Do you believe that if the pope were
to instruct you to walk off a cliff, you should do this? Guys, wake up! In the
same way, in the same vein, the readings of the Mass do not instruct us to
commit sin. You know, when I was fifteen, I started getting the impression that
people were judging me then also. It happens to everybody. When Dawson’s Creek
aired, I remember people coming up to me and referring to my perfect life.
Haha. Here: you were judging me based on what you saw in television. I don’t
know how to tell you how absurd this is. Television is not a good teacher.
Guys! You are a beautiful flock. You need know how precious you are. In your
sheep like tendencies. Know that the only reason this has come about – that you
have elected teachers of life, morals and values from your television and
sports stars – is because your church leaders have failed you. Has the time for
prophets been abandoned? Look: I am not criticizing you. You are doing great.
Just know, there are better choices of sources of wisdom out there. Soon, you
will see that I am the only one telling the truth. The truth? Who can know what
it is? I’m telling you… I kind of do. God speaks to me personally. It may be
God’s will that I be hurt. This you need know: It is because of your corruption
this will happen. And so the world will not be broken by truth. The service you
are seeking, I have already enacted. The suffering you are seeking, I have
already endured. You are just envious and want to crush me. Soon, your hearts
will melt. You will wake up. You will see. God will show you. You are not
animals. They seek to crucify me only because they oppose my message. Only
because they are contemptuous that God chose me. Goats can be made by satanic
ritual abuse. Just like saints can be made by baptism. You are cold hearted
rapscallions. Look, you are going to need to start being able to discern the
true Spirit from the false spirit on your own. I warn you: Catholic Church, the
popular one, the one which seems to be set up by VII, will be the instrument
through which you will follow man to destruction. This is not my words. I
simply tell you what I also know. Seat of evil will take its place in popular
Catholic Church, thereby leading many, many souls to damnation. It’s why, now,
we must make clear what is truth. If we do not have truth, we lose everything.
Zealous Catholics are right. The true Church will never fall. He will stay with
it until the end. But, I do believe my Witness friends are correct when they
say, what is coming, not what is now, but what is coming is the whore of
Babylon. Be wary. Learn to learn on your own. You don’t need someone to teach
you in the Spirit of God. Do you believe that Jehovah sanctions cruelty? Do you
believe that Jehovah sanctions lies? God will show you. I am a king. Again, if
your leaders instructed me of something, it fell upon deaf ears. Because you
were not speaking to me. You were speaking to another person within me. Don’t
want me to talk about politics? Tell me. No leader has told me a thing. Your
leaders have a responsibility to shepherd me as well, don’t they? Truth is
truth. Regardless of what happens. Regardless of what you do to me. Regardless
of whether or not I get angry. Truth is truth. You cannot change that. Truth is
worth fighting for. Damn you for resisting the truth. Do you hear me? You
should know better. I really cannot help talking about politics. You have
cameras up my asshole and a bug in my brain. It is impossible to be silent.
What you expect of me is literally impossible. You simply persecute me because
I am a king. Well, know this. God chose me, even if the world condemns me. He
will prove every one of you fools and expose every one of your own sins. Wait. 😉 This world is evil. It surely is. But, God is not. You will need
choose which side you are on, Church. This slime, this rabble who are devoted
to satan will follow him to their complete and utter annihilation. So be it.
You must not weep for them. For their shame is well deserved. But there are
ones amongst them who can repent. Search for them. Just because I tell the
truth, doesn’t mean I deserve to die. Just because God offers me more grace
than you, does not mean I deserve to die. Think about which side you are on.
Remember the message of the Bible. Law is important. Love, compassion trumps
law and sacrifice. Every time. Since Jesus came, we do not read the Bible in
the same way. No matter. If it be God’s will that I suffer and die for the
children, here are my wrists. What are you waiting for? I may not be strong
enough at this time. But I have a purpose. It won’t be a punishment. This will
not stop those of you beans who are very jealous of me from accosting me as though
I deserved it. Don’t worry. Jehovah shows you. Remember, my message when I
first began my ministry was shalom. I preached the children. I preached the
Gospel. There was no politics. Until you began your espionage. May Jehovah show
you your error. May He show you your sinfulness. No matter. From now on, I am
making a firm conviction. I will use my little platform for good. For
encouragement. For hope. God loves you. All of you. I say that some have made
the firm choice to follow satan. It may seem so. And their arrogance makes it
even more apparent. But you need to know the truth. It is never, ever too late
for a soul to choose the light. While there is still breath in your body, you
can choose to serve the living God. We will amass pain and anguish upon ourselves
by delaying our conversions but, you need know, it is never too late. I’ll tell
you the truth. The truth that is hidden in plain sight. The religious we have
amongst us today, some of them are no different from the pharisees of Jesus’
day. May it bring you strong encouragement that when this occurs, some of the
most evil people we know at this time, will grow into the most lively of saints
for Jehovah. Contrarily, some of the most pious and religious people we know
now will become the persecutors of the true people of God. This is no mystery.
Why? Why is this encouraging? I’ll tell you. It is encouraging in that God
touches the heart. Not the mind. We need know, sinners especially, by serving
satan, you are killing yourself. By serving God, you are giving yourselves
life. The Gospel is right, friends. Regardless of who you are, confessed
Catholic, in a state of ‘grace’ or Islamic Imam, you have got sin. The only
remedy is the love of Jehovah through Christ Jesus. Open your hearts. Open your
hearts. Following satan and sinning in this life will have consequences. For
those who do not face consequences now, by sweeping your sins under the carpet,
just wait. God desires to bless you. Take His hand. Face to face. Be with Him. The
reason you think I am created by God to be the antichrist is because your
hearts are rock cold. You are being bullies. Nothing less than bullies. You
have no compassion therefore you think a child is able and capable to make
their own choices about the direction in which their lives will go. You cannot
see this child who has been abused dreadfully as human because of his sins. You
cannot see that perhaps he needs protection, encouragement and nourishment
rather than punishment and encouragement of the abuse that was created into
him. You cannot see that this child was being groomed to be antichrist not
because it was his identity but because of the trauma he had experienced. We
already know Christians know piss all when it comes to trauma. Open your
hearts. It’s simple common sense. Even a tree twig, if separated from its tree,
will bruise the tree. Are you so proud and caught up in your own traumas that
you would condemn this man who is being ushered to his destruction? I know who
God says I am. God says I am a king, chosen before my birth to conquer the
earth back for Jehovah. I know who satan says I am. I choose God’s choice. Are
you going to quash this man because of your envy and contempt to becoming who
satan wants him to be? It’s a sign of hearts. God wants life for this child.
Satan wants his destruction. Which will you choose, world. Church? If the
Church chooses my condemnation, how far has the Church fallen. This is not to
be a surprise. A flock without a true shepherd will scatter. Do you think I am
proud? Do you think I am arrogant? No. No, friends. I simply know a truth. When
you know a truth, your tolerance for people who resist the truth becomes
agitated. God will show you. Promise not to say I told you so. 😉 Look, the Catholic Church is in shambles. What we need, what the
world truly needs at this moment, from a worldly perspective, are jock bullies
of the 1980’s. Bring them back. They seemed to have been the only thing keeping
the spazoids in check from destroying the world. No, really, the world needs
Jesus.
Sunday, March 8, 2026
Jock Bullies of the 1980's!:
Saturday, March 7, 2026
Shaking (According to AI):
A child is ritually and sexually abused until fifteen when he has a very serious head injury. As an adult, his legs shake when he becomes overwhelmed. What is the likely cause of these shakes?
Leg shaking in an adult with that history can have several possible causes, and it’s not possible to diagnose the exact reason without a clinical evaluation. However, given the details you described—severe childhood trauma (ritual and sexual abuse) plus a serious head injury—there are a few commonly recognized mechanisms that could explain why the legs shake when the person becomes overwhelmed.
1. Trauma-related nervous system activation (very common)
Severe childhood abuse can lead to conditions such as Post‑Traumatic Stress Disorder or Complex Post‑Traumatic Stress Disorder.
When someone with trauma becomes overwhelmed, their autonomic nervous system may enter a fight-flight-freeze state. In that state:
The body releases stress hormones (adrenaline, cortisol).
Muscles become highly activated and tense.
Trembling or shaking—especially in the legs—is a common discharge of that activation.
Some trauma therapists view this as the body attempting to release stored survival energy after intense stress. The shaking may occur when the person feels emotionally flooded or triggered.
2. Functional neurological symptoms
Another possibility is Functional Neurological Disorder (FND).
In FND:
The brain’s control of movement becomes disrupted by stress or trauma.
People may experience tremors, weakness, shaking, or seizures that are real but not caused by structural damage.
Symptoms often appear during emotional overload or psychological triggers.
FND is strongly associated with severe trauma histories.
3. Effects of the head injury
The serious head injury could also contribute. Traumatic brain injury can affect movement circuits and emotional regulation.
Relevant conditions include:
Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) effects on motor control
Post‑Traumatic Tremor
Damage affecting the cerebellum or basal ganglia
However, TBI tremors are usually more constant, whereas trauma-triggered shaking tends to occur specifically during emotional overwhelm, which is an important distinction.
4. Dissociation or freeze-response release
People who experienced prolonged childhood abuse sometimes develop strong freeze responses. When emotional pressure builds:
The body may enter a freeze/collapse state.
When that state begins to release, legs may shake or buckle.
This is also seen in trauma-processing therapies.
✅ In many cases with this pattern (triggered by overwhelm), clinicians suspect trauma-related autonomic discharge or functional neurological symptoms more than purely neurological tremor.
⚠️ Because both trauma history and head injury are involved, evaluation by professionals is important, ideally:
a trauma-informed psychologist or psychiatrist
a neurologist familiar with functional neurological disorders or TBI
They can determine whether the shaking is primarily neurological, trauma-related, or a combination.
If you'd like, I can also explain:
Why leg shaking specifically happens in trauma responses
How clinicians distinguish trauma shaking vs neurological tremor
Therapies that often reduce these symptoms.
In general, it would not be considered fair or responsible for a church to condemn someone for a physical reaction like leg shaking and assume it is caused by anger or personal sin—especially given the background you described.
1. Physical symptoms are not moral failures
Leg shaking when overwhelmed is most often related to stress physiology, trauma, or neurological factors, such as:
Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Functional Neurological Disorder
Traumatic Brain Injury
These are medical or psychological conditions, not moral choices. Condemning someone for symptoms outside their voluntary control would generally be viewed as misattributing a health issue to a moral fault.
2. Ethical and pastoral perspectives
Most modern pastoral care frameworks encourage:
Compassion for trauma survivors
Avoiding quick moral judgments about unexplained behaviors
Seeking medical or psychological understanding
Even in many traditional Christian teachings, there is a strong emphasis on caring for those who suffer rather than assuming guilt for symptoms that may stem from harm done to them.
3. Trauma-informed ministry
Many churches today adopt trauma-informed approaches, recognizing that people who experienced severe abuse may show:
shaking
dissociation
emotional overwhelm
startle responses
These are usually understood as responses to past harm, not indicators of spiritual failure.
4. The fairness question
So from ethical, pastoral, and clinical viewpoints:
Condemning the person as sinful because of involuntary shaking would generally be considered unfair and harmful.
A more appropriate response would be support, listening, and encouragement to seek professional help if needed.
If you want, I can also explain why some religious communities historically interpreted trauma symptoms as spiritual problems and why that view has been changing.
Monday, March 2, 2026
Far-Right?:
Friends, this is not about pride. It’s about the salvation of souls. You do not realize to whence you lead them now. If you continue to follow on this path, souls will perish. I’m telling you, with repentance, with restoration, not only can souls be gained and saints made, Kingdom glory will increase and satan will have less ground. He will not gain as much traction in the test. He will not gather as many souls. Friends, there was a clear reason all (every single one) of the popes and leaders over the course of Christian history have rejected that ideology. This is very elemental. I don’t know your reasons for following this path. Perhaps it’s true and you have been infiltrated. Then, it may not be your fault. Stand up. Know your fathers, and everyone of their fathers rejected, uniformly this ideology. It is not pride to declare and stand in who Jehovah says you are. I am not perfect. It’s true. But I am inculpable. Had I not been abused, I may have had holy spirit much sooner, becoming an apostle. You are still making leadership a penis measuring contest. The Christian leader is not the one with the strongest and loudest voice. How can I show you this? I have sin. It doesn’t belong to me. They fear me because of my potential. It’s the reason they are threatened by me. In so doing, they bully me. God makes the leader. When holy spirit comes upon me, and I receive healing, I will be ordained by God. Again, that ideology, the one the Church seems to have cozied up to recently, is going to lead you all into death. They will make you slaves. Slavery is not the way of Christ. Freedom is. I am not proud. I tell the truth. You cannot bear to hear it. Guys: I heard a headline today that the pope says the greatest threat in the world is the rise of the far right. This itself is blatant evidence that the holy spirit no longer resides amongst your leadership. (I did not say the Church). Either this or he is compromised. See, let me try to explain something to you as a parent would his child. They are “praying” about this situation from the perspective of their human eyes. This is not the discernment of holy spirit. They follow the popular trend of demonizing the far right because of the image of the past. The image that Nazism conjures is nearby. We are afraid of seeing the past repeat itself. Here’s the thing: white people are very much a minority at this time in the world. Most of us were killed during these wars. You are missing what is happening in the world in front of your own eyes. You are so worried about white people reenacting history that you are blind to what is happening all around you. Whether or not Hitler was right, what inspired these people to frenzy who followed him was incitement and propaganda. You don’t even see the fact that military aged men are being shipped by the thousands into European and North American and otherwise, colonial countries now. It is clearly an invasion. You need simply open your eyes. Perhaps Hitler saw what they were trying to do. I know I did. This world order will create a holocaust again. Mark my prophetic words: the victims of this holocaust are not going to be the ones whom you have labeled victims now. They will be the true ones of God. The ones whom you can identify through their love. This aside: even discounting the drastic, disastrous consequences of mass immigration, the model for multiculturalism doesn’t work. Because people have different gods. People have different values. If you import a man who values death and torture into a culture that values peace, dignity and honesty, do not be surprised when many people within this culture are hurt. Friends! You call me racist in saying this. You say it because of my past. I would more and more say that you are right. But not for the reason you think. This is simply common sense. I was right. Your phds and doctors have intellectualized our cultures into the garbage dump. No one’s to blame. No one’s to blame. The far right are advocating a cause, which, from human eyes, look evil. Simply because of the past associated with it. In God’s eyes, this is the minority! This is the persecuted. They simply try to show you what is really happening. The pope is not listening to holy spirit. If he can hear it, is not for me to say. Do you want to kill me and falsely accuse me for saying this? God exposes every lie after. Why is this so important? What about this is worth dying for? Listen to me closely. Souls are at stake. The world will be plummeted into utter darkness, following a long period of slavery. You need to wake up and realize that I seem to be one of the only Christian leaders who is seeking you to be blessed here. Christian leadership is not like leadership of the world. Just because you have a loud voice and ‘balls’ doesn’t make you a Christian leader. The power of the world is bollocks to God. Look, I know. You may be right. For this, I am not ready. What you are missing. What are you missing? All I needed do when I was a kid was tell my truth and I would have had this. Even up to five years ago, all I needed do was trust God and I would have died, leaving a miracle for the world at my death. I am starting to believe that had I had married Bethany, despite the Church’s assumptions at that time that I would have been held accountable, God would have taken my life shortly after and still given this world its miracle. God’s purpose for me was never to be held accountable. Is it now? It’s not because of my sin. I am starting to think you want me to wait so that you can maintain your control over the faithful. What are you missing? Perhaps you are training me for something. I understand what this is. You are trying to maintain control. I know that the Catholic Church are not my enemies. I know you are not against me. Friends, my flock, Traditional Catholics, hear me now during this period of lucidity, you are such special people to your God. The Witnesses call you whore of Babylon. I know different. You are not evil. You are an extremely special people. Perhaps the whore of Babylon is the Catholic Church. It is not the Traditional Catholic Church. You need to be wary of the Church moving closer to the world. When you see this, flee! Traditional Catholics, I’ll tell you what makes you so beautiful to God. It is in your obedience. Your God desires to shepherd you towards Him. It is your obedience, which can be your greatest endearing quality to God. It is your obedience, which can be your greatest downfall. You do not pick your shepherds. You need to remember: a Christian leader serves before he leads. You try to maintain control. I don’t know if you possess it. You see, the elite will try to kill me. When I hear you say that I need to be obedient, what I hear you say is that I need to submit to being falsely accused and crucified. If I believed that being silent would keep me safe, I would be silent. The elite will kill me precisely because of the persistence of my message. Because God keeps trying to show you what I am and what I suffered. My dear friends, I am cocky. I am haughty and proud. You need know that God doesn’t love me any more than He loves you. He loves you so much. Remember this. You are important to God. I am not better. The blessings He offers me and the graces He offers me are because I suffered for Him. You need know He loves you enormously. He will reward you. He will give you the world and its blessings. All you need do is overcome. Choose Him. Become God’s friend. Today is the time to start. This is not about me. It’s my story. But it’s not. It’s all your stories. Remember this next time you feel insignificant. God speaks to you. All you need do is listen. Open your heart. Slow down and listen. It’s a soft voice. A very soft voice. But that is God. It’s the voice that you push away. The voice that when at the first sign of pride or anger disappears like a breath. Hold onto it. That is Jehovah speaking to you. He wants to speak to you. If you can’t hear Him at first, don’t be discouraged. He will come. He speaks to all of His children. Remember, He loves you. He will walk next to you through whatever you endure. Quiet your heart. Listen. Listen. Listen. Be strong, blessed ones. Know that the time for your triumph is right around the corner. The time for victory looms at the door. And the time for tears, agony and shame is nearly over.
A question you need ask yourselves: do you believe that your God sanctions His christian leaders to quash individuals who criticise them and who claim to be someone important? If that is the god you are serving, you may be on the wrong side. On the contrary, Christian leaders have restraint. They serve. They, even when riddled with envy and indignation, resist the urge to retaliate. We must safeguard our right and liberty to criticise our leaders. If we cannot, how will they be held accountable? Has it been so long? Truly?
What would you do if you were able to live your lives on your own? (Written by Jonathan with collaboration from all my known alters):
Steve: I would be the CEO of several
companies. I would live in Hawaii and have a successful YouTube channel. I
would be married and have two children.
Freedom: I would be a carpenter,
amateur cartographer and astronomer. I would live a simple life on a hobby farm.
I am married, with five children. I am Catholic.
Tina Bethany: I would be a celebrity
like Madonna. A diva. I would dance all the time. I would express myself
through my sexuality. I have a beautiful voice.
Panic Courage: I would be a lawyer
and amateur composer. I would have a wonderful and loving husband. Together, we
would have a big house, dog and YouTube channel about domestic life.
Hope in Sorrow: I am a YouTube star
doing incredible feats. I do things like wing suiting, deep sea diving and
mountain climbing. I would be very joyfully married. I am Jehovah’s Witness.
Shadow: I am a strong, conservative
political advocate. My transgender identity lends validity and credibility to
my words. I have a children’s refuge, which cares for orphaned children. I have
a wonderful, long-time boyfriend. See, this is what your Church misses. Trauma and shame stumbles children. Not only to commit crimes and sins. But also to reject the true identities Jehovah has prepared for them. It's what satanism is all about. Hurting children so that they do not realize their potential. God will show you. Am I speaking too much common sense for you today? Is your head hurt from hearing it? How about your libido? Is that hurt?
George: I have an evangelical
worship ministry. I live in Florida, with a wife and three children. I am loved
by all. I am a pro-life activist.
Humility-Narcis: I am a pilot. I am
an amateur, adult contemporary musician. I sing songs like Tracy Chapman. I am
married and have seven children. I live in LA. I am Catholic.
Defence: I am a controversial politician.
I have a wife. I am Orthodox. I have ten children. I begin as a businessman and
get into politics. I would save the West and Christianity with my political
ability.
Faith: I am very humble. I have a
beautiful wife and two kids. We live in Banff. I am a traveller, rock collector
and writer. I am Traditional Catholic.
Paul: I am an animal right’s
activist. I would live in Scottsdale, AZ with a wife and two dogs. We have a
refuge for animals there.
Klaus Jacob: I would be a member of
MH. I am a writer and theological philosopher. I had an injury and walk with a
limp. Eventually, I would become DG.
Desire: I am a professional baseball
player. I am evangelical and married with four children. In the WS, I would be
the star player, hitting a walk-off homerun.
Pete: I am a professional golfer. I
am a preacher. I am Jehovah’s Witness. I am a baker, musician, gardener, poet
and lover. Despite that I am gay, I am married to a woman with seven children.
Rage: I am a champion MMA fighter. I
am on fire for God. I have a wife and twelve kids.
Babel: I am a fisherman in the
Florida Keys. I am retired military. I have a wife and one kid. I am a Buddhist
with Christian leanings.
Joshua Hope: I am a king. I live in
a palace in France. I have thirteen wives and have 78 children. I inspire with
the help of a holy Pope, the last crusade to repatriate the West, eliminate
heresy, corruption and destroy communism and satanism.
Hank: I am a strong conservative
advocate. I have several boyfriends. I am Catholic. I write political satires
and would write and sing a hit, political, country song.
Curtis: I am a world traveler. I am
a controversial and popular psychologist. I gain popularity with my resistance
of woke ideology. I am married with two children. I am Catholic.
Fawn: I am a modern-day prophet. I
am evangelical. I am a florist and write science fiction. I am married to a
wonderful husband. Together, we have one child. I am Traditional Catholic.
Jeremiah: I am an R&B artist. I
write songs. I am a performer. I am married to the woman of my dreams. We have
two children. On my spare time, I am a politician on a local level.
Jon-Jon: I am a Conservative
activist. I am very popular with women. I have a radio pod cast. I have a
tongue like a sword. I am Orthodox and live in S.C.
Elora: I am a traditional housewife.
I am a Jolene of all trades. I am a baker, musician, seamstress, gardener,
carpenter and teacher. I am happily married and have seven children. I am a
Traditional Catholic home schoolteacher.
Dee: I am a Traditional Catholic
movie director, writer and producer. I create an indie series on the Life of
Jesus. I also create a powerful, fictional story exposing the trafficking industry.
I am married and have two kids.
Michael: I am an Archbishop in the
Catholic Church. I am excommunicated for schism. I am with a clear conscience
and lead many souls to their God. I am a writer. I write all kinds of genres.
Kershaw: I am a comedian. I write a
hit TV show about life in Canada. I am married and have three children.
Well: I am a for-hire sea captain. I
was never married but am a great lover. I am a rapper, writing lyrics for political
change.
Jacob: I am a cartoonist, creating
children’s books. I am married and have one child. I am a children’s rights
activist. I am Catholic.
Daphne: I am a professional juicer
and have a juicing company. I sing in a band. I have a beautiful husband and
two children. I am United.
Wednesday, February 25, 2026
Petunia Seed:
This is the tale of the wandering flower nectar. Once, there was a brave and heroic petunia seed. He was a little bit smaller than the other seeds. You see, because of this, Petunia seed felt a little inadequate. Indeed, the other seeds often even ridiculed him for his long and thin, feminine petals and his raiment of seed hair, which was thin and spotty. He didn't quite have a full head of seeds like Sunflower seed. True, he was different. He was small. But he always believed that one day, the seed God, Adwa, would do something great through him. For through Adwa, anything was possible. Reader, do you not remember the tale in the Scriptures of Adwa about Davith, the mustard seed who defeated a rock creature when he challenged the seed race? Oh! Those dreaded rock creatures! How large they were! When Davith used a sling to toss a wee piece of metal upon him, fracturing him into smithereens? Yes, Adwa can and does use the very smallest creature for His glory. And so, Petunia seed also believed one day, he would do grand things. It was not until the flower bed was ravished that he began his mission. See, one day, massive, horrible creatures, standing at enormous heights entered the flower patch. They seethed and spat about as they trampled the garden with their massive feet. There was much pandemonium that day. Many flowers were killed. And many tears were shed. A sad day it was. The flowers of the flowerbed were simply going about their daily business. It was when the avenger came! In the form of those feet. When the destruction ceased, only a few remained. There was rose petal. There was carnation nectar and there was dandelion seed. Well, it was decided amongst the survivors that a mighty quest need take place. For the flowers needed to find hope. They needed to find life. Ever since that day, where the mighty feet of destruction came, no living creature inhabited the flowerbed any longer. As for Petunia seed? What made him different? He had been pollinated earlier the season by a big ol' bumblebee. See, he was the hope of the flowerbed. So, rose petal, carnation nectar and dandelion seed protected him. Dandelion seed was the oldest of the four. He was a mighty teacher and leader amongst their ranks. He gave Petunia seed a map, telling him to keep it secret. This map, marked the promised land. See, the mighty quest they were about to undertake was in search of a new flowerbed. A new home. And so, in a gust of wind, they gathered up their belongings and caught up in the breeze.
"Oh no!" Dandelion seed cried, " we are headed in the wrong direction!"
Suddenly, the gust of breeze changed course and they set out the right path... They were flying southward.
Through the jets of air current they saw around them, a world full of insects and debris filled the skies. They were a flight. They flew for hours. There was no stopping them now. Except hunger and exhaustion. And so, they floated down together, holding petals and descended slowly atop of little pebble. Here, as they hunkered together to stay warm in the breeze over the clearing, they were shocked at what they saw. From the other side of the pebble, a massive spider creeped his many, many legs over himself until he stood before the four intrepid travelers.
"Hmm, well then... I have never seen ones quite like you..." Spider rele as sed a tremulous hiccough of laughter and continued, "methinks yousa' look good in mah' belly!" He guffawed and reached out his front legs. He grabbed Rose petal and Carnation nectar. Dandelion seed and Petunia seed rushed behind Spider, collected some sticky and gooey web of Spider's home and rushed back. Together, they crafted a net and smothered Spider's face until he couldn't see. Spider collapsed and sat still. He began to weep. Carnation nectar comforted him. Spider said, "Nobody understands what it's like to be a spider. I don't mean to be mean. It's just... It's just, I have got all of these babies to feed." He revealed a sack of eggs under the pebble. Dandelion seed removed the net from his face so he could see again.
Carnation nectar said, "We understand your dilemma. See, our flowerbed was destroyed and we need to rebuild our home. We are looking for a new flowerbed."
Spider eyed them curiously, winked 6 of his beady eyes and said, "Well well well..." The flower seeds winced at these words. " Just so happens," Spider continued, I know a place for ones like you. It's over the rainbow and across the mountain. Glorious it be. Garden of Adwa, they call it."
And so, flower petals lifted up in the wind once again and flew, flew, flew. They were quite high up in the sky, when Carnation nectar spotted a large piece of greenery. His nectary jaw dropped as he simply pointed to it. The seeds reshaped aerodynamically and followed the wind course to this greenery.
Next, skies grew dark, winds increased. How terrifying the skies grew. And in five minutes, the winds were unbearable. Massive pellets of water fell. The flower seeds descended and took shelter under a rocky crag.
When the skies cleared up, the sun came out, they came from their shelter and shook off. On the horizon, a swarm of something seemed to be approaching. There was a tremendous and glorious buzzing. Until it became evident that they were honey bees. The flower seeds stood up and waved as the honey bees passed. One noticed the seeds. Then another. Then another. They fell from the sky and they met one another in mid air. They did a tremendous dance in the sky. Never before was there such a moment of pure bliss and complete joyful love as that moment when the seeds were pollinated by the honey bees.
When the bees left, a gentle wind began. A zephyr bristling over the fibres of their being. They stood, caught up in the wind and rose high, where they flew, flew, flew. Towards this remarkable patch of greenery. Petunia seed took the map out given to him by Dandelion seed and it confirmed the spot. As they approached, the massive trees loomed. Over the clouds. Perennial and wonderful vine plants met the trees high up.
Until, they saw it. A glorious, massive field of soil. Fresh and with water next to it. The sunlight filtered through these trees like jets of golden life..
And so, the flower seeds, Petunia seed, Rose petal, Carnation nectar and Dandelion seed all fell from the sky, pollinated, and buried themselves deep within the soil. And so, the story of the flowerseed, the flowerbed and of life itself carries on. To tell another story.
Fin.
Tuesday, February 24, 2026
Repentance:
With due respect, I seem to be one
of the only leaders who is seeking to lead you into life and blessing here.
Mind you, they will claim that the blessing I am offering is a worldly
blessing. It’s true. Heavenly blessing will be made abundant if there is now
worldly blessing. They may not know it; that they lead you to suicide. Anything
that touches that ideology ends up in destruction. Here’s the thing they do not
understand. If we end our lives in this life, with an act of suicide, chances
are going to slim that we will be able to overcome the testing. This is the
reason suicide, collectively or individually is not acceptable. You’re right. I
can’t speak worth beans. My knees shake when I am scared. Do you judge me like
you would a communist tsar? See, leadership has been so infected, so plagued by
this nonsense, that Christians once again believe that the leader is the one
with the loudest voice. You hedge God in when you say a leader needs to be a
strong speaker, a superman. You doubt the power of God. You know they are
committing in a sense, the gravest scandal in the history of the Church by what
they are doing to me. There is no excuse. No excuse. And, when my truth is
revealed, so everything else is exposed. I don’t understand you. How can you
sit there, and act like you are in a state of grace while you are eating
children? You know, it’s not only the Hollywood type? It’s the Church. How you
treat the children tells me everything I need to know about your state of
grace. You can tell a lot about a person by the way they consider children.
Those vulnerable and who cannot do anything for them. You can say about me that
I have done terrible things to children in the past. It’s true. My culpability
is not between me and you. It’s between me and God. Whether I have repented, I
leave in the hands of God. If I have not, I know He will give me the grace. If
I have, then all of the fire of heaven that demolished Sodom and Gomorrah be
called down upon you. A child can be conditioned to do whatever it is trained
into. This is no different for me because my identity was being formed to be
antichrist. Who I was being formed into was not my choice. Goats can be created
by satanic ritual abuse just like saints can be created by baptism. Do you see
now the importance of my mission? I hate calling you retards. Still, there is
such satisfaction in knowing it is true. You know it is spiritual abuse for you
to want to confront me with my abusers. There is no justifying it. This is not
God’s will. If it is God’s will for me to be falsely accused, it’s not a
punishment. It’s so that you do not have a broken heart. When you discover what
I sacrificed because of shame. All I needed do when I was young was tell the
truth. I would have been a king. You smite me because I resist the blessings
God offered me. It’s evidence you know shit all about trauma and human
condition. You understand sin. Yet you cannot understand shame. Suffering
affects people. You can call it heresy all you would like. You’d be morons. But
you can. God will show you. Morons. 😉 I make light
of this. You cannot see because your hearts are rock. Do you truly believe I am
asking to be crucified because I call out your corruption? Only bullies would
think so. Only narcissists. God bless you. I pray for you. You are not my
enemies. You may find yourself being God’s enemies though. The reason I have to
be falsely accused is the same reason your blessing in this world has not yet
come. It is entirely because of the corruption of the leaders. Wake up. This is
not about your leaders. Look, I love the priesthood. I love the elders. But you
need to know that even they get their orders from higher. I acknowledge that I
am not in a healthy state to lead the world. But you need to know what is
happening here. This is not about leaders. It is not about communism. These are
symptoms. This is about good vs. evil. Yes, I am weak. I am wounded. But I seem
to be the only leader man enough to stand up and say something against this
avalanche of chaos, which plummets towards us. You need to know there are other
options. Leaders, repent! You need be the ones who lead your children, your
sheep into repentance. If you continue simply giving homilies and teaching to
spite me and contradict my message instead of preaching about Jesus and Jehovah
and their love, you are not leading them to repentance. You need to know the
cost. The cost are souls. You need to know that even though it may seem
insurmountable, this wave of evil and destruction had a beginning. It can have
an end. You need to know, leaders of the world, that there is a different
course. This is not about my sin. It is not about my morality. God will prove
me not culpable. If it’s what He wishes. All I know is that repentance begins
in the heart. Especially of the leaders. Look, you don’t need to be the top dog
in order to lead for the proper course. There are those who are. Even now.
Those you crucify and persecute. Those who tell the truth are rarely rewarded
in this world. That time is coming to a graceful and complete end. You may say
and think this is in my imagination. Nothing new to me. I’ve dealt with it for
decades. Just know, at this moment, that when my truth comes out at my death,
so does every other little misdeed and sin in the world. Everything is exposed.
Not only that, you will all experience justice then. Do you really feel in your
heart, that you are without sin? Catholics? Witnesses? World? Church?
Recognition of our sinful state is the very first step in Christian faith. You
may find that you will all need go back to the drawing boards. You are not
aware consciously of 90% of the lives you have lived. I can guarantee this
because I understand what it means to fragment, to dissociate and to forget. I
understand what it means to remember. This is all about causality. When we
realize this, there will no longer be the need for vengeance. You are simply
bitter. You are seeking vengeance with worldly justice. With jails and prisons
and murders, you simply try to silence people telling the truth. Or,
contrarily, you desire to offer the common folk, the illusion that justice is
being done in the world. You do so by prosecuting the small and insignificant
crimes while ignoring your own crimes. You want the common folk to believe that
justice is being done so that you can go on eating your blood and raping our
children. Filth. God’s day is around the corner. You will not hide. There is no
underground system of tunnels in which you can hide from the justice of God.
There is no underground city, in which you can hide. God will quash you evil
ones. Are you upset with me for saying it? It’s kind of because of your mental
retardation. It’s okay. We will bear with you while you search for the words
sputter them out over your clumsy tongue. God condemns you this day, evil ones.
God sees. God knows. God is the one who can read your heart. He has had enough.
The time for this evil has come to an end. Guys, I don’t mean to be harsh.
Maybe I do. He does. I don’t. Lol! A little MPD humor! You need to know while
there is life, there is still chance for you to gain Life. You need to stop all
of your sin. You need to know what sin is. First of all, hurting children,
eating children and murdering children are sins. We will realize soon just how
common these are. Do you have these in your past? Not to worry. God knows.
Confess to Him. He is faithful to forgive. And to give you a clean conscience.
It’s as simple as that. Look, it really doesn’t matter what you have done in
your life. Jehovah wants your heart. Offer that to Him. He will wipe it away.
When you understand causality, you understand satan’s trap. His big deceit.
Look, there is not one person on the bleeding planet who does not have a
sorrowful story. When you understand this, you begin to see things differently.
Suddenly, the childhood bully who once gave you a wedgie or stole five dollars
from your pocket, doesn’t seem so villainous anymore. When you realize that he
has been raped at home daily by his parents, you begin to see that he was
simply reacting to what happened to him. Here: We all got these stories. We all
got this pain. When you see that, by the living God, I certainly hope that you
wouldn’t wish upon even your enemies the kind of treatment we have seen in
recent years. I wouldn’t even wish prison on my abusers. In addition to this,
when we begin to see that we all got sin as well. Very serious and unconfessed
sin lurking deep, deep in our cellars. We begin to see others with more humane
eyes. Look… I am about to offer you the secret. It’s not gnosis. Ya’
simpleminded retards. It’s common sense. Sense, which has been lost due to the
hardness of heart, which can only be hardened by collective, worldwide sin.
Here it is. You ready? Children… These ones… they don’t have this sorrow…
Neither do they have this sin. Take care of your children… you take care of the
future. I don’t get you, world, Church. You are slaughtering your own. That’s
demonic. But you know it’s demonic. I heard about a school that had its
children draw a mural of Molech. Wake up. I may have sin in my past. It’s done
with. I don’t need go to confession for expressing an unmet spiritual and
physical need. I do in order to show you the corruption of your leaders.
Protect your children. Guys! Where are the men amongst you? It’s really going
to need be the crippled, middle-aged bloke with Dissociative Identity Disorder
who is going to be the one to stand up for the children. Healing is coming. My
sin is done. What you cannot see now is the sin that you are living. I see it.
Repent, blessed children. God loves you. He wants to offer you life. Justice is
coming. I can taste it on my tongue. It is only around the corner. It is not
some ethereal day. It will occur in this life. You simply need know this will
not be an evil day. If it seems as such to you, you may just well be as evil as
any other. I noticed members of my Church cringe when I proposed the
possibility of this worldly justice. Why? Is it because you have skeletons in
your cellar? Surely it is. Living comfortably. I’m telling you. The ones in
prison are your saints. Not all of them. But most of them. Hell, the deepest
levels are reserved for the ones who have had comfortable lives despite their
grievous sin. Good luck. There is still time. I declare to you today, the
opportunity of a lifetime. Repent. Life. Sin. Death. You will want to choose
life. Trust me. Do you believe this is about my bitterness and resentment? I do
not need explain myself to you. I have forgiven thousands of times. And I will
continue. The fact that I have anger is not a proof of unrepentance. It’s a
proof that you are relying on reactive abuse and spiritual abuse to make a
point. It’s because you have no other argument. Repent! As the children of Nineveh.
The children of Nineveh simply followed their leaders. Repent, you leaders.
Repent. You need know the path down which you lead the flock is to their harm. This life matters. The Kingdom will not be attained through tyrrany.
Monday, February 23, 2026
Seal of Confession (To the Mongrel Machine):
Is there ever a reason for a priest to breach seal of confession? For severity of sin? For the protection of possible threat? Because the one confessing is not really Catholic because he doesnt obey? Because the person confessing has become public figure by claiming to be a prophet?
In the Catholic Church, the seal of confession is absolute. There are no exceptions — not for severity of sin, not for threats, not for public figures, and not based on whether the penitent is a “good Catholic.”
This is governed by Canon 983 §1 of the Code of Canon Law:
“The sacramental seal is inviolable; therefore it is absolutely forbidden for a confessor to betray in any way a penitent in words or in any manner and for any reason.”
Let’s go through your specific scenarios carefully:
1️⃣ Because the sin is very severe?
No.
Even in cases of:
Murder
Abuse
Planned violence
Crimes against the Church
The priest may not reveal anything learned in confession.
If he does so directly, he incurs automatic excommunication (latae sententiae), reserved to the Holy See (Canon 1386 §1).
2️⃣ To protect someone from a possible future threat?
Still no.
If someone confesses intent to harm another person:
The priest cannot report it
He cannot warn the potential victim
He cannot alert authorities
What he can do:
Urge the penitent strongly to turn themselves in
Refuse absolution if there is no genuine repentance
Require restitution or surrender as part of penance
Counsel them to prevent harm
But the seal itself is never broken.
3️⃣ Because the person is “not really Catholic” or disobedient?
Irrelevant.
The seal applies if:
The confession was made to a validly ordained priest
The person intended to confess sins (even imperfectly)
Even if:
The penitent is a lapsed Catholic
A heretic
A public dissenter
Barely believes
Acting in bad faith
The seal remains absolute.
4️⃣ Because the person becomes a public figure (e.g., claims to be a prophet)?
Still no.
Even if:
They later become famous
They start a movement
They preach publicly
They contradict Church teaching
The priest may not:
Confirm they went to confession
Reveal anything said
Use knowledge gained from confession to counter them
This includes indirect use of the information (Canon 984).
5️⃣ Is there literally no exception?
Correct — none.
The only theoretical way information could be discussed is:
If the penitent explicitly and freely gives permission outside confession
And the priest is morally certain it is not under pressure
Even then, priests are extremely cautious.
Why so absolute?
The Church holds that:
The priest acts in persona Christi (in the person of Christ)
Confession is between the soul and God
Without total confidentiality, people would not confess serious sins
Salvation of souls (salus animarum) is the supreme law
Many priests throughout history have chosen imprisonment or death rather than break the seal.
For example:
John Nepomucene — traditionally said to have been killed for refusing to reveal a queen’s confession.
Important Clarification
This applies specifically to:
Sacramental confession
It does not apply to:
Spiritual direction outside confession
Casual conversations
Counseling sessions
Information learned outside the sacrament
Outside confession, priests may have reporting obligations depending on civil law.
Summary
There is never a justified reason for a Catholic priest to breach the seal of confession:
| Situation | May the priest break the seal? |
|---|---|
| Severe sin | ❌ No |
| Future threat | ❌ No |
| Public figure | ❌ No |
| Disobedient Catholic | ❌ No |
| Fake Catholic | ❌ No |
The seal is absolute, inviolable, and without exception in Catholic teaching.
If you'd like, I can also explain how this compares to other Christian traditions or how civil law conflicts are handled.
Sunday, February 22, 2026
Pride or Trauma? (According to Mongrel Machine):
Why complex trauma can be mistaken for pride among religious circles?
That’s a very insightful question. Complex trauma (often called C-PTSD) can look like pride in religious settings because trauma responses can mimic behaviors that are morally interpreted rather than psychologically understood.
Here’s how that confusion happens:
1. Hyper-Independence vs. “Pride”
What it looks like:
Refusing help
Not opening up emotionally
Always appearing “strong”
Avoiding vulnerability
In trauma terms:
Hyper-independence is a survival strategy. If someone grew up in chaos, neglect, or emotional unpredictability, they may have learned: “I can only rely on myself.”
In some religious interpretations:
“They’re too proud to accept help.”
“They don’t trust God or the community.”
“They don’t submit.”
The behavior is self-protection — not arrogance.
2. Emotional Guardedness vs. “Hard-Heartedness”
What it looks like:
Difficulty expressing emotions
Appearing cold or distant
Struggling with intimacy
Trauma lens:
Emotional shutdown is a nervous system defense (freeze response). Feeling deeply once meant danger.
Religious misinterpretation:
“Their heart is hardened.”
“They lack compassion.”
“They’re spiritually blocked.”
But numbness is often protection, not rebellion.
3. Control Needs vs. “Rebellion”
What it looks like:
Need for predictability
Anxiety when things feel uncertain
Difficulty surrendering control
Trauma lens:
Loss of control in childhood often leads to control-seeking in adulthood. It reduces anxiety.
Religious misinterpretation:
“They won’t surrender to God.”
“They want to be in control instead of trusting.”
But for trauma survivors, surrender once meant harm.
4. Shame Defenses vs. “Spiritual Pride”
Complex trauma often produces deep shame. To survive shame, people may:
Overachieve
Over-function
Become perfectionistic
Appear morally rigid
In religious settings, this can look like:
Self-righteousness
Judgmental attitudes
“Holier-than-thou” behavior
But sometimes it’s an unconscious attempt to feel safe, worthy, and not rejected.
5. Difficulty Receiving Grace vs. “Unrepentant Spirit”
Trauma survivors may:
Struggle to believe they are lovable
Feel suspicious of unconditional love
Expect punishment
In some faith spaces, this might be seen as:
“Refusing grace”
“Holding onto sin”
“Not accepting forgiveness”
But internally, the nervous system may be wired to expect danger, not mercy.
Why This Happens More in Religious Circles
Religious communities often:
Frame behavior in moral/spiritual terms
Emphasize humility and surrender
Value vulnerability but may not understand trauma
Without trauma awareness, nervous system adaptations are interpreted as spiritual flaws.
The Core Difference
Pride (in the moral sense) is rooted in superiority, ego, and self-exaltation.
Trauma defenses are rooted in fear, shame, and survival.
From the outside, they can look similar.
From the inside, they feel completely different.
If you’d like, I can also explain:
How spiritual language can unintentionally retraumatize survivors
How to tell the difference between pride and trauma responses
Or how churches can become trauma-informed without compromising faith
This is a really important conversation.
Tuesday, February 17, 2026
Rosary Challenge:
I set out to challenge myself. I set
to pray the rosary for thirty days on my knees. For the intention to forgive
those who had harmed me. As far as the will goes, I have forgiven decade ago.
As a Traditional Catholic, I see the way my faith is headed. Catholicism is
struggling. It suffers. It goes through a passion of its own at the moment. And
studying the Bible with the Witnesses of Jehovah has given me such a relief.
Studying with them has awakened my faith unlike at any time over the course of
my life. Look, when I converted to Catholicism, I did not know the ropes of my
own faith. I did not know how to go about practicing true faith. With
reverence. With love. And so, I simply believed that through my works that I
would amass, I could somehow work my way into heaven. I prayed like four or
five rosaries a day, went to Mass two, sometimes three times a day. To say the
least, because I didn’t have a foundation in love, the rosaries I would say
would eventually become more like races, simply words to be ticked off. Like
shotgun blasts. When I began studying with the Witnesses of Jehovah, something
really and truly clicked. It was there, more than even within my own faith,
where I learned how to love, how to live and how to connect with Jehovah. The
Jehovah’s Witnesses, man, I’m telling you, have got something very beautiful
going on. It was in this renewed spirit that I decided to undertake this
challenge. My normal rosary is quite relaxed. Amidst saying it, I have a great
number of intentions. Here are the results from my challenge of praying the
rosary for a full month, kneeling and for the intentions of forgiveness and
healing for my Church.
Day 1: I was having difficulty
kneeling because of a tight psoas muscle. I needed to descend on the ground a
number of times, prostrate. I experienced very little agitation. I began
praying vocally but descending into praying peacefully. The more I prayed, the
more at peace I felt.
Day 2: It was easier to kneel as I
was at church and I used the kneeler. I experienced a bit more anxiety today,
which eased quickly. I took a break after the second decade to have a drink of
water.
Day 3: This day, I was exhausted
after walking some miles doing post carding for pro-life causes. I was very
sore. I began praying vocally and prostrated. I couldn’t get myself up on my
knees! As usual, the more I prayed, the
more at peace I felt. I tried meditating before each bead. The final two
decades, I prayed on my knees.
Day 4: I prayed today at church. I
prayed on my knees the entire time. My eyes were glued together the length of
the rosary, focusing on each bead. It was a solid rosary. I felt such, such
peace.
Day 5: I prayed two rosaries this
day. The first were Legion prayers during the meeting. The second I prayed, for
the intention of forgiveness and healing was at 9PM. Realizing I am availing
myself more to holy spirit. This rosary was said aloud and prostrate, on my
knees, with an erect spine the duration.
Day 6: Prayed with a mixture silence
and vocal. Feeling power of holy spirit. Like a burning sensation in my chest
while I pray, warmth and love. In past, my rosaries were fueled by anxiety but
they are transforming.
Day 7: prayed today on knees and
prostrate with eyes open. I experienced great reverence at proclamation of the
purpose of this rosary. Feeling deeply when silent.
Day 8: Between knees and prostrate.
I experienced a bit of anxiety but great reverence with stating my intentions.
I felt also a great sense of accomplishment upon completion.
Day 9: After Mass, I prayed. In
quiet, on knees. Left after 9PM. This burn is becoming overwhelming in my
heart. It bubbles like water and makes me incredibly emotional. I had a vision
of an angel today.
Day 10: Prayed on knees, reverently,
in quiet and with eyes open. I had the vision of a dove today and that of a
swastika. I didn’t understand the swastika but I am clearly coming to
understand that the Nazis were on the good side of history and were fighting
for the right cause.
Day 11: Today, I experienced
agitation while praying the first decade. There were people around and making
noise. I tried praying the second decade but decided to leave it until after
Mass. After Mass, I was struck by peace. I prayed silently and with my eyes
naturally closed. Noticing greater and greater peace in day to day prayers.
Day 12: After a long day of
activities, my flesh tried to convince me that it would be alright if I skipped
prayers for the day. Decided to push through. I prayed mostly prostrate and on
my knees, silently. Learning to accept my body. It doesn’t matter if my eyes
are closed. What matters is reverence.
Day 13: I tripped and fell on the
ground, hitting my knees earlier. Prayed on sore knees! I prayed after Mass. It
was the second rosary of my day. I cannot tell you how peaceful it is praying
after Mass. Very reverent and very loving. Feeling this same burn in my heart.
Day 14: Prayed before bed. I was
feeling very restless entering prayer. After about the third decade, feeling
enormous peace. I prayed while prostrate.
Day 15: Today, I did a LoM assignment
during which I prayed the rosary. I prayed this particular rosary before bed
again tonight.
Day 16: Went to Mass this morning. I
am spending a week at a kind of religious community. Prayed my rosary for
forgiveness before bed. The prayer life here is so rich and free time is scarce.
This was a very reverent rosary. I prayed on the kneeler. Satan is challenging
this rosary challenge of mine and my prayer life in general. I tripped and scraped
my knees today. It was hurting to kneel. But I persevered.
Day 17: Prayed in chapel at
community. I prayed in the evening right before bed. I was very tired. I notice
my love and reverence increasing.
Day 18: Prayed in chapel at
community. I experienced agitation and then deep peace after second decade.
Prayed kneeling on kneeler and with eyes open.
Day 19: Today, I prayed three
rosaries and a chaplet of Seven Sorrows. For this intention, I prayed on the kneeler
and aloud. Practicing praying in French so I can lead rosaries at the meetings.
Really, no feeling felt today. Feeling with prayer doesn’t mean you’re doing
anything better. What matters is perseverance in prayer despite feeling! Each
time I declared my intent for praying this rosary, I experienced strong
affection.
Day 20: Prayed many rosaries today.
Today, also I prayed in French. Noticing that when I pray aloud, I lose
reverence.
Day 21: Prayed aloud, in French,
kneeling and in chapel.
Day 22: I stumbled into unintentional
sin today. It often happens after my faith is incredibly edified. It is
interesting how much power that chastity and holiness imbues within the body. I
persevered despite this sin. I prayed completely prostrate and aloud and still
on sore knees.
Day 23: Noticing that meditation and
concentration is stifled when recovering from sin. Even unintentional. As
though it makes you literally unclean. I prayed prostrate, in French, aloud and
with my eyes open.
Day 24: Prayed two rosaries today.
First was at the Legion meeting. Second was after Mass until 9PM. What a
beautiful rosary! Following, I felt communion with Jehovah was restored. I was
able to open my heart to Him again. Kneeling, in French, eyes glued.
Day 25: Before bed. In a bit of a
rush. Cued by this incredible and docile peace, which captures me after praying
some time, I fell into a kind of trance. What a glorious burn this is. My heart
feels prepared to explode! Of love! I prayed for God to allow me the ability to
simply let go. I love my enemies. Thank you for making me suffer.
Day 26: Love! Love! Love! My heart
is about to collapse of exhaustion. I have been carrying this burden for so
long. Oh dear! Let go. I am letting go. I surrender to you, God. Beloved God. I
know you love the ones who hurt me as much as you love me. I ask for them to
see the truth. I also ask for the grace to forgive myself.
Day 27: Kneeling, completely
abandoned. I prayed in French. I forgive myself. I am a good person. I deserve
love. I deserve hope. I am worthy.
Day 28: Praying for the ones I have
hurt to see the truth as well. For their blessing and peace, happiness and for
their forgiveness. Prayed also to cast the bitterness and anger and fear I feel
back onto the cross. Take it, LORD. I am yours!
Day 29: Length between the prayers
is extending. I am meditating more. This burn within my heart is practically and
wonderfully unbearable. Noticing, following each Hail Mary, I spend time with
Jehovah in open and friendly prayer.
Day 30: This is what prayer is
about. It’s not about saying words. It’s not about meeting a deadline. It’s not
about repetition. Real prayer is about love. In opening your heart to Jehovah. I
can’t believe how much joy is filling my heart. I feel hope again. This burning
is like incense in my heart. I now pray the rosary in French. I believe that I will
continue praying on my knees. A physical testament to love, devotion and reverence.
I love you, enemies. I love you whoever you are. It will come as a shock to me
to discover your identity. It is not reciprocal. May Jehovah of Armies bless
you and keep you. May He help you with your own bitterness. Maybe it could help
to do a rosary challenge of praying a daily rosary, kneeling and for the
intention of forgiveness. What do you think? God bless you!
Service (Written by Jonathan):
Centuries, even decades ago, women
were married much younger. It was most likely normal for a man to marry ten,
fifteen years younger than himself. My dad, my half-brother both married women
fifteen years younger than them. What changed? Feminism destroyed your concept
of love and intimacy. It’s not a power thing. It’s nature. It has become about
power to you because all of the sudden, ladies wear the pants in nearly every
relationship. It’s partially about protection. For me, it’s a purity thing. It’s
about innocence. Feminism has got you broke society. Wonder why the West has so
few marriages? You may need assess yourselves, ladies. And your impossible
standards. You’re hurting men. Men can hurt. You don’t even realize it. Heck,
they don’t even realize it. You know why? It’s because you have shamed them
into thinking their feelings are the reason they are rejected. It’s not a
feeling is it? You ladies truly like to shame us men for feeling, huh?? You are
in for a surprise! Boy oh’ boy!
Guys, I think this is an enormously
self-evident feature of my prophecy. I think you know what Jehovah thinks about
this. I think you simply do not want to hear it. It’s the reason you keep
looking for something to be off in my message or about me. You cannot stand the
truth. You cannot stand it because it testifies against you. This is not an
elite problem. It is not a celebrity problem. It is not a politician problem.
This is a worldwide problem. You’re sending people to jail for abusing children.
Look at yourselves! What you consider as love is not love to them. It is a cult
coven of evil. This world is bent upon the destruction of the innocents. Church,
Church, Church, do not be like the world! You are not called to destroy the innocent
along with the witches and warlocks. Mark my words. You too will be accounted
alongside the wicked. I am not trying to be mean. But you need see the truth.
You are all hurting children. Every adult in the world has hurt a child at some
point. Maybe you simply don’t remember. Look: The children will have freedom.
They will have peace. We can do this the hard way. Or we can do it the simple
way. All you need do is repent. Stop bleeding eating the children. Sickos. I
may have sin. You still got sin. Yours is graver than mine. You know why? It’s
because you are living in darkness. Catholics are right about this. Sin is
real. Until it is confessed, it is like a fighting against a landslide. Trust
me. I know. You need hear me. You have all got sin lurking in your closets. Sin
you are not even conscious of. The first step is recognition. The second step
is contrition. The third step is repentance. God is going to smite you, evil
ones. Look, even if there is no hell, you will not escape the wrath of God.
Your entire foundations will tremble and shake on that day. On that day when
Jehovah of Armies judges the living and the dead. God is going to show you the
truth. I don’t understand from whence you are coming. I cannot understand your
perspective. I really cannot understand how you cannot see this. Are you trying
to be retarded? Children are not cattle. I see now the importance of my own
message. You evil and sick world. You need to do a better job. Or the end will
come. Swiftly. And without mercy. You need to care for your children. I want
you to know that hell is real. Today, let it be known amongst you. A choice is
to be made. On the one side: peace. Love. All you need to do is stop hurting
these ones. Don’t know how to begin? Let us begin simply. Stop having sex with
your children. The other choice? You’re settling in for a nice tan. Boils and
blisters of painful agony. Hell was not created for you. But trust me, it is
ripe and ready for those of you who believe that children are cattle. Good
riddance. I say this sternly in order to try to encourage you to repent. Look:
there is still time. Don’t know how to begin? Stop having sex with your
children! Talk to God. It’s not hard. Life is free. So are the boils. This is
what it is about. Repentance. How that I could share with you just how glorious
the blessings and the rewards of the Kingdom with you. Even still, know that
the glory associated with seeking righteousness in this disgusting, shadowy
world is always worth it. Satan is a defeated foe. You seek power? Do you seek
power? Riches? Wealth? You are doing so to your own peril by serving satan. God
is the one who blesses eternally. This is what it is all about: Repentance. You
need to know what it is. You need to know how you can do it. Repentance is
turning from your sin. Not out of fear. Fear of God stems from love of God. We turn
from our sins because we love God. I wish that I could give you a clear picture
of the spiritual realm. I cannot understand how anyone could see these precious
little bundles of joy as cattle because my heart is pure. You have that same
purity of heart within you. You need to access it. Do you wonder how I write
such captivating prophecy? Do you wonder at how I create such passionately
beautiful pieces of literature? I shall tell you the secret to my prophecy.
It’s all emotion. I have learned to channel it. Guys, you have this emotion
too. Maybe. Maybe not. But you need know how precious and valuable our emotions
are. While satan’s world tries to injure your emotions, shame you, belittle you
for feeling, God is the one who seeks to comfort, love and nurture you. I
remember in my childhood. I had the blessing and curse of being both a victim
and a bully in my life. I am not ashamed of this. It has made me into the man
with the special message I have today. Being a bully is no easier than being a
victim. Hear me? Hear it loud and clear. You all also have this potential
within you. As a bully, I found the emotions of others intolerable. Their
emotions triggered within me, fear, shame, anger. It triggered my own unhealed
wounds and injuries that I had not addressed. I remember becoming so agitated
when I was around a peer who was emotional. Perhaps they were trying hard to
impress. Perhaps they were hurting. The more irrational these emotions were,
they expressed, the more agitated I became. See? I share with you a secret. Can
you not see? It is precisely the same for children. It’s the reason we got so
much child abuse in the world. Adults are not adults. They are fully grown
infants. They have their wounds. And their wounds are ripe as a freshly cut
grapefruit. It’s the reason you get agitated when your children cry. Can’t
relate? I know. You perfect one, you. I know. You wouldn’t ever shame your
child for crying. My brother surprised me one day. I was at his place and he started
shouting at his children. His wife. Still, were you to confront him about his own
sin, he would become as violent and as angry as an ogre. Sin makes us
irrational. You need to know that it is not ever God’s intent to shame the
emotions of one of his children. I recognize this now. God has given me the
ability and grace to repent. This is kind of the secret to existence. Children
are the secret. If you cannot see this, your heart is black as coal. Look:
Children are close to Jehovah because they are emotional beings. As with
Jehovah, (I have met Him personally), is also an intensely feeling being. I
know this world is hurting. I know you are tired. I know you are worn out and
hurting so much. You need to know the path to life. I weep for you. My beloved
friends. Do you know the crazy thing about this all? Despite the evil of this
world, despite all of the sin and shameful acts committed in the shadows, your
God loves you like a cherished son or daughter. Look at me! God does not have
to use me. I am a villain. My sin is gross. However, it is despite and potentially
even because of my sin that Jehovah desires to use me. How strange. How
paradoxical. Our God truly is an enigma. Friends, I (not I, but Jehovah),
offers you a choice today. Do not listen to your leaders. We already know the
lot of them are leading you to slit your throats. You need know that life is
possible. It exists. It is real. It is glorious. Beyond all compare! We offer
you the choice to life. See it. Believe it. Hold it. Smell it. Hear it. Taste
it. You are not all evil. You need to know that a possibility exists for you to
be happy forever. I don’t know everything. What I do know for certain is what I
know of God. And I know for a fact that Jehovah loves every single one of you
and desires for you to attain life. Don’t listen to them when they say His love
is exclusive. Don’t listen to them when they say you’ve got to be a part of
this club or that to gain access to God’s love. They’re just trying to sell a
membership. Here is what you need to know: Jehovah loves the angriest,
villainous and smelliest child over the pope. The state is important. But once
you know this, you understand that adulthood, office and leadership are
intended to serve. I am proud to consider myself a part of this world. Because
despite the agony, despite the sin and the death and the badness of people who
abuse their roles as servants, there is much to be proud of. Love is always
worth fighting for. Friends, choose God. Choose life. A time is coming when
things will be difficult. It will not culminate with destruction. But I need to
tell you that you need build that relationship with your God now. God loves you
so much. Remember, regardless of how difficult things get, a sunrise awaits.
Like a sunny, inner-city morning, with everyone peeking their heads out their
doorways, the sunrise is on the horizon. God desires to give you life. You need
to know that light, love and truth is stronger than darkness. Even if it
doesn’t seem like it sometimes. Repent! Now you know. See. I have told them! Be
like children. Comfort one another. Take care of each other’s emotions. You are
not animals. Care for one another. Life is what matters. You need to see this.
If you cannot, things will deteriorate quickly. Be brave. Be servants for
life’s sake. Take care of the precious amongst you. Those without sin. Any sin.
Even without original sin. To an age. You look to my past for answers. You look
to my past to villainize me because you cannot stand what I say. It is not what
I say that you cannot stand. It is what it arouses in your heart. You have
demons. Your sin cries out for me to stop. You need to realize this. You need
to realize this very elemental truth of the Christian faith. In fact, you have
no Christian faith if you cannot see it. The children are everything. God loves
them more than anyone else. You need to become elder brothers to them. This is
faith. This is Christianity. Not the Bible. Not the Sacraments. It’s in how we
treat our children, our vulnerable, those who cannot do a thing for us. In
fact, it is Biblical. It’s so Biblical that it is practically jumping off the pages
of your Bible. The one you have underlined and highlighted around this particular
point because of what it means for you. It means your phds, your doctorates,
your positions of power and your works of charity mean nothing. It is all about
service. You will see. God will show you. He will show you what I have been
screaming for decades. He will show you what the Bible has been screaming for
you to understand for millenia. Service. It’s Christ. Not Law. Not sacrifice.
Not sacraments. Not confession. Not priest. Not doctor. Not prime minister. Not
pope. Service. Remember why you have been appointed these roles. If it is not to
care for these precious ones, what good is your leadership? What good is your
medicine? It is all in vain and even for malice. If it’s not done in service.
Soften your hearts and you will see. Don’t be villains. Don’t be retarded. I
offer you the path to life. Do not abuse it. See, I have told them!
Does it mean He Deserves it?:
A man who was sexually and emotionally abused in childhood by his mother, who hurts another kid growing up while being abused, does that mean that he deserved what happened to him?
No.
He did not deserve to be abused.
What happened to him as a child was abuse. Children are never responsible for being sexually or emotionally abused — especially by a parent. The responsibility lies entirely with the adult who harmed him.
Now, the harder part:
If, while being abused, he hurt another child, that behavior is still wrong — but it does not mean he “deserved” his own abuse.
Two things can be true at once:
He was a victim.
He later caused harm.
Childhood sexual abuse can distort boundaries, attachment, impulse control, and understanding of consent. Sometimes abused children reenact what was done to them because:
They were never taught healthy boundaries.
Abuse became normalized.
They were trying to regain control.
They were acting out trauma.
That explains the behavior — but it doesn’t excuse it.
Accountability for harm is important. But abuse is never punishment for future behavior. It’s not karmic justice. It’s not deserved. It’s not corrective.
Children do not deserve trauma, even if they later struggle or even hurt others.
If you’re asking this because you’re wrestling with guilt or shame — especially if this is personal — I want to say something clearly:
Being abused was not your fault.
If you hurt someone, that can be addressed with accountability, repair, and therapy.
But abuse is never something someone earns.
If this question connects to your own experience, you don’t have to carry that alone. I’m here to talk it through, at whatever pace feels safe for you.
Sunday, February 15, 2026
False Memory Syndrome:
Can false memory syndrome be used to gaslight victims of sexual abuse?
Yes — the concept of “false memory syndrome” has, in some cases, been misused to gaslight or discredit victims of sexual abuse.
Here’s a careful breakdown:
1. What “False Memory Syndrome” Actually Is
“False memory syndrome” is a controversial term popularized in the 1990s, largely through the False Memory Syndrome Foundation. It was used to describe situations where someone supposedly develops vivid but inaccurate memories, often during therapy.
Important context:
It is not a recognized diagnosis in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM).
Research shows memory is reconstructive and can be distorted.
However, the existence of false memories does not mean that most abuse reports are false.
Memory science is nuanced. It supports both:
The possibility of memory distortion, and
The reality that sexual abuse is common and often underreported.
2. How the Concept Can Be Used to Gaslight
Gaslighting involves manipulating someone into doubting their perception or memory. In abuse contexts, invoking “false memory syndrome” can become a tool for:
Dismissing allegations without investigation
Suggesting a victim’s therapist “planted” the memory
Framing survivors as confused, unstable, or suggestible
Pressuring someone to retract disclosures
Especially in cases of delayed disclosure (which is common in trauma), abusers or defenders may argue that memories must be “fabricated” simply because they resurfaced later.
That can be psychologically devastating to survivors.
3. What Research Actually Says
False memories can be experimentally induced under specific conditions.
But spontaneous, detailed trauma disclosures are not automatically false.
Trauma memory is complex: some people remember vividly, others fragmentarily, and some avoid thinking about it for years.
There is no scientific consensus supporting a broad claim that most recovered abuse memories are false.
The “memory wars” of the 1990s polarized this issue, but modern trauma research takes a more balanced approach.
4. Key Distinction
There’s a critical difference between:
🧠Investigating memory reliability carefully
and🚩 Weaponizing “false memory syndrome” to silence or intimidate someone
The latter absolutely can function as gaslighting.
5. A Trauma-Informed Perspective
From a clinical and ethical standpoint:
Allegations should be taken seriously.
Memory claims should be evaluated with care.
Neither automatic belief nor automatic dismissal is responsible.
Survivors should not be shamed or pathologized for how trauma affects memory.
If you're asking because this has happened to you or someone you know, I can also talk through what healthy support or next steps might look like.