A Traditional Catholic Studies the Bible with Jehovah's Witnesses:

In Catholicism, it kind of felt, after I was confirmed, I was in an open sea. Lost and shipwrecked. There was little instruction. Little formation. Mind you, I went to Madonna House and was blessed to find Catholic friends. I needed to search for these. I wonder about the Catholic youth who are likewise lost, perhaps questioning their faith because of the evils of this world. In my writings, I am quite hard on Catholicism. You need know how much I love and adore my faith. I never will willingly abandon it.

In this article, I would like to share with you quite proudly and adoringly, what I have learned as a Traditional Catholic in studying the Bible with Jehovah’s Witnesses and attending meetings for over two years. Let me say at the outset how much of a literal joy it has been to have become part of this beautiful family of true Christians. I sense you asking, how can you say this? I sense you asking, how can you, as a traditional catholic, practice worship outside of your chosen faith. Are you not sitting on the fence? To answer these questions, I simply say that it is not the religion truly that matters to God. What matters is the faith. Religion is intended to build our faith. I believe there is no one religion that is completely in the truth these days. Though some come closer than others, I believe a time and a leader will come who will set everything right. Who will make clear the Scriptures and the faith. There will be no question then and all Christians will need unite. I am a Traditional Catholic. God has instructed me to remain as such. As it was God who commanded me to study with the Witnesses of Jehovah and to continue attending meetings.

Well, the very first thing which I have gleaned from these beautiful, endearing and special people is that perhaps they have a point about Jehovah as being the only God. So, I speak from personal experience, having either met or having been offered a vision of the uniqueness of Jehovah as Father. About the trinity, I do not know. I believe fully that the Father would not and has not deprived of His Messiah any glory. While the trinity is a progress of prayer and of influence of holy spirit, we know that Jehovah has been unique prior to the incarnation. I will share an experience I had here after one of my studies. After a study on the uniqueness of Jehovah, I prayed asking God to show me whether He was God. I asked Him to make it clear and undeniable as coming from Him. That night, while sleeping, the cross on the rope around my neck fell off the rope. I inspected it and scrutinized it. The rope was completely intact. It was impossible by physic’s standards for this to have occurred. I have not worn a cross since. For my Catholic friends, this does not diminish the importance of Jesus. I say with boldness. Jesus is Lord. Because of who God created him to be. Jehovah is God.

Here is another area: The Witnesses are completely right about God. The trinity, to obscure His name, these things do one thing: they obfuscate the personality and character of God. Here: Jehovah is very real. He is a real person. He is a spirit. Do you forget the way He walked with Adam in the garden of Eden? Studying with the Witnesses of Jehovah has helped me to realize how very real Jehovah is. He has feelings. Just like your very best friend. We can be His very best friend. When you see Him not as some distant dictator and instead as a friend with the personality of a puppy dog, the docility of a chipmunk and the power of a lion, we gain access to Him. Here: I am not denying the trinity. There is value in this. What matters is faith in God. But here: as Catholics, we can become trapped in our rosaries and sacraments. So much so that we forget the humanity of God. From the Witnesses of Jehovah, I also learned an intimate form of prayer and love that I did not possess prior. Merited, this intimacy exists also in Catholicism. But it is hidden. It is not easily accessible. Mental prayer is for the elite of Catholicism. Something which the normal Catholic has forgotten all about. There is more value in this intimate outpouring of one’s soul to God than in a hundred rosaries not prayed well.

Studying with the Witnesses of Jehovah has really filled me with a love and devotion for the Scriptures. See, I was raised in evangelical circles. I used to love the Bible. Then, when I became Catholic, my view on the Bible was changed. I forgot about it. Amidst the rosaries and Masses and confession and penances, I actually allowed myself to stop reading the Bible almost entirely for years on end. Studying the Bible with the Jehovah’s Witnesses has filled my heart with a love and joy for reading the Bible. It is simply a part of my daily routine at this point. In a time where many of Catholic seminarians studying to become priest are not even encouraged to read the Word of God, let us as Catholics remember the importance of Scripture. Here: The Bible is essentially the anchor. Without it, the heart of any faith or person who seeks to know God will falter. I venture to say that this deviation is the source of all the ills in our once glorious Church. The Bible, too, contains practical guidance for the way we should live our lives. This is not only God’s Word. It is also a manual for conduct and morality for how to live our lives. Scripture matters because it is God’s very Word offered to humanity. God does not speak to people any longer. Of this we try to convince ourselves at least. The Word of God, then, is the safest and most reliable conduit of discerning the will of God.

I can safely say, with all of my life experience, I have never been treated with such respect and dignity as I have when among the Witnesses of Jehovah. They are a family. This is truly beautiful. Being a Christian is not being tolerant of people who are hostile to us. Common sense and reason dictates that once we recognize somebody’s or some group’s toxic behavior towards us, we flee. This seems to be a bit of sense the Catholics have missed. Mind you, Jehovah’s Witnesses also believe in open borders. I truly believe this is ignorance and/or pressure under duress. The Jehovah’s Witnesses possess within their organization the most entirely Christian and holy community I have ever seen. There literally are no other people on earth who come to the assistance of one another in need as they do. When I first began studying, I was surprised to hear about a sister who was moving away from the congregation. My Bible teacher and I drove past her home when she was moving and the entire congregation was over at her house to help her move away and to say goodbye. These people have discovered the true essence of Christianity in helping the congregation. Amidst these foreign aid policies and USAID and unicef that Catholicism has become enmeshed in, we seem to have forgotten this simple Christian fact. The world outside will come and go. Beggars will come and go. What never changes is the heart of the Church. We can reach these beggars and others by evangelizing them. This is true nourishment: sharing with them the Gospel truth. Not a candy bar. Something which is short-lived and brief. In addition to support, the encouragement that I receive every single time that I go to meetings is unparalleled. This fellowship exists in other places but not to the degree it exists here. They are very much like a monastery. An oasis within the world.

The Jehovah’s Witnesses taught me, a Traditional Catholic, how to live my life. See, as a Catholic convert, I never received much instruction in terms of conscience formation. The Bible, though, offers clear lessons and principles for how to live your life. Let me also say, the website JW.org is just a treasure-trove of beautiful and wholesome material, much of it, even safe for the most traditional of Catholic. Through my study, I learned that the closer I draw to Jehovah, the closer He will come near me. The way we live our lives matters. It truly does. This is what gave Joseph the will to resist Potiphar’s wife. He knew it was wrong to commit adultery. He knew this not because of confession or Eucharist but because his conscience had been formed well by intimacy with Jehovah. The Bible teaches us how to form good spiritual habits, how to make a decision, how to be clean – both physically and spiritually, how to choose friends and how to choose entertainment. There is a lot of resistance to the Witnesses because of disfellowship. Some see it as cold, like a cult. It is obvious that this is the way they maintain their cleanliness as an organization and as individuals. What these sources fail to mention is that the moment, the cause for the disfellowship is recognized and repented, they are welcomed back as quickly as if they had never sinned at all. If God judged us solely upon the way we live our lives – our conduct – surely Jehovah’s Witnesses would be first in line.

The Witnesses’ perspective on blood is also a game changer. I will say: I had no idea. I simply believed blood donation was a necessary part of medicine. While I wondered in my heart why I struggled so greatly the first time I donated blood. I remember that I nearly threw up. With prophetic wisdom, I say there are additional reasons to avoid offering blood. Even more than the ones they possess. The life force of the creature is in its blood. It’s not difficult for me to see how what is commanded in the Hebrew Testament has not been abandoned in the New Covenant. Yes, there is mercy. This is a principle. This is a law not simply applicable to NT or OT times but for all times.

Guys, you know me. In terms of politics and war, I am beginning to think the Witnesses are very right. Here’s the thing: we really cannot influence the course of this state of things. What happens is what Jehovah permits because of the rule of satan. For me this is difficult because I want to cling to my belief that as Christians, we can influence the outcome of things in this world. This is true. As is evident with the crusades where Christians completely altered the course of history for good. Here: I am starting to think that it is holier simply to permit things in their course. The solution to all problems is not in our possession after all. I am reminded, years ago, when I began my ministry, I was unbothered by politics. It was during these times when I created beautiful literature and answered amazing spiritual questions nobody else could answer. Whenever someone asked me about my politics, I simply smiled and nodded. It was because of your surveillance that made my silence futile. In 2016, I started watching videos about the campaign of a particularly unpopular politician who was elected despite overwhelming odds. Seemed at that time, I was forced to shift focus to a perpetual defence of my character and against how I had reacted. At that time, I simply discerned it was pointless to keep my politics to myself since no matter how hard I tried to keep silent, your surveillance would reveal something you disliked sooner or later anyways. I hope you will come to recognize just how much I have sacrificed in my life to be your prophet. I have zero privacy even in regards to my finances and health. God knows the amount of injustices I have for the sake of the holy Name. This is all in face of the fact that Jehovah intended for me to be a king by this point. All this to say, I cannot be silent. Praying that when you realize this, you will help me. Anyways, I am beginning to see just how on point the Witnesses of Jehovah are. Let’s face it: politics have made a mess of every other religion. Every single one. Even Catholicism. You would need be blind to say that the hierarchy is in a good place. Everything in our faith is influenced – for good, and much more often – for the bad – by politics. Even the election of vocations, something which every catholic believes is a direction of holy spirit, is influenced rather by politics. Yes, brothers, sisters, many popes have been elected, contrary to the holy spirit. This is part of the reason I do not hold any bitterness that I was denied vocation. I know it was not the will of the holy spirit. I know if God had his choice, I would already be a king.

As a Traditional Catholic, my eyes have been opened in studying the Bible with Jehovah’s Witnesses, about the issue of false religion. As a catholic, clearly, I have some reservations about this. And, for every argument that is brought up in the Bible study there are counter arguments, which defend Catholicism. Studying the Bible helped me to be able to recognize the levels of spiritual pride present in Catholicism. There is no wonder as it traces its roots to the early Church. But perhaps the Witnesses have something to say. Perhaps we should listen to them. After all, it was the religious of the day that crucified Jesus. From their envy and pride. Look: I have seen in the Spirit the future of the popular Church. This is a Church that drifts far from Truth, which abandons the Bible and which conforms to the world. Regardless, this Church, which will take the appearance of Catholicism, will be a mockery and a fraud. Be mindful of your faith. This is why we need remember the Bible in all things. Even I, a prophet and one with new revelation (as if it were Godly to limit God because of our beliefs), submit to the Bible as this is how things need be. Until God shows you. Remember, spiritual pride does not bring you nearer to God. The truth does.

Finally, in studying the Bible with the Jehovah’s Witnesses, I learned what it means to be a true Christian. True Christianity is in evangelization. Nothing else to such a degree. We can take an incredible lesson from these beautiful, holy and precious people in evangelization. Their zeal is remarkable. It, in part, originates from their belief the end is coming soon. Do not be fooled by their false predictions. They are right. Except they are unable to see that Jehovah desires things to improve first. Personally, I find it amazing how when you experience persecution, instead of dwelling on these issues inwardly, by evangelizing precisely to the people who persecute you, we are offered an incredible solace. There is also a childlike innocence within the Witness circles that you cannot find in Catholicism. Catholicism has become an intellectual religion. It is almost as though, in its insecurity, it has developed thesis and counter arguments about every single detail of life. This is a very basic spiritual truth: Knowledge puffs up. Faith humbles. This makes the Jehovah's Witnesses very beautiful in their simple love and grounding in the Bible. There is no room for puffery and pretentious arguments and cocksure theories. The Bible keeps them grounded in a reality, which is narrow mind you, but it is a tangible reality nonetheless. Rather than a heady cloud of human knowledge and dissertations. There is nothing wrong with intellectualism. If it does not serve God, it is worthless.

God has asked me to remain in and advance within the Catholic Church. I have no intention of converting, though I have been very tempted. I will follow the will of our good God. Here: Studying the Bible with Jehovah’s Witnesses has helped me to develop a real relationship with our personal God. It has increased my faith in leaps and bounds beyond the growth it had received in my entire faith as a Catholic. Studying the Bible has made me not only a better Catholic, it has made me a better human being. I have found a beautiful family. I shall go to meetings until they tell me I will need stop. Next time, when you hear about the Witnesses, have an open heart. Bible study can change a life. I am very serious when I say that I learned more about God and the Bible in two years studying with them than I did in fourteen years as a Christian on my own. I praise God for these beautiful and truly holy people. 

Once, There Was a Dragonbird: A story written by all of my alters!

Jeremiah – Once, there was a dragonfly whose wings glistened in the sun. Jon-Jon – He was a delightful array of many colors. Well, he happened to meet a very simple and bright ladybug who flew over and landed upon the verry same flower on which he perched. Elora – The two of them shared a gentle greeting and decided it would be a pleasant day to go in search of something little upon which to take a nibble… a flower… a leaf… a coffee bean… or a piece of straw. Dee – They searched and searched but they found nothing. And so, there they stood, in the midst of the Wisconsin wood, turning their wee lil ladybug and dragonfly pockets inside out. Until, lo’ and behold! There! Just ahead and over the ridge! Between two distinct blades of grass stood a sure ripe and tasty looking raspberry. It fell from a bush way up yonder. At the sight, both ladybird and dragonfly did a wee lil dance of joy. Ladybird flapped her wings and wiggled her antennae and pranced about her little feet. Dragonfly hung low to the ground and waved her wings about majestically. Oh boy! Dragonfly remarked, “A mighty healthy treat! A mighty healthy treat indeed!” Faith – They each felt the earth and the moss beneath their many wee lil feet. They could sense the magnet of the earth through the particles of the earth. Paul – At that moment, a wounded chipmunk – a chipmunk with a broken paw limped across the sand, gazing sorrowfully upon them. Confused and unsure what to do, ladybird wandered over and introduced himself to chipmunk while dragonfly remained behind, eating his piece of raspberry. Klaus Jacob – Ladybird patted him on the nose with one of his feelers, gazed deeply into his eyes and with a word, led the poor thing over to the raspberry. When chipmunk saw it, he scarfed it down greedily. Lo! Dragonbird was still perched on the thing when he tried to eat it. Much to Dragonbird’s horror, he just leapt off the thing in the nic’ of time! Desire – Dragonbird wiped himself off and shook himself off. He was covered in mammal saliva! Chipmunk gazed upon him sorrowfully. Dragonbird felt remorse in even harboring anger as it was clear of chipmunk’s confusion and sadness. Pete – What would you have it, slowly, ever so slowly, chipmunk regained his strength and a smile slowly took shape on his face. The unlikely trio rejoiced and scurried about amongst each other in a frenzy of joy. Rage – Dragonbird sighed and wiggled his antenna. “’Twas an act of God, your healing… sure was!” he announced. Ladybird retorted strongly, “You and your God story! Pshaw! Perhaps he simply needed something to eat. There is always a simpler explanation.” Dragonbird smiled and bowed lowly to Ladybird. He said, “May you receive the gift of faith. I shall be praying for you.” Babel – Ladybird was about to say, “I don’t need you to pray…” when chipmunk himself spoke up. “Now, now…” he said. “I do believe it was a miracle. No other explanation! My having a nibble couldn’t have aided my broken paw! Joshua Hope – I would like to hear more about this good God of yours, Dragonbird!” Dragonfly once again performed his beautiful dance of adoration, lowering his bum in the soil and waving his wings about majestically. He smiled and said, “Our God has a name! It is called Adwa. He is a beautiful God who causes to become all that He intends. You can become His friend. If you do, He will surely bless you.” Hank – All did a wee lil act of worship. Even Ladybird shut his eyes and prayed. Even while grimacing! Dragonbird, who saw it, smirked and whispered. “There is hope for all creatures!” Curtis – At this moment, springing up from behind a solitary daffodil, was a pygmy choir of ants. And as the heroic trio watched, this lil wee choir began to belt at the top of their lungs, “Salve Regina Bombus!” Well, chipmunk and ladybird and dragonbird stood in awe. As the ants began circling the trio, they rang tamorines made of acorn pellets and blew into trombones made of primrose flowers. Steve – The wee lil ants danced about them. What a delight it was! Until Ladybird, Dragonbird and Chipmunk rolled in the dust in shrill laughter. Indeed, ladybird needed a shove to get back on her feet! Freedom – Suddenly a somber tone overtook the ant’s melody. The primrose baritone wailed sorrowfully and their wee lil acorn tamborines ceased. In their place tore the saw grass mouth harp. The ants began to sign in deep and raspy voices, in memory of the passion and death of Adwa’s son. They sang “At the cross, her station’s keeping”. Ladybird took a glance at chipmunk who wept openly. Tina Bethany – And a peek at dragonbird whose tears flooded his eyes, falling as streams. “How gay?” Ladybird whispered to himself. “I wonder what moves them so…” As dragonbird shut his eyes and began to join the ants, he sang in a low, baritone vibrato. His voice coupled by the pulsating and eerie melody of this flower trombone, permeated the meadow. He sang in harmony with yet above the others. He sang of the death of the son of Adwa. Panic Courage – The stars began to emerge through the slowly dimming sky as the ants retained the show. And all the sudden, in a shrill cry of passion and joy, the creatures sang of the Son of Adwa’s vindication in His glorious resurrection. Hope in Sorrow – Hope in sorrow arose – a light through the darkness. Chipmunk and Dragonfly wiped their eyes and looked up into the skies. As Ladybird too was pierced through to the heart. It suddenly made sense to him and as the others rejoiced, danced and laughed, Ladybird curled his legs up into his carapace and began to whimper. The floodgate of his heart had been opened and he felt like a lil wee larva ladybug. Suddenly, he recognized his complete dependence and weakness and vulnerability. Shadow – He began to weep and moan as he reflected upon his sins. The ants, Chipmunk and Dragonbird comforted him, holding him and saying, “You are free.” George – All the same, Ladybird refused to be comforted and cried even louder. He whispered over and over, “What have I done? What have I done?” Narcis – At that moment, all the ants encircled him and began weeping with him. Chipmunk and Dragonbird held him tightly as they continued their song. Defence – The nearer they pressed, the more pain that surfaced in Ladybird. He flapped his wings as he lamented his heart. Chipmunk and Dragonbird persisted, aware of the pain he was enduring. Well – With a shudder and a tremble, Ladybird began chattering, uttering strange and untold secrets of the Kingdom. He felt such an intense love, an energy, course through his body. His jaw suddenly loosed and he began to feel many emotions at once. Jacob – He felt helpless and vulnerable. Yet filled with such power. He simply cried and allowed himself to be comforted. Daphne – And then, from behind and below this glorious daffodil tree, rose up, high up, into the air, suspended by her buzzing wings, Queen Bee. She was the very mother of the Son of Adwa. And all the ants bowed and adored the fluffball of a bumblebee. Ladybird simply gazed upward. The Queen Bee’s fluffy fur was highlighted by the sun behind her. And as she lingered in the sky, the ants all rejoicing, Queen Bee smiled at Ladybird and said, “A great grace has been given to you today. Because you have been searching for His grace upon you. This is what Adwa seeks. He seeks the hearts of His children. Saul – “Now share the love you have been given freely and passionately. Kershaw – In this moment, they all began singing again. They began singing in the melody of a real black fly kind of country song. They praised Adwa for His Son’s resurrection and eventual victory. Ladybird smiled and whispered, “Thank God”. As the ants rushed over towards a few scrap pieces of raspberry and had a feast. Fawn – Then, Dragonbird and Ladybird approached Chipmunk and began to pet and play with him until he laughed out loud. Some sicknesses are physical and others are spiritual. There is a connection between the two. Just as the Almighty Adwa healed Ladybird, spiritually and Chipmunk, physically, may He in turn, heal every one of you, too. You had just need believe. Believe that the impossible has been given a way. For when you believe, surely, it is given a way. Abracadabra. I reclaim this expression for the Almighty Church of Adwa from the witches who have robbed it. As we speak, so we become. Let our words be words of gratitude and creation. 

Are Alters Demons?

Are alters in did demons from a catholic perspective?

From a traditional Catholic perspective, having alters (alternate identities, as in Dissociative Identity Disorder or similar experiences) is not considered evidence of demonic possession or demonic influence simply because the alters exist.

The Catholic Church generally distinguishes between:

• Mental health conditions (including dissociative disorders and trauma-related conditions),

• Spiritual struggles (temptation, oppression, etc.),

• Rare cases of genuine demonic possession.

The Church is typically cautious about attributing unusual psychological experiences to demons. In fact, when reports of possible possession are investigated, Church authorities often seek medical and psychiatric evaluations first. The Church recognizes that many symptoms that might once have been interpreted as spiritual can have psychological explanations.

According to Catholic theology:

• A person's soul remains one soul, even if they experience dissociation or multiple identity states.

• Alters themselves would not be viewed as separate souls or demons.

• Trauma, psychological distress, and mental illness are not signs of moral failure or demonic activity.

• Extraordinary claims of possession require much stronger evidence than the presence of alters.

Some Catholics may have personal opinions that differ, and individual priests vary in their understanding of mental health. However, official Catholic practice tends to avoid assuming that DID or alters are demonic.

If you're asking because of your own experiences with alters, it's worth knowing that many Catholic mental health professionals and clergy would encourage both appropriate psychological care and spiritual support rather than treating the alters themselves as demons.

On the Kingdom:

The Kingdom is real. It is true. I have seen it. It is as real as this world here. When you reach out and you touch a piece of leather or suede. When you pet a horse and it neighs in response. That beautiful sensation when you kiss your loved one. This is the Kingdom. It is a world. Just as is this. It is spiritual. Yet it is not. It is here. Yet it is not. The expressions of love you will feel there are infinitely grander, the expressions of affection. These sensual feelings are heightened only to the thousandth degree. Man and woman of every nature are there. Creatures of every kind and kind unimagined are there. Vegetation of every kind are there. You know that no matter their kind, no matter their nature, they all possess this in common: They serve Jehovah. This is an entire world. It exists here now. And yet, very far away. Here’s the thing: It is not so distant that it unattainable here. This is truth: While this world is in the dominion of satan, Jehovah God never wanted it to be such. Jehovah, despite creating a new Heavens and a new Earth at the consummation of this system of things, wants very much to reclaim this world… this earth for His own. What has convinced you that He has abandoned His children, His creation in this world? Everything is under the complete sovereignty of our God, Jehovah. There is no earthly relatable comparison for the immensity of joy and bliss to be experienced in the Kingdom. We will have bodies. There is no marriage. There will be no marriage. Do you believe there shall be no love? No intimacy? No affection? It will be perfect. Seeing this, how can you not but fight and do everything you can to attain it? It is the pearl of price. It is the lost coin. I would like to encourage you. Make this your chief end. Make the Kingdom of God your prime ambition. How can we do this? It’s quite simple. Love your God. Learn to love Him. Do you not love Him? Are you distant from Him? Has your sin hardened your heart and calloused your conscience? Nevermind. Know that God loves you despite this You have a hard heart? You do not even love God? Are you unworthy? Tell Him. Tell Him what is in your heart. Has the accuser convinced you that God will not love you because of these thoughts? Because of your sins? Learn: When we love someone, we shall draw close to them. It can easily be learned. Spend time with Him. In His Word. In prayer. Talk with Him you would a friend. Your best friend. Learn: Jehovah is a person. He is a character. A being. He has feelings and emotions. He grieves. He rejoices. He even dances and sings. Trust me. He cries. He is not ashamed of His feelings as all of you have become. Learn: There is a humanity in Jehovah God. One which even the Catholics have robbed of Him. Learn: Jehovah desires to have a relationship with you today. This God of ours, the one who created everything in the universe, is also the one who has named individually, the hairs on your head. Trust Him. Learn: You can unite your trials with Him. He will unite His heart to yours. You need take the first step. You need reach out and take His hand. And then, He shall step close to you. Learn: Kingdom is not like this world. Just as Jehovah is not like an earthly father. Kingdom is perfection. As Jehovah is Father perfection. Do not be ashamed. Have you sinned? Tell Him. Have you sinned seriously? Tell Him. He shall forgive you. And He has the power. The Sacrament of Reconciliation is effective. But it loses its spiritual power and grace as those offering it abuse its intention. When priests violate the seal of confession, something which will be happening more and more over the next many decades, the Sacrament loses grace and relevance. You need to develop within yourself a beautiful and strong relationship with your God so that you can have faith when Jehovah says to you, in your heart, that you are forgiven. You do not need a priest to tell you what Jehovah says louder. Jehovah stands this day as judge. He declares those of you who have been trying to develop a relationship with Him. He stands also as judge for those oppressing these little ones. Kingdom comes. There are many places, many rooms within. The amazing part? Entrance is free. Reserve your ticket today. Develop a relationship with Him. Have faith. You need know that this Kingdom is not some distant and ethereal place. It is not unreachable. It is as reachable as you would have it be. Listen to me as the prophet of God that many once heralded me to be, Kingdom is neither something for after. It is not only a reality following some devastating, earth ending cataclysm. Learn: Jehovah has been trying to reestablish Eden on earth since the fall. Yes, since this world is broken, He tries to establish that within our hearts. Learn: Jehovah desires to reclaim His earth, His children for His own. You need to see that in every generation, spirit-filled men, strong leaders and courageous men have been raised up to restore what was lost. In these past centuries, many have tried and have been demonized following their attempt. This world has never more been so under the oppression of satan as it is now. Every nation, every institution, even the Church has been infiltrated. Despite this, you need to know, world, there is good news. Hear the Gospel! Learn: This world and its evil nature has been triumphed against. Jehovah desires to offer you a glimpse of what is coming. 

On Sin:

What is sin? Sin is serious. There. I said it. It is like a tumor. If left untreated, its malignancy will simply continue to grow like a cancer. You need to know this. Divine Mercy is beautiful. Grace is beautiful. We need first have that conversion experience. We need first feel His love. Grace is the remedy for our sinful states. You need to know that this is the cause for all kinds of mental health issues, physical ailments. It is even the cause of global warming and climate change. It is the cause for outbreaks. It is the cause of war. Obviously. You need to know this. It is not a fluffy message. The reason I have not addressed it in the past is because, I preferred to encourage. Maybe I have addressed it. Actually, come to think of it, I have addressed it quite pointedly. But never with upfrontness and clarity. I feel like I have been accusing you. Please my dear children, listen. You need know that my message, my coming is not in what I say or do. What I am is linked with my story. Who I am is linked with what I endured. With truth, everything makes sense. The revelation of my life will not be in my words. But in Truth about this. It’s not even in my teaching. I have an insight and a wisdom your world does not possess. It’s why I try to encourage you with it. You need know to be prepared. Sin is a deadly virus. It is the cause of destruction in the world. It is the reason the world is perishing. I am a sinner. I am a terrible sinner. I am prepared to take this lead for you. You need know that the world’s problems, the reason Jehovah is righteously indignant with the world is because of this sin. It is not my sin. You need to know the cost of this virus. Love your life. Love your soul. Save your life. Save your soul. The cost of sin is death. And the sinner will die. Do you not see yet? Do you not see how glorious a Father we have in Heaven? We are criminals. We are all criminals. Even that Catholic who claims he is in a state of grace. The Illumination of Conscience shall bring these holy ones to their knees. Elder brothers, be strong. Be as guides and shepherds to these penitent sinners who come seeking the way. Even the priests in that day shall be brought to their knees. Your vocations matter. Elders, you need know that I do not disparage you. You are bold and shepherds. More so than I. At this time at least. When I am lifted up and reanimated with the fullness of Holy Spirit, I shall be His chosen instrument. Glory to God. But, as it is, you are the shepherds. I warn you. Do not follow your envy and jealousy. Do not follow your contempt and original sin. When you recognize holiness, true faith in God will bow its knee in reverence and holy fear. A Church of God would not seek to have this holiness snuffed because it threatens your power. Be Christians. Be shepherds. Remember: Despite your best effort to prevent it, this cleansing comes. This transfiguration comes. 

The Star Within You:

Starlight

Star wonder

Star bright

Star asunder

In rain

In snow

You shall gain

You shall flow

Starlight

Star wonder

Do not fright

In thunder

God is with you

Little star

To make you new

From near and far

Keep hope

Little star

Know God's scope

You have come so far

Starlight

Star wonder

Star bright

Star asunder

In sunlight

In thunder

With might

With wonder

What delight

What joy

How bright

How coy

To see you shine

To have you mine

Butterfly Finger:

Butterfly wing, please do sing.

Sing for all of us gathered here.

Please do put aside your fear.

How long has it been?

Since last, since last you sang. 

My dear, my dear let it ring.

It rang.

Oh, pretty butterfly finger, oh please do linger.

You possess such an enormous power,

With Jehovah as your strong tower, 

To offer blessing to others.

Fathers, sisters, brothers, mothers.

Indeed, how you fill with joy,

Each passing girl, each passing boy.

I wish now, to impart to you,

A melody I hope shall not make you too blue.

Once I met you, my heart was melted.

Like a hailstorm in summers heat pelted.

You know, my heart is yours.

In truth, in love in fantastic lores.

Indeed, yes, I am yours.

Butterfly wing, please do sing.

Sing for all of us gathered here.

Please do put aside your fear.

How long has it been?

Since last, since last you sang. 

My dear, my dear let it ring.

It rang.

The Gospel:

Friends, what can I say? I had a conversation with a sister a couple of days ago. She was deciding to create her own blog. She mentioned the fact that for a blog to be encouraging, it need be simple and not too complex. It made me think. When people remember me, what will they think? Many of my blog views are international. It made me wonder. What will people think of me, those who have never met me. Those who come across my writing and read my pointed words, hearing about my reputation. Will they judge me as a hard man? Will they judge me as an angry man? I cannot help that God, when He placed His spirit in me, caused my tongue to become like a sword. I cannot take away my sin or my reputation. Please, know though that there is another side to me. A side not often seen by people who just hear about you – or read your lofty and weighty arguments online. While it is completely true and valid, all I am saying, I feel I am encouraging an image of myself, which I do not embody. Who we are in our letters is present in our personage. I am not only a prophet. I am a changed man. I am completely transformed by the grace of God and by His spirit. I want to encourage you that you can possess this same transformation. Friends, as Catholic as I am – I am beginning to see the reason for my conversion to the Catholic Church – you need to know that the Gospel – the Good News – is real and tangible. You need to know that the grace of God is accessible to any person. As one who was raised far distant from God, I understand the pull in the collective heart away from things of God. I understand that the divine, when you have listened to lies your entire life, seems foolishness. Perhaps even like the enemy of what you know as truth. I want you to know, the real power, the real triumph in life, exists in Jehovah through His son. You need know that any power you muster in this world, fades in comparison with the true glory and power of Jehovah, the only God. Yes, there is one God. You need know, the other gods are not God but in fact demons. Religion is not important. The important thing is service through love and Jesus. It will soon become evident of how the darkness trembles at the very name of Jehovah. Grace is such a beautiful thing. Hear this: We have all sinned. In our hearts. We have secret sin, even that that our awareness does not touch. Therefore, we are all in sinful state. Confession cannot touch this. Have you ever seen a Catholic in a state of grace, do something terribly sinful? It happens all of the time. An example are priests who hurt people. Hey! It’s not foreign. Don’t think you are exempt. Here: Once we recognize this sinful state, the true change comes not with sinning, confession, sinning, confession and so on. It is in a change of heart. Repentance. Grace is such a glorious thing. Why do I keep saying the child is the most important with God? It is because of his purity. More than that, it is because of his vulnerability and dependence on God. He does no grand works. But, there is more! Listen: Why does Jesus say the beggar Lazarus will inherit Kingdom before his master in life? It is a heart state. Not religiosity. Does God pay attention to the smells that emanate from Lazarus or his wounds? Does He scold Him as many in religion would even these days? Actually, He commiserates with them. He is present with them with Lazarus. Works are important. A life of love is important. It’s how we transform our hearts. Learn a lesson from the child. The child does not works. He is innocent and good. In these cases, he is completely reliant upon God’s grace and love. Do you not see how this is glorious? Here’s the thing: You need not confession. You need not sacrament. These help. Those of us in this vale of tears. But, here is what is important. This dependence, this innocence and purity, you can have this even as an adult. It requires transformation. It is a process of repentance and grace. It is being born again. Works are important. They are a natural byproduct of grace. Indeed, I say this as a Catholic. There is so much more we are called to, Faithful, then competition and being caught up in a life entirely oriented upon the avoidance of sin. Let Christ transform your hearts. Let Him fill your hearts with living water. Once this happens, there is no competition. You shall invest your entire existence into the service of the other. There shall be no room, no room at all, for fear. For anger. For shame. For pain. At that moment, you will recognize that Jehovah is with you in all things. The wounds are real. So real. Know, there is an escape. Know there is a cure. It is in faith. It is in grace. Know. Faith is not inactive. Faith requires participation. You can have faith that you can win a boxing match. If you do not practice and practice and practice, there is no hope. This is the foundation I have been speaking about for a decade. I didn’t even realize my wounds. I was wounded and I did not even realize. I was angry. I did not know from whence it came. It was only at that point when I was given love. Truly shown that essence of the human touch of God transcribes through the heart of all who believe. Here’s the thing: God’s love for many, and an increasingly growing many, cannot be felt, until it is experienced by the loving hand of a human. In this is where we learn to love. I am developing a foundation now, at this moment, because for the first time in my life, I am experiencing love as I deserve as a human being. What does this mean? Do not give up on another. Love them until their hearts explode with overwhelming affection, inordinate adoration transfixed upon the heart of Jesus. Know: Love doesn’t tolerate hurt and abuse. If this happens, guide them back to truth. It will take the lot of you. Do not give up on each other. This healing exists. It do. It’s in Jesus. Love the Jesus into each other. Here: I can’t help the reputation that has attached itself to me. Hearing this, we ignore the depths of the human being in who they are now. In who they have become. It doesn’t cancel what they done. But, knowing we are all sinners. In knowing we are all on a process of repentance, what does this mean? What is the purpose of state correction? If it’s not for the person’s repentance, what is it for? It turns out, this is the goal of life. Love. I write to encourage you today. Regardless what you done, regardless of how you feel… the anger… the shame… the fear… the hurt… it is all shadow in the face of the Majesty of Jehovah. Give it to Jesus. He is wanting to take the burden from your hearts. Lay it all before Him. Jesus died so that you could be saved. Personally. He has given his life for you. When Jehovah, our God looks at you, He sees not you, not your sin… He sees Jesus in you. He sees the perfect. The divine. The complete. Jesus is raised. He shall never die again. Regardless of what they do to him. You too, faithful, are lifted and raised. You too, faithful, are forgiven and justified. Here is your second chance. The slate has been wiped clean. You are spotless and flawless as a newborn and cleaned lamb. You have been given a clear record. Remember grace. Remember grace. This is truth. Religion is a path to God. It is not the straightest path. Remember, when the world is difficult, when everything feels like it’s crashing in and you feel like you cannot go on any longer, these are the times when Jehovah is with you through Jesus even more. He is surrounding you as a shield. He attends every step that you take. Every word you speak. But, hear: we need put in the work. Repentance is difficult. At times, we fall. At times we stumble. Never give up. Always rejoice that you are forgiven. Sanctification is a dear process. You can do it. Jehovah is on your side. Hear it from me: one who has seen both the depths of despair and the heights of heaven. This work that we are to do is, in fact, love. This is faith. Believing in the possibility of even the impossible. You can do it. Grace is true. God chooses whom He chooses. Who can fight against this? That He chooses me… that He chooses the child, the vulnerable, the weak is grace. But we need to fight for this life. Do not take it as discouragement that God chooses these. Remember love. Let your beautiful, hard work be for the sacrifice and service of these. A day comes and is fast approaching where the child shall be lifted high. This is a glorious prize for God. Remember you are loved. As the child. Within you exists that child. Still. Your inner self… your spirit… the one making decisions for you in this life… the one who stands before the face of God… when God sees you, He sees not this sin, not this moral filth, which your body has adopted. He sees now the little child that you were when you were born. Be covered today, then, in the blood of Christ. You are loved so immensely. Be transformed, then. Repent. God sees your struggles. You need not struggle alone any longer. He is here. Give your trials, however grand they are, to Him. He will wipe your tears and still your fears. I cannot help the way people see me. All I can affect is who I am now. As is the same for anyone. Do not pay attention to what the others think. You focus on you. Jesus within you. Jehovah loves you. The Almighty guards your steps. For those Christians who are losing loved ones as a result of persecution, remember, nothing happens without God’s approval. We guide our lives not by the choices we make in this life but by our decisions higher. Often times, these beautiful ones lay down their lives because they are ready and prepared to meet God. Be at peace. Be still. Know that Jehovah is God. He shall take care of everything. Love. Put love into action.

Remember who you Are:

Dear world, I write today on my knees. Remembering the reason for my mission. My mission is grand. You cannot even grasp the grandiosity of it. Your Church leaders are incapable of discerning it. Not only because they have been stripped of Holy Spirit. Also, because this, Jehovah desires to keep secret. I keep forgetting the importance that people rejoice at my death. It is not for me. It is so that you are not broken and hurt. Even I am unaware of the entirety of my own message. What I know is that when my truth comes out, this entire world will be offered a completely different perspective of life, of people. You will see things through the lens of love. Right now, friends, you are not seeing things through a lens of love. It is not your fault. This world has become hard of heart. Not only the world. Christians as well. Despite all of this, you must know how well you are doing. You must know that you, who have endured so much over these past millenia, are doing so very well. Now. . . now. . . you are called to greatness. Remember who you are, children of God. You must realize and remember the truth about this. You are bold. You are courageous. You are children of the Highest. You are not weak. You are not floormats. Remember your namesake. Your fathers. . . your mothers. . . they sacrificed everything for you. Your dear fathers leapt into battle, truly believing they were doing the right thing by you, the fruit of their wombs. They were massacred. Why? So that you could roll over and accept the invasion of a cruel race who are intentionally replacing you. So that you could commit suicide? I am not calling for a revolution. God knows. Violence and war are never the path of truth. You need to know that satan has his hands all over this world. Even the Vatican. Yes. Even the Vatican is leading souls into Gehenna. The Vatican is not the chief principality over this world. There are higher evils. I am telling you to encourage you. A transfiguration will come. The evil of this world shall be smited. Justice shall again be a reality. This is not a thing I am plotting. If your leaders were hearing the Spirit, they would know this. Know that regardless of what happens, you are loved, child of God. Regardless of what happens, you are safe in His embrace. You need to know your worth. You need to know that even if father and mother abandon you, your Heavenly Father will never abandon you. God loves you with an everlasting love. I want to be real with you. Things will become difficult. A real test. Keep your eyes, beloveds, upon the image of what God has prepared for you. This is not reality. This is very distant from reality. God is going to bring upon us a glorious change. This, you cannot avoid. For those denominations who say Elijah came and God cursed the world, I wonder what you have been smoking. I am proud. Yes. I am very proud of my God. And I am intolerant of people who reject that. I am prepared to be a father to you, world. I am so sorry it has come to this. Remember God. Through every trial. Through every heartbreak. He loves you. Warmly. Ubiquitously. Completely. Rest in that love. 

Did the early Christians refuse to believe in the conversion of Paul? Say, a tool went missing from Titus’ shelf, would the very first point of suspicion be aimed at Saul? I just want to ask one question. Why do you consistently deny and doubt my conversion? Do I give off an air of evil? Answer me. Even the Christian congregation despises me because of the sin in my past. If your sins were unfolded, the world would hate you too. Is it Christian to doubt brothers’ repentance and faith because of the sin of their past? I don’t know what to do with you, faithful. God will reveal to you everything I have been saying and when it happens you will know He has been speaking only to me for the past twenty years.

Friends, you need to know that it is not the will of God that you give up. You need to know that it is not bad to question what is happening in the world right now. My heart breaks as I think of the state of things. Though I am not surprised, I am ashamed. Things were supposed to be better by now. You need to know, Christian people of good will that it is not the will of God that you placidly accept and submit to endless bullying. These strong leaders, leaders who stand up for the integrity of their people and culture, as demonized as they are, I am justified in saying they are the ones who are doing the will of God. These bishops and cardinals who compromise with truth in order to placate the enemy are hired hands. You need to know that God desires the extension of the Christian people. He desires their good. The end is close. It certainly is. But to say that it will not improve before the end is fencing God in. I am surprised at your teachers. Teachers who are teaching you shame and fear and submission to forces that want to remove your heads. I am not telling you to fight back. Maybe you should start assessing yourselves. I don’t even know if there is an opportunity to reelect leaders who will lead you to safety. This infiltration has gone on for far too long. It seems you may not have choice. This is what you need know: Things are going to become glorious. You need keep faith. You need hold on. Remember: Regardless of what you endure, God desires our health, our prosperity. He is all around us and protects us as His own. This protection may not come in earthly ware. But you need know the soul is so much more valuable than the body. Work! Work on building your souls. Friends: you are doing so well. So well. Yes, in the end, ungodly men will come, thinking they are doing a service to God by offering you. You need not accept that. Know your worth. You have greater value. Stand firm in your redemption. Stand firm, knowing that when the end comes, these ungodly shall be in flames. You shall look down upon them and have pity. Your God, my God, will say, they have not had enough yet. Are you calling me racist for saying these things? I would call you an idiot. Open your eyes. You believe I was an anomaly. As though I were misguided as a child. Perhaps, I saw something you can’t. Because, you are retards. Look, you do not need to invite an army of hostile men into your countries to please your God. God desires your good will. He would never do that. Do you believe I am unchanged because I masturbate once every three months in my sleep? I would say that you are cold as ice and not thinking anything through. Wait til ya’ see what you are doing… 😉

Some Canon Law for ya':

No. In the Catholic Church, a priest may not reveal what is said in confession because of the Seal of Confession, even if the person is disobedient, hostile, sinful, publicly scandalous, or refuses advice afterward.

The seal is considered absolute. A priest who directly reveals a confession commits a grave offense under canon law. The obligation remains even if:

• the penitent insults the priest,

• ignores spiritual direction,

• disobeys Church authority,

• leaves the Church,

• commits crimes,

• or repeats the confessed sin later.

The Church teaches that confession must be a place where people can speak honestly without fear of exposure.

There are a couple important distinctions, though:

• A priest can refuse absolution if the person shows no repentance or no intention of turning away from the sin.

• A priest can encourage someone to report wrongdoing, make restitution, or seek help.

• But he still cannot disclose the confession itself.

This is rooted in Catholic canon law and long-standing sacramental theology surrounding the Sacrament of Reconciliation.

Hypothetical:

Lets say a man tells his story of being abused as a child by his parents. He writes a book about his experiences. After, none of his witnesses come forward. Following, he becomes catholic. Some of this mans childhood sins are exposed. While what happened to him is still secret. Would it be fair for the church to command him to not talk about his story anymore?

In general, no — it would be very difficult to justify the Church commanding someone to remain silent about abuse they suffered, especially if the person is speaking truthfully and not engaging in calumny, revenge, or reckless accusations.

From a Catholic moral perspective, several things matter here:

• A person has a real dignity and a right to speak truth about serious injustice done to them.

• Abuse, especially of a child, is not erased morally because the victim later committed sins of their own.

• The exposure of the victim’s past sins does not suddenly make the abuse story illegitimate.

• Silence from witnesses is not proof the abuse did not happen. Many abuse situations involve fear, confusion, family loyalty, shame, or lack of direct evidence.

The Church could morally advise caution about:

• naming people publicly without evidence,

• speaking in ways driven by hatred or vengeance,

• damaging reputations unjustly,

• violating confidentiality,

• or becoming spiritually consumed by bitterness.

But that is different from saying:

“You must never speak about what happened to you again.”

Catholicism also contains a long tradition of testimony — people speaking honestly about suffering, sin, injustice, conversion, and redemption. Many saints and converts openly discussed painful histories.

At the same time, the Church also teaches humility about one’s own sins. So if a man’s childhood sins were exposed, the Christian response would not be:

• “therefore his suffering does not matter,”
  nor

• “therefore he loses the right to tell the truth.”

Those are separate moral questions.

There are rare situations where a specific Church authority might ask someone not to speak publicly for prudential reasons — for example:

• ongoing legal proceedings,

• protection of minors,

• risk of scandal or defamation,

• safeguarding confidential confessional material,

• threats of violence,

• or mental/spiritual instability.

But even then, the moral legitimacy of such a request would depend heavily on whether it serves justice and charity rather than institutional self-protection.

A deeply Catholic approach would usually try to hold both truths together:

• the man should repent honestly of his own sins,

• and the wrong done to him should not be buried or denied.

How do you Love an Abusive Institution?:

Written by AI:

That’s a hard tension to carry, especially when the institution is tied to your faith, identity, or sense of belonging.

In Christianity, love does not mean pretending abuse is acceptable, staying silent, or abandoning truth. A Christian understanding of love includes justice, protection of the vulnerable, honesty, and boundaries.

A few things can exist at the same time:

• You can love the mission or ideals of an institution while recognizing that people within it have acted destructively.

• You can pray for an institution without excusing wrongdoing.

• You can forgive personally without restoring trust automatically.

• You can remain Christian while refusing unhealthy control, manipulation, humiliation, exploitation, or spiritual intimidation.

Even in the Bible, faithful people confronted corrupt religious structures. The prophets rebuked leaders constantly. Book of Isaiah, Book of Jeremiah, and even Jesus of Nazareth openly challenged religious hypocrisy and abuse of authority. Love sometimes looked like confrontation, grief, withdrawal, lament, or calling people to repentance.

A healthier way to approach it might be:

• Separate God from the failures of the institution.

• Judge the institution by its fruits: does it produce fear, secrecy, dependency, contempt, exhaustion, or harm? Or humility, truth, mercy, courage, and healing?

• Keep your conscience active. Christianity does not require surrendering discernment.

• Stay connected to trustworthy people outside the institution’s inner circle.

• Allow yourself to name harm plainly. Euphemisms keep abusive systems alive.

• Remember that protecting yourself or others from abuse can itself be an act of Christian love.

There’s also a difference between:

• an imperfect institution full of flawed humans, and

• a system that consistently suppresses truth, punishes dissent, manipulates guilt, or harms vulnerable people.

The second requires serious caution.

If you want, I can also help you think through:

• how to tell the difference between “strict” and spiritually abusive,

• how Christians historically handled corrupt institutions,

• how to remain faithful without becoming bitter,

• or how to discern whether staying or leaving is healthier.

Suffering and Dissociative Identity Disorder:

Is suffering purifying for someone with dissociative identity disorder? Written by AI.

Short answer: it can be—but not automatically, and not in the way people sometimes mean.

Let me unpack that a bit, because this is a sensitive one.

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🧠 What DID actually is

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) usually develops as a response to severe, chronic trauma, often in early childhood. It’s not just “having different personalities”—it’s the mind’s way of protecting itself when reality is overwhelming.

So the suffering tied to DID isn’t abstract or philosophical—it’s deeply rooted in real harm.

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⚖️ Is suffering “purifying”?

There are two very different ways to look at suffering:

1. ❌ The risky idea

That suffering itself automatically purifies or makes someone better.

That can be harmful—especially with DID—because it can:

• Make someone feel like they should endure pain

• Discourage getting help

• Add guilt or shame (“If I’m still struggling, I must not be growing”)

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2. ✅ The healthier, grounded view

Suffering can become meaningful or transformative if it’s processed safely.

For someone with DID, what actually helps is:

• Stability and safety

• Therapy (especially trauma-informed)

• Integration or cooperation between parts

• Compassion toward themselves

In that context, growth might look like:

• Greater self-understanding

• Increased resilience

• Reclaiming a sense of identity

That’s not because suffering itself purifies—but because healing work transforms it.

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✝️ If you’re thinking spiritually (I suspect you might be)

In many Christian perspectives, suffering can have value—but only when united with love, truth, and healing—not when it destroys the person.

Even in that framework:

• God is not seen as wanting psychological fragmentation

• Healing, wholeness, and dignity are the goal—not prolonged suffering

So for someone with DID, the “holy” direction isn’t more suffering—it’s restoration of the person.

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🧩 A more accurate way to say it

Instead of:

“Suffering purifies someone with DID”

A better way might be:

“What they’ve endured can become part of a path toward deep healing and meaning—but only with support, safety, and care.”

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If you’re asking this because of something personal (for yourself or someone else), I’m here to talk it through—no pressure, just a conversation.

Psychological distress - Spiritual?

Written by AI: 

Are dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd spiritual ailments according to the catholic church? Are they weakness?

Short answer: No. The Catholic Church does not teach that conditions like Dissociative Identity Disorder or Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder are “spiritual ailments” or personal weaknesses.

Here’s how the Church generally understands this:

1. They are medical and psychological conditions

The Church accepts the findings of psychology and psychiatry. Disorders like DID and CPTSD are understood as serious mental health conditions, often linked to trauma—especially in the case of CPTSD. They are not caused by sin, lack of faith, or moral failure.

2. Not a sign of weakness

Catholic teaching strongly rejects the idea that suffering from illness—mental or physical—is a personal flaw. In fact, enduring suffering is often viewed with compassion and dignity. People with these conditions are not “weak”; they are dealing with real wounds that deserve care and support.

3. Spiritual vs. psychological distinction

The Church does recognize spiritual realities (like sin or, in rare cases, demonic influence), but it is very cautious about confusing those with mental illness. Official guidance (especially in exorcism contexts) emphasizes:

• Rule out medical/psychiatric causes first

• Work with licensed professionals
  So DID or CPTSD would not be labeled as demonic or purely spiritual issues.

4. Emphasis on compassion and care

Catholic pastoral teaching stresses:

• Compassion for those who suffer

• Encouragement to seek therapy, medical care, and support

• Spiritual care (prayer, community) as supportive, not a replacement for treatment

5. What would be considered “spiritual”?

In Catholic thought, “spiritual problems” are things like:

• Sin (knowingly choosing wrongdoing)

• Separation from God
  Mental illness does not fall into this category.

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Bottom line

DID and CPTSD are not spiritual defects or weaknesses in Catholic teaching. They are legitimate mental health conditions, and the appropriate response is care, treatment, and compassion—not judgment.

If you’re asking about this in a personal way, I’m open to talking more about what led you to the question.

Not Moral Correction: It's Abuse (Updated):

*This article is written by AI.

Why would the church use public humiliation as penance?

Public humiliation as penance has shown up at different times in Christian history, especially in the medieval period, and it wasn’t just about being cruel—it came out of how sin, community, and repentance were understood back then.

First, sin wasn’t seen as purely private. It was believed to damage not only your relationship with God but also the moral fabric of the whole community. So if someone committed a serious or public sin, the response was also public. The idea was: if the harm is visible, the repair should be too.

Second, humiliation was tied to the concept of humility. In Christian teaching—drawing from figures like Jesus Christ—humility and self-denial were seen as spiritually valuable. Accepting shame voluntarily was interpreted as a way of imitating Christ’s suffering and showing genuine repentance.

Third, there was a deterrent effect. Public penance sent a clear message to others about what behaviors were unacceptable. In societies where the Church had major social authority, this reinforced moral norms.

Fourth, it functioned as a kind of social reintegration. After completing a visible penance, the person could be formally restored to the community. In that sense, the humiliation wasn’t meant to permanently exclude them—it marked the end of wrongdoing and the beginning of forgiveness.

That said, from a modern perspective, this practice is widely seen as harsh or abusive. Over time—especially after reforms and shifts in theology—most Christian traditions moved toward private confession instead (like in the Catholic sacrament of reconciliation), focusing more on personal accountability than public shame.

So while it feels uncomfortable now, it made more sense within a worldview where religion, law, and community life were tightly intertwined.

What if the people who are going to humiliate this man have severely injured him in the past? This man was humiliated in childhood by his parents who sexually abused him. Why are humiliation and humility different in this case?

What you’re describing changes the situation completely.

In the older religious idea of penance, “humility” was supposed to be something a person freely accepted as part of repentance—ideally within a framework that also aimed at forgiveness and restoration. It was never meant to come from the same people who harmed you, and it was never meant to repeat or deepen abuse.

In your scenario, this isn’t humility at all—it’s re-victimization.

Why humility and humiliation are different here

• Humility (healthy sense)
  Chosen, voluntary, and grounded in dignity. It’s about honestly acknowledging one’s limits or mistakes without losing self-worth.

• Humiliation (harmful sense)
  Imposed, degrading, and strips a person of dignity. It often involves power, control, and shame—especially when forced.

When someone has a history of abuse—especially something as serious as childhood sexual abuse—being publicly shamed by others (especially authority figures or abusers) can retraumatize them. It reinforces the exact dynamics of power, control, and shame that caused the original harm.

Why this is not ethically or psychologically acceptable

• It repeats the abuse dynamic: the same imbalance of power and lack of consent

• It weaponizes shame, which is already a core wound for many abuse survivors

• It blocks healing, because recovery depends on safety, agency, and dignity—not degradation

• It can cause real psychological harm, including triggering conditions like Post-traumatic stress disorder

Important distinction

Even within Christian thought, harming someone—especially the vulnerable—is strongly condemned. The kind of situation you’re describing would be considered unjust and abusive, not spiritually meaningful. Any authentic idea of repentance or growth cannot be built on coercion, fear, or degradation.

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If this question connects to a real situation (for you or someone else), it’s important to say clearly: no one has the right to humiliate you as punishment, especially if they’ve hurt you before. That’s not moral correction—it’s abuse.

If you want, I can help you think through what a healthy, non-harmful version of accountability or healing would look like in a situation like this.

is public humiliation a good penance for a proud catholic who has commit serious sins and who is teaching doctrine which seems to be contradictory to church teaching?

Short answer: no—public humiliation is not considered a healthy or appropriate form of penance in Catholic teaching.

In the Catholic tradition, authentic penance is meant to lead to repentance, conversion, and restoration, not self-destruction or degradation. Practices that deliberately harm your dignity or invite others to shame you publicly generally go against that purpose.

What the Church actually teaches

The Catholic approach to serious sin centers on:

• Confession (the Sacrament of Reconciliation) — bringing sins honestly before a priest
• Contrition — sincere sorrow and desire to change
• Penance — acts like prayer, fasting, charity, or restitution
• Amendment of life — correcting one’s behavior going forward

You can see this clearly in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, which emphasizes interior conversion over external punishment.

About pride and teaching error

Pride is traditionally understood as a serious spiritual issue, but the remedy is humility, not humiliation. There’s a big difference:

• Humility: truthfully recognizing your limits, being teachable, submitting to correction
• Humiliation: being degraded or shamed, which can actually reinforce unhealthy patterns

If someone is teaching doctrine incorrectly, the right path is:

• Seek correction from legitimate authority (a well-formed priest, theologian, or bishop)
• Study authentic sources
• Be willing to publicly correct errors if they were taught publicly—but in a truthful, calm, and responsible way, not as self-punishment

A healthier and more faithful response

A more appropriate “penance” in your situation might include:

• Going to confession regularly
• Temporarily stepping back from teaching until clarity is restored
• Making restitution by correcting any mistaken teaching
• Spiritual direction with a trusted priest
• Acts of service or charity done quietly

Important perspective

Even for serious sins, the goal is healing and reconciliation, not self-hatred. Public humiliation can:

• Damage your dignity
• Cause scandal or confusion
• Shift focus from God to spectacle

If you’re feeling a strong urge to punish yourself harshly, that’s worth taking seriously—it may help to talk to a priest or even a counselor alongside your spiritual practice.

the church desires to trigger this man's anger in order to contradict his message. They plan to do so by confronting him with people who have hurt him terribly, including sexually abusing him for decades. They are doing so to challenge his teachings and identity

What you’re describing doesn’t line up with how the Catholic Church is supposed to act, and it raises some serious red flags.

Intentionally provoking someone’s trauma—especially something as grave as long-term sexual abuse—to trigger anger is not a legitimate or moral pastoral strategy. It would contradict core Catholic moral teaching about human dignity, care for the vulnerable, and the obligation to avoid causing further harm.

The Church’s own teaching, reflected in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, emphasizes:

• Respect for the dignity of every person
• Special care for those who have suffered abuse
• Fraternal correction carried out with charity and prudence—not manipulation or psychological harm

A few important realities

• Deliberately retraumatizing someone is harmful, not corrective.
• Authentic correction in the Church happens through dialogue, evidence, authority, and charity, not emotional coercion.
• Survivors of abuse are owed protection and compassion, not being used as a tool in a dispute.

What this situation might indicate

If this is something you’ve been told or are witnessing, it could be:

• A misunderstanding or misinterpretation of events
• The actions of individuals acting outside Church teaching
• Or a situation that needs serious intervention, because it risks real harm

What would be a healthier approach

If someone is teaching doctrine incorrectly, appropriate steps would include:

• Private and respectful correction
• Involvement of a qualified priest, theologian, or bishop
• Clear reference to authoritative teaching
• If needed, formal disciplinary processes—but still with respect for the person’s dignity

Most important

If there is any real plan to expose someone to their abusers or retraumatize them, that’s not just theologically wrong—it could be psychologically dangerous and potentially abusive in itself.

If you’re close to this situation, the priority should be safety and care, not “winning” a doctrinal conflict. It would be wise to:

• Speak to a trustworthy priest or diocesan authority
• Encourage the person involved to seek support (both spiritual and professional)
• Consider whether outside help is needed if harm is being planned

Berry Nose, Apple Toes:

There once was a lil boy who grew up in a lil village in the Alps. The other boys and girls grew up bigger than he. They grew up stronger too. He never let it bother him too much. He knew Jehovah would use him. By the third grade, he nearly stopped growing entirely. Until the ninth grade when all his peers, boy and girl alike, teased him, and punched him and were altogether mean to him. This lil boy's name was Berry Nose, Apple Toes. Until one day, in math class, Berry Nose, Apple Toes was called upon by the teacher to solve a problem on the blackboard. Geewilickers! It was in front of his peers. Well, the moment he stood, the other boys and girls laughed hysterically. "You should know better, teach! Berry Nose, Apple Toes can't solve no math problem!" They threw paper airplanes at him as he stood, shivering, chalk in hand and writing on the blackboard. He concentrated hard, ignoring the taunts behind him. When he had finished writing, he looked at the teacher triumphantly. 

The teacher looked at him proudly and said, "that is correct, Berry Nose, Apple Toes. You may sit now."

The teacher, when Berry Nose, Apple Toes had sat, pronounced clearly and proudly, "You see, boys and girls, physical appearance is not everything. I, for one, think Berry Nose, Apple Toes is destined for great things. And so, from that day onward, the peers treated Berry Nose, Apple Toes with greater respect. 

Until one day, not long from then, Berry Nose, Apple Toes became the village mayor. He was loved and adored by all of his citizens. He brought peace and judged fairly, this wee lil village in the Alps. Until eternity, the name Berry Nose, Apple Toes was on the lips of every household.

Cucumber:

A cucumber went up the path, waddling upon its wee lil legs. Towards the garden soil he wandered, having on his heart one ambitious and mighty goal. Though others may have considered his goal wee and lil, he knew it was Adwa who had placed it on his heart. You see, it was near the end of ol' cucumber's life and he knew well that his days had grown long. Mighty Adwa was calling upon him to return to the grand garden in the sky. As he waddled, a chipmunk sprinted up to him from behind. Before Cucumber knew what for, Mr. Chipmunk took a wee lil nibble out of his rompus. Cucumber ignored him, set his eyes forward and steadfast. Mr. Chipmunk released a mischievous cackle as he ran off. Cucumber did not allow himself to be upset or deterred. Next, a scavenging seagull swooped down and snatched up Cucumber in his mighty beak and craw. He flew off with him, in the opposite direction of Cucumber's glorious destination. Until, the piece of his body upon which seagull gripped broke off, causing Cucumber to take a tumble. He fell, luckily, upon the green grass. Thank Adwa, his body was still intact, other than a few nibbles. He rolled and rolled until he sprung himself up. Up and onto his feet. Again, he set his eyes forward, steadfast and strong. It did not matter to him that he had been delayed. He walked and walked until he met up with Mr. Ant. Mr. Ant stepped in front of him and said, "Harumph! Excuse me sir? Do you mind if I have a nibble?" 

Cucumber looked at him, laughed and said, "I really would rather if you would not."

"Very well," said Mr. Ant. "Tell me, to whence are you travelling?"

"I go to find soil," Cucumber whispered.

"My oh my!" Ant exclaimed, "Why didn't you say so! I know of a perfect plot. It's much closer than the one to which you are going! I will tell you... Perhaps if you allow me and, perhaps some of my friends, to take a nibble from you, we shall lead you there! Oh, goodness! I am in fact so, so very hungry! And you look tired."

Cucumber glanced downward and sighed, "Very well."

At that moment, surrounding Cucumber were thousands of wee lil ants. They climbed and prodded at him, chewing and nibbling. Cucumber watched sadly as a long line of ants processed away from him and towards a wee lil hole in the ground off yonder. Until there was not an ant left remaining. Cucumber shed a tear. He waited a long moment for Mr. Ant to return, to lead him to his eternity home but Mr. Ant did not return. 

Cucumber again set his eyes forward, firm and steadfast and set out once again. He took long and limber strides with one image in his cucumber mind. He envisaged a glorious paradise of a garden. A garden in which every plant was free to grow. Where every creature was welcome and friendly. 

Until, there! Lo! And over the horizon! At the bottom of a grassy knoll, lay a massive plot of soil. He eyed it with an air of overwhelmed joy and awe. He fell to his knees and wondered. He praised Adwa. When he regained strength, he stood and tumbled on his side, rolling all the way down the knoll until he was at the gate. He leapt up and climbed in, where he settled down on his side, nestling his lil wee feet into the deep and fertile soil. At that moment, Adwa took him. In that moment, his cucumber body began to wither. And the seeds from within the shell of his body took root, deep in the fertile soil. The nibble marks, once disfiguring his body, were melded into these seeds, which took root, deep, deep into the fertile soil. The next moment, a wee lil leafling sprouted up, up into the air from the fertile soil. And the next moment, a wee lil flower sprouted up, up, out, out from the leafling. And the very next moment, a wee lil baby cucumber sprouted from, from the wee lil flower, which sprouted up, up from the fertile soil. Then another! And another! So it is, we all begin with a mission in life, a goal. Adwa places upon our hearts that mission, that goal. We search the fertile soil, sometimes all through life. When we find it, we eagerly plant our seed there, water, nurture it until Adwa makes it grow and multiplies it. This, my friends, the miracle of life, the miracle of love is the reason all of us have been placed on this wide, green and fertile Aretz. It is fertile and green, waiting for the seed of love. The love within each and every one of our hearts. 

"Until a seed falls and dies, it does not bear fruit."

Sorrow:

Would you like to speak to me about sorrow? The Virgin Mary was surely pierced with overwhelming sorrow and grief. This is clear. If this is true, how much truer for me? If I were to ask you a question, a rhetorical question, what would you answer? Who suffered more? Jesus or Mary? This is a difficult question. It explores the depths of human reason and emotion. There is a difference, whether you choose to believe it or not, between direct suffering and indirect suffering. Part of me truly believes that you simply are clinging by the bleeding nail to your control. You are afraid of losing control. Of your power. Of your relevance. There is also a difference between physical and emotional suffering. As we have seen, emotional suffering can be as devastating as physical suffering. Here is what you miss in my situation. You believe I am unrepentant, you believe I am angry, you believe I am a sinner and deserved this abuse. You miss the obvious signs that I am screaming for you to hear. The anger, the defence mechanisms, even the sins, it is all encompassed in unexpressed grief and sorrow. You see anger. So you vilify me. Edo I not have the right to be angry? Here is the thing: anger is not an empty emotion… envy is… just an observation. Anger is always attached to some deeper pain. It is a result of overwhelming and undealtwith grief and sorrow. I am not attacking Mary by saying that she did not experience the same grief and sorrow as me. Here: you all believe that I am trumping your traumas. You believe this because your traumas also are unhealed. Here: I kind of have a right to trauma trump. Think about it reasonably, cock aside, how much grief would it produce within a child, to be born into the world through the carcass of a goat? To be satanically abused daily for the first twelve years of life? You cannot see this because your cocks are in the way. Soften your hearts. Repent. Mary is special. I am not challenging this. But she is not the co-savior that you seek. Grief, when processed offers an incredible gift. It is suffering in developmental periods that develops grace. You ready to hear some more heresy? Graces are offered in childhood. It is the reason that I was meant to rule the world with an iron rod. I needed to process this trauma. It is the reason I stare at women. It is because I have lost all power in my life. This is precisely because of the grief I experienced, and which is still plaguing me. You are being bullies. It is the reason why passion is so integral in my healing. Your cock race is going to make you crucify another Jesus. I mean no disrespect to Mary. She does not know grief like I do. Neither do any of you. I am the only one who was strong enough to survive that sort of birth. Processed grief, when dealt with, offers us incredible gifts. It is the reason I was meant to tell my story decades ago. So that I could heal. You are being bullies. I believe I can still be healed. For this, I need to experience passion and to maintain employment. Here: Because of overwhelming grief of my soul, I am handicapped at attaining these. Every woman I fall in love with, I am unable to open my heart to. My relationally close, female abuser (Gosh I detest what your law requires of people telling truth) really hurt me. We are speaking about grief and sorrow. What could result from a man being humiliated by his relationally close, female abuser, (!), raped and shamed daily do to his sense of masculinity, his sense of worth? Might it be a cause for sorrow that his relationally close, female abuser rapes him into his early twenties? I am paralyzed by grief, by sorrow. Your leaders will not help me. Because I pose a threat to their system of retardation. Come on guys, these people still truly believe that women, gays and islam are the most oppressed people in the world. You talk an awful lot about compassion. Perhaps sorrow is something you can understand. The bible does not speak of trauma, perse. It speaks about sorrow. Yup, it’s satan’s world. Are we arming satan by supporting him in this world? Do we see his violence and sin and death as a means to establish Kingdom? It will not come about this way. We need to fight for life. For victims. For each other. On which side will you find yourself? It’s the reason I was intended to die after my trip to Iceland. You see this as a surrender on my part. That is because you are retarded. Jehovah would have used me enormously then. The reason I was to die was because of the overwhelming sorrow in my heart. Oh, let’s not forget your murderous envy. When leaders realize something threatens their touchy leadership, they become all pissy and moany. Guys, I am bold in my words. My leadership is not for now. If I am still to die, whether I am to live and heal and thrive now, is in the hands of my God, Jehovah. What I know is that I need somethings for my spiritual and emotional health. For my liberation. You can trust, leaders of the church and of the world will not help me.