Truth = Justice:

Friends, yet again, it was never Jehovah’s desire for me to forgive in this way. After a time, yes. But Jehovah desired for me to have justice. Again, you miss one thing for my kingdom to be a reality. You miss truth. You are ignoring how long this endured and many other factors, which contribute to the severity of what happened to me. You miss more than this. You also miss, perhaps maliciously, to recognize the fact that injuries can hurt people. You, in your tough guy Carl Weathers bravado, refuse to allow people the space to grieve. God forbid, a suffering king should come along. You won’t have that, will you? Because you are not suffering. You’re better than that. Wait. Suffering king? It sounds familiar doesn’t it? I can’t think from whence I recognize this concept. Of a suffering king. Please… please, tell me if you figure it out before me. Look: Jehovah wanted me to tell my truth for a number of reasons. 1: To give me the chance to heal. While this truth is obscured, I cannot heal. 2: my abusers needed to be confronted with their behavior so that they could be given a chance at repentance. 3: For what it means for the world. Had I have told when I was a toddler, what do you think would have happened? Retards. Sorry… I needed to let loose there. Would they have accosted me and projected on me. Saying stuff like “sure I raped you… but you spat milk in my face… you must have deserved it!” They would have been tried, sentenced and booked. You know it’s true. It’s the reason I was meant to die after Iceland. God, you see, was trying to protect me. He kind of knew the business of this world. He knew what your leaders would do. He knew my weakness. Because truth had not come out, I am stuck with these emotions. Jehovah wanted to use my story as a stepping stone for introducing justice to this world. His justice. Carried out by humans. Are you unable to discern this? Wise ones. Again, God knew the risks when He asked me to endure it. You are simply being bullies by suggesting that I need to prove myself, my faith or toughen up. You need ask yourself, who is this penance for? Is it for me? For my salvation? Or is it for anyone else? If it’s for anyone else, this is not penance. It’s kind of vengeance. Spiritual, intellectual, emotional and physical vengeance. No? Jehovah wanted me to die happy. Are your leaders instructing you otherwise? Your leaders are bullies. They see an easy catch with the wisdom I wrote about years ago and did not save. They want it. They are prepared to kill me for it. Laity, you are sheep. It’s not a bad thing. If you want my honest perspective, it’s the most beautiful thing in the world. Dependence. Just be mindful of who you are dependant upon. I warn you. Develop a relationship with your God. This will endure. Dependence upon your leaders will fail. 50% of the time. 50% is a big wager to make on your salvation. I encourage you to follow Christ where he follows Jehovah. God will show you. If it is His will I suffer for you, it will not be a punishment. It will be so the world can have an Era of Peace. Yes, even an era of Mary. They can say they are trying to toughen me up, ask me to prove my faith all they want. It’s because they cannot tolerate a weak leader. It’s because they are blind spiritually. Would I had died after Iceland, I would have been raised to life within a decade following. It’s their human nature. They cannot really help it. They smell blood. Really, it’s about their sin. Their corruption. That’s it. If I need to, God will give me the grace to endure it. But know, it has nothing to do with me.