Public Humiliation as Penance:

Public humiliation is not generally considered penance. Within Christianity, penance is meant to be restorative and not humiliating. Its purpose is healing and reconciliation and repentance. Not punishment through shame. Penance, true penance is voluntary. Humiliation is coercive and aims to shame not restore. Shame hardens rather than heals. Jesus consistently condemned public humiliation and self-righteous exposure of other’s sins. Matthew 18 suggests to privately correct. If that doesn’t work, take it to a small group. If this doesn’t work, take it to the community. This is to be done only when necessary and with the goal of restoration. Even if the wrong-doing must be addressed publicly, the aim is protection and justice. Not humiliation. And that still is not called penance. In Catholicism, publicly accusing a man of his sin is not penance. In fact, it is sin itself. Again, this all depends on whether or not Jehovah speaks to me. If He does, He asked me to write a book about my experiences as a child. If that is true, you must take up my writing that book with Him. Within Witnesses of Jehovah, humiliation should never be the goal. In public reproof, the sin is not named. Details are not named. No accusation is read out. There should be no public interrogation or exposure. Discipline is only done by elders. Listen to me friends: Humiliation is not a spiritual tool. You are envious and contemptuous. It’s the same reason you are seeking to offer me as a sacrifice. You are done with me. Do you believe I do not notice other men’s agitation when I say something that challenges their faith. It is in my story. I cannot help it. You are scandalized by me because I challenge your faith. The way your bodies tense up and you get this stupid little grin across your faces. You cannot tell me that it does not bring you satisfaction to know that I will be ‘humbled’ and put to death. Do you know why? Let me tell you. It’s because you cannot stand that God declares me more of anything. Especially not in knowing my sin. This is the reason you want my abusers to confront me. You desire to see me humiliated. It’s a very common trope. It’s called schadenfreude. You desire to squash me. Why? It’s because I claimed I have a stronger relationship with God than you. It’s because I claimed to be a king. It’s because I claimed to be His favorite. Here: humiliation is not penance. It is neither penance to have your accusers confront you. Public accusation and humiliation is about expression of anger or pain, seeking validation or power, warning others, most of the time, it is vengeance, sometimes healing for the wronged person but not always. People I hurt have a right to name what happened even publicly but humiliation is not a moral requirement for me to be accountable. Suffering publicly does not repair, redeem or stimulate growth. Accountability asks “What do I owe because of the harm I caused?” Humiliation asks “How much pain should you feel?” This is an act of vengeance. Nothing less. You are threatened by my power. Here’s the thing: you shouldn’t be. When I hear you say that I need to humble and be obedient, do you know what I hear? I hear I need to submit to being falsely accused and publicly murdered. If it’s true this is what you want me to do, I’m telling you that it is unnecessary. This cleansing and restoration following my death happens whether I am murdered or whether I am a member of a religious community. For my murder, it is unnecessary to kill me so violently. You want to kill me so violently because you want to justify yourselves. You desire to punish me. Why? Because God desires to reward me. Quoting my dear soul mate, “Why are you punishing me for talking to God?” Look: This is the human dilemma. It’s the reason we punish our children unprovoked and commit abortion. It is the human, innate desire to oppress the innocent. To squash and crush the holy and divine. Even amongst the Church this happens. You see it perfectly with Jehanne D’Arc. You could say she was asking for it. I would say you are uptight and envious. We all know the reason they did what they did to her. It was because she spoke to God. They can frame this as public protection and proportional. It’s nonsense. They desire to make me suffer. Because God speaks to me. Placing me before them. This will become apparent very quickly. Here: it’s the reason I was applying to religious life. They will not stop. Do you believe there was ever an opportunity for me to simply exist and live out my days? God will show you. Friends: If it is for public protection and for the good of my penance, what are the purpose of the cameras? Sin does not justify sin. If it is for the public protection and for the good of my penance, what is the purpose of the confession leaks? The data theft? They will go to criminal lengths to try to upset me. Laity, I need your help. None of these methods are moral or legal. They are spiritually abusing me. This is not going to get any better. Obedience is evil when it demands harm to innocents, suppresses moral agency, dehumanizes others, asks you to betray empathy, truth or responsibility. Being commanded to destroy yourself is not obedience. It’s violation. In faith, true sacrifice is in giving up power, comfort, status or safety to protect life, not erasing your own existence. Martyrdom never is framed as those martyrs seeking death, but as refusing to submit to evil even when death is imposed by others. Obedience that demands murder is not holy. It’s abusive. You need to understand the reason for this. If it is the will of God, it is so the corruption will end. So that your clergy stop squashing and wrenching the innocents. It’s so that your world does not have a broken heart when my truth comes out. You think it’s just because you see with your eyes. You’re still missing an integral piece of this puzzle. My truth clarifies everything. Every single thing. Conscience can be stumbled. Just like sin can be invincibly ignorant. The natural law is distorted amongst those who experience satanic abuse as infants. I don’t understand how you cannot understand this. It is elementary. You can take the most saintly, holy child, a child who was literally destined to be the holiest saint and satanically abuse him into not only not accepting his fate as a holy saint but also to commit extremely serious crimes. All it takes is getting to them in their infancy. Why do you think Jesus and Moses were protected and nurtured as children? It is what Jehovah desired to show you through me and my story. A child’s conscience and grasp of natural law can be seriously wounded and distorted by satanic ritual abuse but not destroyed. Natural law is the basic moral knowledge written into human nature. Conscience is the inner capacity to recognize and judge moral good and evil and to feel responsibility for one’s actions. A child subjected to extreme abuse, particularly ritualized, coercive and spiritualized abuse, can experience moral confusion. Evil is presented as sacred or necessary. Authority figures framing violence as good or pleasing. Punishment for resisting evil and reward for compliance. Moral responsibility requires freedom. Children in abuse are acting under grave fear, threat and manipulation. The will is constrained. Actions performed under this kind of coercion do not carry full or sometimes, any, moral culpability. Forced participation is not consent. It creates damage to trust in authority and goodness. Ritual abuse often uses: Adults, symbols and religious language or symbols. This can make goodness seem fake. Make evil seem inevitable. Make obedience feel indistinguishable from survival. This wounds conscience formation. Trauma responses are often mistaken for moral failure. Trauma can cause dissociation, compliance, emotional numbing and learned helplessness. These are survival mechanisms and not sins. The image of God can never be erased. Natural law can be obscured, suppressed or distorted but it can never be annihilated. Healing is possible. Moral clarity can return. Even the Catechism says that ignorance and coercion greatly diminish or remove moral responsibility. The child bears no guilt for abuse inflicted upon them. Even actions performed under ritual coercion are morally imputable to the abusers, not the child. God’s judgement tajes full account of age, fear, trauma and lack of freedom. Any theology that blames the child is not Christian. Because conscience is wounded and not destroyed, healing involves time, safety and truth. Spiritual healing must be gentle and never coercive. Ritual abuse affects the culpability of sins of the child in the sense that his freedom is compromised. Children under ritual abuse act under extreme fear, coercion and sometimes physical threats. Severe fear overrides normal decision making. Catholic moral theology treats this as a lack of sufficient consent. Knowledge is compromised. The child may not grasp the moral gravity of the act. The abuser may frame it as necessary, good or required by authority. Under moral law, ignorance diminishes or removes culpability. Psychological coercion is morally relevant. Even if the child participates, Catholic moral reasoning recognizes force of circumstance. The more intense the ritualized abuse, the less freedom and culpability exist. The child, even in the case of murder, is likely not culpable. The sin, if committed, is imputable to the abuser and not the child. Grace and healing are needed to restore moral clarity and not guilt. The Church sees these children as victims in every sense, even if they are forced into grave acts. Moral responsibility remains with the abuser, never the abused child. Written with the help of AI in parts.