Whatever happens tomorrow, I know and rest my faith in His love. Whatever darkness comes, will be like dust. It will last only a while. I’m prepared for what’s ahead. Your world is hurting right now. Healing is coming. Rest is coming. In whatever must follow, please know that while I am here, I will continue to encourage, to explain and to help. If you are willing, keep faith, please. I know it’s difficult to believe in something without corroboration, especially coming from a man who is as emotionally scarred and sinful as I am. There’s a powerful statement that goes that out of the most damaging wounds and deepest scars, emerge the most beautiful souls. I guess I know now that I do not deserve a lot of the things God has offered me. But I have faith that He will give me more than that on the day of my judgement because of His great love. I am not asking you to have faith in me. Have faith in God’s capacity of love. We can focus on the bad things in life, the things we don’t have. Have you ever paused to think about how great your life is? To think about the amazing gift you’ve been given. Lately I have been going through an awful lot of reflecting. Some of it has been positive. But a lot of it has been negative. I want you to know that we have a right to our feelings, to feel discouraged and hurt. And that whatever we are feeling, there is reason for why we feel. This is human. But it’s so very important to return to the absolute certainty that you are loved. We need to explore these recesses of hurt. But with the foundation of love and hope for the future. I know this is difficult for you to believe me. It’s difficult for me to know a truth and have it clouded in obscurity to the rest. The darkness is strong here. But people make choices in this life, which we will be held accountable for sooner or later. Don’t misunderstand the reasons people do things. I just have faith that there is a reason to this. And that when it’s the right time, it will be revealed. And I have faith in my God. Please just remember to have compassion on people who are having difficulty in life, for there is a reason. There is always a reason. Please have compassion. The key to this is taking this shame and offering it to Jesus. But we need to heal the wounds created. Only the love of Jesus can do this. I know this process is difficult for people. I wish you could see how it’s all affecting me. Remember these two things. Nothing bad and born of darkness is impossible in the darkness. This world belongs, though temporarily, to the evil one. Everything for the good and that which is illuminating is possible in God. There is a reason all of this is so obscured right now. There is also a reason my abuse seems so preposterous. Again, I say repent. Let my example of resisting the abuse I never deserved be a light and guide to you. Let my zeal for the truth and struggle to proclaim it be a light and guide to you. The love of Christ Jesus, be with you. Peace be with our world. Jehovah loves you. And He forgives you. But you need to repent. Repent, world. . . Repent, Church. . . It’s not too late. Even if you do not entirely want it, the doorway is open to love. . . to Life. . . Open your hearts. Believe! It begins with repentance.

He restores my soul, He leads me in the paths of righteousness, For His name’s sake. Psalm 23:3

They do not understand. They may think you’re a hopeless case. They certainly do not understand. I believe in you. Just keep fighting. The truth will come out and we will be redeemed, world. Above that, more important, is glorifying God. Keep faith. If you become aware of anything today, my beautiful friend, know that I will be with you until the end.

The Jays will beat the Brewers in the World Series this year.