Message of Hope:

I bring you great news. I bring you great news from the heart of your Father. From the heart of Jehovah. Be ye still. Be ye firm. Know that your rescuer comes. Like a swooping eagle, he descends upon the earth. Know that now, according to the prophets is a time of great excitement. There is much joy among the angels today in heaven. They rejoice now even louder than before. For the time of fulfillment comes to fruition. The time of magnitude and culmination of creation. Truly, the entire universe has been waiting in trepidation for this moment. The world has been groaning as with growing pangs for this very moment. True, sin is greater now than even in the time of Noah! I bring you great news, my friends. Where sin lurks, grace abounds even more! The angels rejoice in heaven at every saved soul that harkens to the cry of God. The question is, amidst this sin and shame, will you harken to His cry? He awaits your answer. The one who crafted you in your mother’s womb, the one who knows intimately each sun and star and moon and galaxy in the universe is also the one who knows intimately every hair on your head. Be brave, dear friends. Be bold. Difficult times lurk at the door for the true flock. I admonish you, Christ not I, do not follow the ways of this world. For times shall come, when the popular church will deviate and teach a counterfeit message. This message that will be taught, following the popular and the modern, will stand in the face of the true message. Know that Jehovah’s true flock, His little sheep, will heed His voice. The voice of the true Shepherd. Know that He will gather you into His embrace, as a mother hen, gathers her chicks into her torso, warming them, caring for them. Protecting them. Know that regardless of how difficult things become in this world, if you stay faith and are brave and maintain your faith, you will live to see the true blessings of God. These blessings He has in store for us are truly beyond our wildest comprehension. No human imagination can fathom the depths of the riches and blessings that He has prepared for us. You, at this time, my dear flock, need to work on building a fortress within yourself. I am hard. I am strict. I try to justify it. Perhaps it’s a quality many have lacked in their formations these days. For what is love, without discipline? Know that I am prepared, even in the state I am in, to be crushed by your envious leaders for these children. Afterwards, the time for the real men to shepherd will arise. I would not be a responsible shepherd if I were to tell you that things are going to be well. You need build your faith, friends. Merited, the restoration that will come shall be a little heaven. It shall be more glorious than any era of mankind since the dawning of creation. Hold this hope. Know that even if things become difficult, after a while, after some time, you will be rewarded. Your faiths shall be rewarded. I need you to know that I am learning what it is to love. Love is worth fighting for. Friends, you are a beautiful people. Church, my beautiful Church. I do not speak to the Catholics, the Witnesses, the Baptists, I do not speak to any particular grouping. I speak to you who believe in love. I speak to you who are truly dependant upon your Heavenly Father. You will receive the encouragement and blessing and reward for your faith that you need. You may not need it. Some will. You will see Jehovah like a lion defending the innocent and righteous. You will see Him literally take His stance at your side. World, my other flock, know that help comes. You have been fed lies since the dawning of creation to keep you in line. Know that there will soon be healing. You will soon be liberated from these lies and methods of enslavement. You will soon be free. Free and in control of your own destiny. It will sting. After the sting, healing will set in like a balm from Jehovah. If Jesus can heal leprosy, He can heal any kind of sin that you have hidden in your consciousnesses. Be bold. Be strong. Be courageous. In that day, all the world will be brought to its knees. You will see your reality before God. You may approach this thought with complacency at this time. Know you will not have a choice. You will be brought low. Because for a brief moment in time, you will view the world, and everything in it, with pure love. You will see your actions, words and inactions and thoughts through the eyes of God. It will be a great pain for some. Some will die. Be bold. Be courageous. Know that Jehovah’s justice is perfect. The evil garbage, to you Jehovah says, you who are powerful in this world, let your knees tremble and let your faces aghast in horror. For what is prepared for you is worse than what has been prepared for the cities of Sodom and Gommorah. You evil, wicked monsters. Who instructed you to flee from the wrath that comes? In the day of judgement, even your baptisms will not bear weight. Jehovah sees the hidden parts of your hearts. He shall expose them. And in your humiliation, you shall tremble and bow to your true King. You sure are very powerful people. Before Jehovah, your power is laughable. I speak to no man personally. Your hearts will be your judges. But I offer you great hope. There is still time! Be humbled. Be prostrate. Be children. For with your worldly power that you wield so carelessly now you will be held to great accountability. It’s not too late. Repent! Use your power to help the children. The vulnerables. You have hope now. For Jehovah Himself has descended to the earth to tell you to repent. For the time of true judgement is set. You shall all be judged by your works. Here is the great thing! It truly does not matter what you have done in your lives. With Jehovah, now is the chance to be made completely new. Listen: Our hearts, our inner children, our spirits, guide our path and Jehovah guides our steps. We can change our path if we want to. Let us build friendship with Him today, friends. For then, nothing will be able to come against us. It is a choice that we shall all need make. Know this: regardless of the choice we make, this judgement comes. Be warned. Very soon, you will see your sins. You will see your shame. Stuff you cannot remember. Be strong. Be courageous. It will sting. As with leprosy, sin covers us. Every single one of us. Even your pope. Even in his vocation. But, remember Jesus has the capacity to not only heal our leprosy and sin. He has the capacity to restore anything that was lost because of it. Be bold, faithful. True help… True encouragement and justice comes. It waits at the door. But you need do your part. Repent. Begin by taking twenty minutes of the day. Read the Bible. Reflect on what you read. Build on that. Your King comes soon. Be bolstered. Be warned.

The Healing that Comes!

1 Co. 4:3-5: For I am not conscious to myself of anything: yet am I not hereby justified, but He that judges me is the Lord. Therefore judge not before the time, until the Lord come: Who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise from God.

This is the issue. It has literally always been the issue. Affecting the earth. It’s the reason you are all lost in your pain. This world, our culture is hurting, friends. I am hard on you. I know your potential. I know the potential of this world. Look, my sin is grievous. I am a terrible person. What you need to know is that God declares me righteous. You need to know that this same grace is accessible for you. Jehovah desires you to have it. This poor world, friends. You have all been through so very much. This is the issue: people shaming people. You cannot even tolerate hearing me talk about it. Because of what it invokes in you. You cannot listen to me speak about shame. I wrote a beautiful piece about it. You cannot read it because of what it inspires in you. It brings you back to your childhood. Healing comes. Like a swooping eagle. I am sure you have noticed – it is no secret – that my tone with which I speak to you has intensified over the past couple of years. My friends, there is a sense of urgency I am feeling. As time is growing short. God’s judgement approaches quickly. I want to prepare you. I see this world for what it could be. It is so difficult for me to watch as your leaders sell you out, leading you like sheep to the slaughter. This is what it’s about. I know my sin is grievous. Here’s the thing: It does not belong to me. Psychology is not heresy. Some of it may be. But where there is common sense, all you need do is open your eyes. And your heart. Sure, without compassion, without seeing the human being as a living and breathing creature with feelings and the capacity to be hurt and injured, psychology seems simply science. Cold, hard, dead science. Seen with a heart, are human beings. Not robots. And any theology, which ignores it might as well be from a science textbook as well. So, Christians, do you believe that I am proclaiming some vastly foreign truth to gospel by stating that children deserve care? Well, in terms of theology, the satanists are more advanced than you. You can trust that they know. It’s the reason they attack them. Here’s the point: God changes you. From the inside out. I cannot explain it myself. You know it’s true. I say this with sensitivity: Who can accuse me of sin for the past five or six years? I say it with sensitivity because I recognize your bitterness is still very active against me. Here’s the thing: I can’t help being hardened. It’s how I was raised. But in terms of sin, my conscience is clear. What you believe me to be sinning, is feelings. Nothing more than feelings. Here’s the thing: When you are changed from the inside out, you no longer desire to shame others. This is the issue: parents shaming children, teachers shaming children, employers shaming adult children. This is deeper. It’s the reason our culture is so decidedly wounded. It’s the reason we have developed stolkhome (I don’t have a clue how to spell that) syndrome regarding the cultures that desire to conquer us. It is written in the end, things will get worse and worse. This is not reason to slit our throats. Crazy white people holding a loaded gun to their heads. That my sins have been revealed, is a blessing of sorts. I have been given the chance to heal that. When the great awakening happens, many, many of the world’s secret sins shall be revealed as well. This will happen when my truth is revealed. I do not say this as a condemnation. The Church’s sins will be revealed as well. Before I began to remember what happened to me, it’s as though my consciousness was in a little bubble. It was protecting me. Even when I remembered the sins commit against me, for many years, I also did not remember how I sinned myself. God reveals these memories as He will, in His time. Here’s the point: it doesn’t matter how morally right we believe we are to be with God. We all have secret sins hidden deeply and tucked away in the recesses of our consciousness. Even the pope. Even priests. It’s true. And it’s coming. Again, this is not a condemnation. I would never be proud enough and bold enough to state that I am able to discern the state of grace of another man. We see the sin. But we never see what caused it. We never see the culpability. Well, soon we will. I cannot tell you how glorious it is to have Jehovah use my story as catalyst for justice upon the earth. The only way to survive this day – this you may take as a warning – is to develop a friendship with your God. It’s coming for you too. This mother abuse is a thing, which affects all of us. To varying degrees. That we have placed the mother on a pedestal does not help much. It only silences victims, further repressing our pain, further perpetuating this terrible and heinous cycle.

When I say that we need to heal our inner children, what do you hear? Do you hear that we need to dance around a fire with tamborines and smoke weed? Maybe I gave the wrong impression. The spirit does exist. It really does. It’s what makes the human so valuable. When I mention the inner child, I am talking about the spirit. Everybody, in life, has a spirit attached to themselves. A higher self. A sense of reality. Call it conscience. It’s the reason the Bible says the angels of all children see the Father. You are opposing me. I don’t know why. I am only telling you what I have experienced. Am I not speaking sense? Common sense? When we heal this spirit, we can be freed of the passions and desires of our world. I know. Some teacher am I, huh? I do not practice what I preach. I am telling you: it is precisely because of what I teach that I am so hurt. The entire world has experienced this shaming to some degree. Me? I am an eagle amongst sparrows. I am not trumping trauma. It’s simply true. Children deserve better. Do you not agree? Children deserve safety, love, peace and joy. The Bible made a point of emphasizing that Moses was weened and comforted for three months for a reason. It was not accident. Do not butcher your children. Here: If the spirit is real. If every creature is endowed with a spirit, life begins at conception. Don’t let the witches and warlocks convince you to ravage your children. You will stand accountable for it. And it won’t be God who testifies against you. I have been preaching this inner child for decades. You oppose me because you are clutching onto your power. You are envious to the bleeding nail. This also is the reason for their little plan. It’s not you. It’s satan. Satan is still trying to shame my emotions. This is reactive abuse. It’s like punching a kid in class in the back of his head twenty times and saying, “Aha!” when he gets aggravated. You know I have a right to be angry. You cannot tolerate that. Because my story confounds your power. You know that when truth comes out, every claim to power that most people have these days, crumbles to pieces. Watch them closely. This is not about the good of the world or of the church for them. They literally lead you by the hands into suicide. Wake up. Can you not see the division and terror they are sowing? It’s really about shaming me to clutch their positions. If they had your best interest in heart, they would not compromise with communism, an ideology, which seeks to eat you up. All of you. If they had your best interest at heart, they would not import your suicide, leaving you broke, hungry and destitute on the street while giving all of your resources to foreign aliens. This is what it’s about: The emotions. Safeguard your emotions. Treat your children well. Is this heresy? You’re a villain! And they will see it. You have got demons. It’s the reason you hate me. You don’t hate me. Part of you knows I tell the truth. You hate God in me. You are enemies of God. It’s the reason you can’t stand me going to church or speaking about God. Heal yourself! Get the demons out ya’, boy.

The Bible says a lot about emotions. Repressed and unhealed emotions can stumble people to sin. It is not difficult to see, through human eyes, that when a child is abused their entire lives, they will be more apt to sin in a sexual way. They will need healing in this regard. It’s the reason they struggle with masturbation and nocturnal emission despite their great efforts to remain chaste. It’s kind of what they need for their healing. The Bible acts like any instructional manual. Still, there are things that it omits. It does give us an effective route through which to express our emotions. We can do so by meekly acknowledging them, addressing them and communicating respectfully, while listening respectfully to the other. Is this always possible? One thing that the Bible does not instruct us in is regarding diabolic narcissism. If there is one thing that satan hates, it is the free expression of emotions. Because our emotions, particularly the emotions of the child testify against us. They tell us that how we are treating it is against conscience. It is deeper. Satan hates emotions because God the Father, Jehovah, is an emotional being. I can attest to this as I have met Him personally. Does your PhD’s teach you otherwise? The wisdom of the world… The mark of the divine is vulnerability. This is what sets children and animals apart as holy. Holier than your pope. Jehovah is like a child. In fact, in paradise, in perfection, we will be like children. Since satan hates Jehovah, he attacks the children on earth. Is it because of their original sin? You hard-hearted son of a bitch. I suppose victim blaming even has its place in the Church. I assure you, as one who speaks to Jehovah, the child is the most prized, the most prominent and the most cherished in the paradise. This is kind of what sets me apart, my suffering apart as sanctified to God. It’s the reason I am so special. I don’t know what to tell you. If you believe you can love Jehovah and not not just love children but do everything in your power to protect and defend them, you are a cold-hearted son of a bitch not thinking things through well. Jehovah, His very essence and being, is intertwined with childhood. If you cannot see it, you might as well be playing on the enemy’s team. He's got you. Life is all that matters. It’s worth defending. Don’t lose heart, Christians. You’re being stumbled. I came late. Yes. It’s true. But the time for blaming your lethargy and apathy on me is over. I will be your pillar. Just recognize that Jehovah is a child. He is not your pope. He is not your doctors. He is not your PhDs. He is not your capitans. Jehovah is the child. You, as a culture, need to start fighting for life. Wake up. Repent. It’s your warning call. Jehovah sees. He do. What happens in secret, will very soon be illuminated as day light. He’s got a lot on you already. Christians? Sacrificing their children? My word! Repent! You will get the help you need. But the sooner you realize whose side I am on… and whose side they are on… is the sooner you will be freed from their mind control. Life! Freedom! These are things worth fighting for. If you don’t have them, what is Jehovah? Open your hearts. I am the only one fighting for your culture to heal. There are others. Even now. Whom you have been trained to villainize. But you, the faithful, the world, my sheep, my flock, must wake up from your sleep. Stop listening to their poison. Stop eating their poison. Be freed. The priests, the elders, they’re beautiful. But they too, take their instruction and their direction from higher. From whence do these highers get their instruction and direction? I’ve said it before. Priests are beautiful and I cherish the priesthood. I believe they are misguided.

When I was young, do you not think I tried to express anger at what they were doing to me? Whenever I expressed any emotion, my abusers, particularly my relationally close, female abuser, snapped at me ferociously. A demon overtook her. She would accost me and make me feel like I was committing the most severe of crimes by feeling. This is the reason my feelings are stuck. It’s the reason truth needs come out. I understand why you are so threatened by my story. Your power is falling apart. The only thing you have to clutch that power is the off chance that you can get me upset. I pray for you. Pope, you are not a bully. You are being manipulated by evil, evil men. May Jehovah decide between you and I. All of you… and I. The most devastating injury I received, though was not only emotionally but sexually. You know what they did to me. Beginning as early as pre-birth. Sexuality is at the center of our humanness. Our identities. When it is stumbled, our entire well-being goes awry. Is this the issue in the West today? It’s part of the reason. This is the reason developing my sexuality is essential to my spiritual well being. You will never shame my sexuality again. I have the right to express it.  And to experience life. What sets me apart is that I have already been shamed grossly. More than any other. If I masturbate once in three months, it’s because I am wounded and cannot seek that healing from women… who also are wounded. I have felt enough shame over my sexuality that I will not tolerate it being shamed again. For your information, Jehovah Himself, instructed me that when your priests began recording and broadcasting my confessions – an excommunicable offence – I could confess to Him personally. It’s compassion that will save you. It’s envy that will damn you. Choose wisely, my friends. My sexuality, you know what they did to me, was shamed nearly to death. You will not shame my sexuality ever again. Your regulations and rules regarding human sexuality are barbaric and evil. And I am not speaking about chastity. I am as chaste as a Carthusian monk. Am trying at least. With my emotional wounds. You make this about my anger because it gives you a sense of control over it. This is not about my anger. Yes, I am angry. Do you not think I have a right to be? In either case, you shall not trigger me. This is an update only a few days after writing this: I see you are trying to shame me again. Satan up to his old tricks, huh? It seems to be all that you can do to maintain control of this situation. Look, I am not attracted to kids. The stuff I viewed in past was reaction to what they put me through. They are the ones who introduced me to the type of material I watched. I was coping with stress. I am not ashamed that I am attracted to young women. It is your precious communist feminism that has convinced you that age-gap is abusive. Even up to ten years ago, women married ten, fifteen years older than them. Women as young as 14 were prepared for marriage. Is that right? I don’t think so. I’m just saying, we seem to have come a long way from what God intended for relationships. Feminism has plagued our culture like deadly poison. When the truth comes out, you will see the truth of what my relationally close female abuser did to me. More than this, the effect all that had on my psyche. Stop shaming me. If sexuality is truly stumbled, and we don’t have a choice over who we are attracted to, what’s the big deal. We have a responsibility to reorient our sexuality for good. Which I have done. Hey, if I have a nocturnal emission once every three months, are you really going to parade that about as though I were perverted? Check your own rooms. Check your own search histories. Rascals. You’re just nitpicking because you cannot tolerate the awareness coming. Prepare yourselves. Quit measuring with me. Quit being distracted by my sins. Yours are well enough. Trust me. I have seen the state of many of your hearts. Healing is coming. You need to stop focussing on me. Work on yourselves. Priests and religious too. Secret sins. Dum dum dum. When the truth comes out, we will all have criminal records. You think I am talking about silly, insignificant sins. Wait. If they are big enough for you to have forgotten about, then they are big enough for a criminal record. I wouldn’t be too worried though. When this happens, there won’t be enough police constables in the world to document the crazy sins that are going to be confessed. Your prisons. You think people deserve to go there. You are blind to your own sins. Wait. God will show you. You have all merited the death penalty by your actions. Every single one of you. What matters is this day forward. Repent. Turn from your sins. May the God of angel armies protect you in this day. The awareness will be enough justice. There will be room for prisons. They will be reserved for the ones who don’t repent.

I don’t care what you say. That someone is stressed about caretaking a child who has a brain injury is not reason to molest and rape that child. These are incomparable stresses. The misbehavior comes from being raped and is a result of that worse behavior. What is a more severe stress? That that brain injured child scuffs up the walls causing you to continually have to repaint that wall? Or the fact that you are raping that child? It is incomparable that I leave food in the drain trap or forget about vacuuming. And that you judge me for putting my fingers in my mouth? Well, that is simply neurotic retardation. Trust God. Even the venomous snakes will not harm you. Neurotic children. You are using my sin against me as leverage to maintain your power. If you had compassion, you would help me. Instead, you try to trigger my wounds so that you can hold your power. They’re gonna’ see. They’re gonna’ see you for who you are. The leadership in the world and Church for the past twenty years was intended for me. You are fraudulent. Are you intending to cancel me? Truth comes out after my death one way or the other. It is a promise Jehovah made to me. When truth comes out, every single lie will be exposed. Fools! Can I ask a question? Do you really want my message not to be true? You may have to ask yourself, why? What encourages you to resist miraculous healing? There must be some selfish reasoning behind there. Is it that you are ashamed of your secret sin? Of being humiliated? It’ll be swift. Like a bandaid. Is it because of your envy or contempt for me? Get a grip! Is it because you cling to your power? This makes more sense. What do you do when God chooses another? There will be a miracle of healing for the world at my death, when truth comes out. ;) How does this make you feel? Skeletons in the closet? Oh’, glorious humiliation. Soon, everybody’s skeletons will be laid bare. It will be glorious because it will trigger God’s justice in this world. It will trigger, God’s people to stand tall. It will trigger evil ones to collapse in their sin. Bad thing? I leave this for you to answer. But it may just reveal your heart condition. You still think that you can earn your way into the grace of God. By your acts of penance. By the fancy way you respond to the Mass. Tell me, what happens when you are incapable of performing these actions? When you are old and tired on a bed? If you don’t have God then, your acts of good will are pointless. Find God now. Find His grace. Do not depend so on your muscle to earn God’s favor.

You’re seeking vengeance. It’s not the way of God. What your god has instructed you is justice for me, is in fact, a mockery of justice. What man’s sin merits this kind of treatment? Unless it’s suffering for the reparation of the sins of the world. In this case, it is not a punishment. You project your evil on me. You are being bullies. Think about it. You have got cameras in my living space. When you see me have a nocturnal emission once in three months, you claim I have an addiction to masturbation. Do you not see what is happening? They are bullying me. I had a realization last night. Increasingly, the revelations I am receiving are obtained through instruction at the Kingdom Hall and not the Catholic Church. This realization is that what you are seeking to prove is my unrepentance. You believe that if you can get me angry, you can prove me unrepentant. I understand this perspective. You are right. My sin, much of it is dreadfully serious. And I am humbling. What you need to understand, why this is so cruel is because of the way my feelings were used against me in the past. They shamed my feelings so much that my identity split. Literally. It’s the catalyst for their ‘plan’. It’s not really about proving me unrepentant but in shaming me until I crack. This is the definition of reactive abuse. You believe that I commit these sins out of ingratitude to Jehovah. What I did, I did while I was still enduring hell every night. What happened to me, was more serious than what I did. It is true. And, what I endured, was for the will of Jehovah. He understood the risks of how my life would be stumbled when He asked me to engage in this mission. Yes, before my birth. What I did was not out of ingratitude. It was because I was still enduring what He asked me to. Yes, my sin was serious. But, if true, what I claim, I am not criminally responsible. The anger, as well, is a reaction to what God asked me to endure. Sin? Because of God? No. Because Jehovah asked me to endure a crucifixion of sorts in my childhood as reparation for sins of the world. Of the church… and of the white man. Watch them carefully. I will be your pillar. But when they are failing, watch them closely. They will resort to utterly criminal lows in order to try to get me angry. Here’s the thing: Their entire dynamic of power is dependant upon that I get angry. If they prove me angry, they hold onto their power. World, Church, you need to ask yourself, who has your good intention at heart? I understand that I have been against you in the past. I understand that I have a crazily sinful past. Here’s the thing: I am repentant. My completely changed behavior attests to it. What you believe is sin now, is nothing more than your own projection and feelings. I’m not the one who is leading you by the hand to your suicide. Your pope, while potentially not evil in himself, is working hand in hand with evil forces. Whether or not I am unrepentant or repentant, I leave this in the hands of God. I will not make the mistake of judging one before their judgement. Whether or not I am repentant, you must see, I seem to be the only leader who is seeking to lead you to safety. And who desires your well-being. In either case, since this now depends on my getting angry or not, I submit to your plans. I admit that I have merited it through my actions. Even though, you are judging from what you see with your physical eyes. It is not racist to oppose open borders. Maybe Hitler had the right idea. He was fighting against open borders, communism and freemasonry. The communists have done a swell job of victimizing and gathering compassion for the freemasons over the past century since this war. They are evil as bleeding nails. Hitler has been demonized to the point where we have forgotten any sense of humanity within him. His approach was violent. But, after all, perhaps he had the good intentions of his culture and his people. Seems a stock response to every strong world leader that comes along. You savage him, then destroy his name. Sounds familiar? Sadam Hussein cared for his people and established the Libyan economy until it sky rocketed. Another I have recently learned about is Pinochet. Who also established his economy to the point of skyrocketing. That a nation benefits itself goes against your agenda, doesn’t it? Because you desire the one world tyranny. Kind of like what they have planned with me, huh? You have been blinded by these one world government nonsensical, evil little rascals. They poison you with every breath you take. Their plan is more than about my repentance. It’s about my humiliation. This is cruel to the beans. There is no morality about this. Almost every accusation you will bring against me is bollocks. Am I a bad roommate? I clean more than anyone here. You are simply looking for things to be wrong because of your politics. Because I turn evil statues around so they aren’t staring me in the face? At least I don’t break chairs that people spent hours fixing. Can you blame me for being suspicious about an evil statue? As for your food, it is unjust to tell someone that they can have some soup, some potatoes once and then call them a thief when they take some. Guy! Get a grip! Am I abusing women recently simply by offering them notes of affection? Maybe I am simply expressing my feelings towards them. Maybe it’s not me by whom they are threatened. Maybe it’s the idea they’ve conjured about who I am because of what they have heard. God prove who I am now. That I am smelly as a child? Really? You target these quirks of mine because you have no other control. It gives you a sense of control over who God says I am. If you cannot see, even just a little how this is kind of evil, the plan you have, you may not have place with Jehovah. You are just being bullies. If my simply drawing attention to your hidden, special sins, gets you so aggravated, I wonder about them. Can’t wait to find out what they are! God will show you. God will show everyone. As He will justify and vindicate me. Of every bollocks accusation you bring before me.

This is the thing: looking at me from the outside, you can see very clearly, a hardened man with a dreadful past. You don’t see what caused this stumbling. And it’s pretty common sense that sin endured in childhood stumbles to sin. Because you see with your eyes, you cannot develop compassion. Despite the overwhelming evidence that I truly endured what I say I endured. These crimes, these sins, even this anger you are so fascinated with, do not belong to me. They were different identities entirely. Yes, the things I did were wrong. Terribly wrong. I repent in sackcloth and ashes. But these acts were literally commit by different people within me. They were commit by alters who were specifically formed from satanic rituals. This is why I am not criminally responsible. Am I lying to you? Yup, I lied a lot as a child. Again, God claims my conscience clear for the past seven years in terms of that. The reason I lied as a child is because my abusers blurred the boundary of truth and lie for me. My sin distracts you from your grievous sin. You cannot tolerate to think about your sin because it is fresh. My only sin recently are natural. You commit murders and hide them. Here’s the thing: We are all sinners. Every one of us. To admit our sinfulness is kind of the first step in spirituality. Your confession doesn’t clean you. Just wait for the secret sins. A lot of you will be very, very surprised. This is truth: Jesus died for us. We need to accept his mercy. It is free. You who believe in your moral superiority, just wait. You are the most sinful of all.

We do not need boundaries for people to treat us well. If one does not have self-respect is not an invitation to harass him. These too, are not traits. They are symptoms. If you know better and infringe upon these boundaries because they have none, you testify against yourselves. If you would resist someone doing the same to you, you are violating the golden rule. We learn how we are to be treated by our parents. If our parents fail, maybe someone should step in and encourage that child. I realize now the reason God sent me. The reason God sent me is to show to the Christian people that it is alright to stand for yourself against bullies. It is alright to speak up. It is alright to resist evil, evil acts of obedience. Wake from your sleep, laity. They will eat you for breakfast. The way of Jesus is not vengeance. We, once we are forgiven our sins, are justified. I thought again about this statement. Jehovah instructed me to leave it be. We may be asked to account for our past sins. This does not mean falsely accusing this person, making another crucifixion of him. This is a mockery. So be it. Jehovah judge you. You’ve been doing it for centuries to everyone who opposed your sunshine and poison. Jehovah doesn’t condone lying. Even for penance.

The reason you think I am racist because I oppose illegal immigration… the reason you think I am racist because I oppose Islamic conquest… well… it’s because you’re not thinking things through. I declare a new virtue of by virtue of reason. This is the moral virtue of thinking for yourself. Inculcate it within your hearts. You have no common sense. You cannot see the way that all this unlawful integration is faltering every aspect of social functioning. Healthcare, education, housing, welfare… do you even remember that it was astronomically better only years ago? Years ago! What happened? They flooded us with economic migrants. I don’t know why… I don’t know the reason they are trying to destroy the West… the white man… but if we do not stand soon, our end will be swift. My past has nothing to do with my present beliefs. You think so because you are incapable of forming a thought for yourself. If I am a nazi, I’m not a very good one… learning Hebrew… interacting with Israelites on my free time. I am telling you that the white man is not a pushover. He is not ashamed of his race. The West will rise again. The white man will be glorified. For when he is, you will know that it is God who has marked His forgiveness upon him. And His favor. The time for being sorry for imagined offences of our fathers is over. The time for the cultures we have built being used as outdoor jons is over. Freemasons, communists, God Himself resists you and your plans for this world.

Friends, do you feel that I am asking to be crucified because I speak out against your filthy envy and even filthier corruption? I am praying for you. And your salvation. As you are making it very, very, very difficult for the faithful to attain to salvation. You truly believe that I do not have a right by Jehovah to be angry? I’m sure they said the same of Jesus. Of Jehanne D’Arc. These were innocent as can be. God justified their cause and put to deepest shame those who persecuted them. I realize now why I was sent. Why I was asked to submit so needlessly to their relentless and terrible abuses against me as a child. It was to illustrate to Christianity that obedience need not submit to self-destruction. Wake up. Lead them to freedom, you leaders.

I am thankful for the fact that it is God’s will that things be transfigured in the world before the end. Your leaders are not praying hard enough. Keep praying. He will show you. They are tired. They are kind of up against a wall. The Earthly powers close in around them. Their teaching… Oh their teaching and formation has been tainted. You need to know that regardless of how bad things become, everything will be glorious. Keep faith my brilliant children. You have need for a shepherd. Every generation up until a couple of generations ago has had legitimate pastors. I am prepared to be this shepherd for you. God bless you. But may He show you the truth. One very certain thing that the Catholics have correct is their stance on life. Life is valuable. More valuable than anything else. Whether it be in protecting the elderly soldier who is now disabled, life in the womb or protecting a boy who is being abused unjustly. It is not God’s way to not protect life. And by fighting against life, you are in effect, fighting against Jehovah Himself. This is where I take my stand. For life. For life. Freedom! I was racist as a child because I saw what would happen to our culture. What you would do to it. I want to encourage you. All will be well. This is not about me anymore. It is… it has always been about you. The goodness of this world. And for the resurrection that affects us all. The resurrection of this world. Of the Church. But mostly, of the world. This is not about my sin. You are only using it as leverage to maintain your control. If you were sincere, you would see that you also have sin. I just might be not culpable or criminally responsible for my sin. Never forget that I am a prophet not to the Church only. Also, to the world. God loves you so much. God loves you so much. All you need to do is accept this love. How can you do so? It is by developing a relationship with Him, your God… The one who has a name. His name is Jehovah. Not allah. Nothing else. Jehovah is His name.

It was always God’s plan to reward me. I am shamed about what I surrendered because of shame. I would have been a king in this life had I simply told truth sooner. God’s original plan for me was never to have me hurt more. The only reason this has to happen as such now is so that you won’t be devastated after truth comes out. It’s because of the corruption and sin of the clergy this must happen. God always intended to reward me. I endured a crucifixion in my childhood. If Jesus came down from the cross, would you tell him to man up? Would you spit in his face because he needed to humble? As he was writhing in agony? Would you step on his wounds? You are losing heart. In my childhood, I suffered a lot. The reason you want to humble me in such a mockery of justice is because of contempt. Because of envy. And because who I am contradicts who you think your leadership is. I know what is going to happen. And I submit to God’s will. But I need help.

If it sounds like I am multiple personality, you would be right. I actually do. But it bears no witness here. Look my friends, I am hard on you. I am strict. God gave me a tongue like a sword. You need to know your potential. You need to know that things can get better. But you need to know that it is getting late. I love you all. Those of the world as with those of the Church. You are all my flock. I try to waken you from your sleep with my language. It’s what God puts on my heart. You call my strong language hatred. Perhaps it is this that gives me clarity of wisdom. You need to know that Jehovah loves you tremendously. It is not hate that inspires this language. On the contrary, it is righteous indignation. I see you being swindled. I care about you all. I cannot tell you how difficult it is to see you scattered in this way. My only question to you. Why do you feel I am unrepentant?

It never hurts to have hope in people. I believe in the Blue Jays. Have since I was a tot. I believe they will both, come back from behind, the Brewers and the Jays. It was kind of crazy the fact that probably five years ago, I prophecied that Jays would face Brewers in WS and they have each come this year so far. I believe in the best. It never hurts to have hope. And if they don’t win, it’ll happen in the next five years. It’s quite a spectacular warm up though. Look guys, you are all doing so very well. I know. Hope deferred is the source of a sick heart. Please know it is not intentional that we haven’t received our blessing yet. I had quite a realization yesterday. I was saying to a fellow Catholic that things will get better. He said, ‘yes, but they must get very rough first.’ People have been saying that to me since MH. It suddenly made sense to me what they were saying. You don’t believe there’s a possibility that things can improve before the great tribulation. It was surprising to me. It actually hurt a little. I know I’ve not given you much to believe in. Do you remember the work I did decade ago? Keep faith guys… You gotta’ know that God loves you so much. Every one of you, everyone of you, every single one of you is so precious in His eyes. Even if you are in mortal sin, it is not too late. Just call out to Him. Develop a friendship. A couple of days ago, I was writing about how I loved to sing and sing loud in church because of my passion and zeal for God. Don’t let the world take that from you. I can’t tell you how sorrowful it makes me to see my fellow Christians trying to snub out the light of another Christian because of their envy. You gotta’ know, this is what God cherishes. This inner light. This inner spark and sense of warmth in the soul. You could say the “Hail Mary” for the rest of your life, you could go to confession twice a day and receive Eucharist every day. It doesn’t compare with this spark. It is the inner child. The inner child is the one who stands above your body. Like a guide to your body. This inner child can be wounded. When it is wounded, we are stumbled into sin. When I tell my story, I am not complaining. I am explaining. Anyone with a heart could see how it justifies me. Don’t do that, Church, world… Don’t snub out the lights of this world. In a sense, I know you cannot even really control it. It’s the reason for such child abuse and satanic ritual abuse and vulnerable abuse. I see you hear the words. Satanic ritual abuse. You do not understand what this implies. It’s okay. The time for healing shall come. Just remember our children are our lights. These are the lights. These are the lights of the world. The children. The wounded. The animals. These are the ones to be exalted. Just remember, when you make one of these suffer, it is as though you are making Jehovah suffer. It’s hard for me to watch what I believed was the true church doing this very thing. A true Christian protects the light. A true Christian protects children. We all have pasts. It is our responsibility to live in spirit. These are the most like God… the little baby in the trash… He is holier than the pope. Than the priest. You know it to be true… All this to say, things will get better. Unrecognizably better. Before the great tribulation. It’s not my promise. It is Jehovah’s. I wondered at these reactions to when I would say that. I don’t think you want to get your hopes up and have them dashed. I can assure you this will not happen. You need to know that things will get rough before the transfiguration of the earth. But God wants you to know His love. God wants you to feel His justice. He wants to reward these ones… the children. The martyrs. You need to ask yourselves, laity, why anyone would oppose this? It’s because of their pride. They do not want to be wrong. And they will commit murder in order to stand by it. You’re right. It is tough for Catholics to become saints. When truth comes out, the laity themselves will lift me up. A people who are not Catholic also will revere me. I don’t deserve it. I never said I was a saint. I said I was a prophet. Not only to the Catholic Church. To the world. They’ll realize what you’re doing. You’ll see.

I feel a conviction in my heart to tell you that things will get better. Just keep faith. God sees your wounds, your pain and your tears. He is numbering each of your tears. He sees your hard work. He sees the training you are giving your children, the hard work you are enacting to take care of your family. Jehovah loves you all so, so much. Rest will come. Rest will come for God’s holy ones. He wants you to know that He has seen your goodness. Your patient endurance. I am only His voice. I am telling you that He wants you to be happy. He wants you to experience the fullness of life. At the end of our lives, with the judgement, let us have nothing to regret. Let us seek to fulfill our dreams and goals. Remember, Jehovah wants our joy as much as we do. It is not hard to accomplish our goals in the will of God. Let us orient our love with the love of God. Let us be entirely united to His love. Let us become close friends with Him. I’m telling you, first-hand testimony here, when we become His friends, He will make our wildest dreams come true. He wants to bless us fully and completely. Become His friend. I have said a couple of times that the only way to be glorified in this world is to seek satan. While it is true, satan gives you good stuff in this life (money, power, fame) he robs you of everything in your life later. The true way to blessings in this life, lasting blessings, are by becoming Jehovah’s friend. Never let the absence of blessings and good things in this life make you feel like God doesn’t love you. The fact is that we can serve God and not receive a thing. It is about our integrity in this case. Remain steadfast to Him and He will reward you eternally. What is a car in view of eternity? It is urine! You still trying to measure your manhood with me, thinking my message is a message of debate! Laugh! Keep debating.

Catholics, it is breaking my heart. It breaks my heart. It breaks God’s heart to see you selling out to powers that would sooner chew you up and spit you out than reciprocate your charity. Do you not see? You are being used. They have infiltrated you because you were the greatest force on earth holding them at bay. The most difficult thing to watch is that you do not even see it. Because they have gotten into your seminaries decades ago. This is the risk of becoming political in your faith. You can end up choosing the wrong side. Or the side that seems like it has all the power. Or the side that offers the most money under the table for your support. You break my heart. You literally had the world in your hands. By capitulating with them, you place your salvations at jeopardy. The governments of the West? The Catholic Church? Being used as pawns? Unheard of. Even twenty years ago. Where are your men? Where are they? Are you really content seeing your women raped and the culture our fathers built with their blood trampled on? This is the reason Jehovah instructed me to apply for religious life. He wanted to protect me. He wanted me to die a happy death. He knew what your leaders would do when their tighty whiteys got all bunched up because of me. It doesn’t have to happen this way. It will be a mockery. If it does happen, it will be your choice. Not mine. This great and glorious unveiling happens either way. I’ll tell you. You’re going to look very villainous, very, very villainous if you do this. Your sins will be even greater than those of the rest that are coming out. It is your contempt and envy that makes you want to censor me. By resisting my reign, you may look like fools. You may find yourself working against God. Because when I return, I will be the only leader with power from Heaven. I will be the only one who stands for Jehovah. This is not pride. Humility recognizes truth. This is the reason that you seek to kill me. So, Catholics, I have always said, you are a precious people. Your simplicity is in your obedience. Your faith is in your obedience. Obedience to evil is not faith. What happens when the shepherd is struck? So, I declare a new virtue of highest caliber to you today. The virtue of thinking for yourself. It’s frightening at first. I believe in you. You can do it. You are being played as strings with your obedience. Will you participate in the crucifixion of God’s ordained? Because you… were… just following… following orders? Look, I don’t want this to happen. I am only a middle-aged, very disabled man with beliefs that well over half of the Western world shares. You know my innocence. God attests to it. I have been very hurt by your evil world. I am willing to do this if it means the good of this world. Since no one else has the manhood to do it. I suppose it’ll have to be me. I just have a question… where have your men gone? They’re literally leading you by the collar into the furnace. These are not men. I am prophesying that you as an organization will lose everything if you follow this plan. You will topple. And from you, new and greater ones shall inherit what you have built. It will not be I who has done this. It will be Jehovah of armies. And when it happens, you know it will be just. Don’t you find it strange that the attention of the entire world is upon one man? It is evil. It is no wonder the Catholic Church will try to kill me. Satan also does. Have you become Satan’s friends, Catholic Church?

When my truth comes out, so do all of yours. ;) It’s not a bad thing. Wait! You’ll see. You believe this is some scheme I am plotting. I hate to inform you; I am not tight enough with Jehovah to be able to convince Him to do this. I just may be the tightest person to Him on earth now. No, you think I am plotting this because you don’t want it to be true. Friends, you do not believe it to be the will of Jehovah because you do not have the fullness of the Spirit of God. If you did, you would know that this has always been His will. I am very simple. I am not aware of the evil you have planned for me. But, if it’s true that you have concocted this plan because you think I threaten you to convince God to air all of your sins, you are retarded not thinking things through fully. I am simply telling you what’s what. It happens either way. You threaten me with false accusation and a crucifixion because it offers you the illusion that you have some sort of control over this. Maybe even it offers you a bit of catharsis over the impending judgement that comes. Hey, man, the religious knew Jehovah was going to judge them when Jesus came as well. Jehovah made them his footstool. Look, I am not threatening you. I am not accosting you. I am not bullying you. I am simply telling you what God will do. Prepare your hearts. And by actively participating in another crucifixion of God’s elect, may not be a good way to prepare your heart. Just saying. “There’s a skeleton in everybody’s closet.” Keep praying. Keep praying. Put aside your Bible for now. Put aside your tradition. Listen to God. He yearns to speak to you. Open your heart. If He speaks to the children, He will speak to you too. If not, perhaps it means that you are sinful. Wait. It’s the reason this will happen. To set you back on the right track. Remember, it is not a punishment that your sins will be known to all. It is personal. It is for your healing. When it happens, people won’t be worried about justice at first. There will be time for that. Fall to your knees. Repent now. While you can. Again, I am asking, please don’t hurt me in the way you are planning. It is not my choice. This is going to happen whether I want it to or not. Whether you want it to or not. Wake up. Listen to the Spirit. You need to know that if you choose to do this, Jehovah will confound and prove lies every accusation you make against me. Not only are all your murders and rapes you can’t remember going to be coming out, you’re also going to look like mighty fools before the face of earth. God rebuke you. There are a lot of places in this world to sweep your sins under the rug. It’ll be illumined soon. If you are the morally and spiritually clean person you claim to be, you should have nothing at all to worry about. I will not argue this with you any longer. I know what is right. You still think my identity is something that you can measure against. My identity is not in what I say or do. Yes, it’s important. But God chose me before creation. You can measure against me all you want. I know what I know. You cannot convince me. Neither will I allow your words to convince other people because you measure against me and record my conversations. From now on, you have merited my respectful silence. Again, you believe that this is a thing I am plotting. It’s because you are not associated with the Spirit of God. If you believed in the Christ of God, you would know that all I am doing is proclaiming God’s repentance. This is all that is important. That you repent. That the name of Jehovah and His Christ are glorified. Sometimes, what we need for repentance is a total and complete shakeup of our awareness. We need to be brought low. It’s true: some will not survive this awareness. Their hearts shall condemn them. Build your friendships now. God is not dead. He is alive. He is roaring like a lion. You will see. When He judges you. You witches and warlocks. The time for sweeping your sin under the carpet is done with. Jehovah shall illumine every nook and crevice in this world. Friends, this happens either way. No matter what you do to me. You may feel very sad after you realize what you have done. Again. All that matters is Christ. Once again… I cry out from the mountain tops, repent for the Kingdom of God has come. Very near. REPENT. Your victim’s blood is crying out for justice. Just so you know: abortion is one of the most serious crimes a human can commit. There is forgiveness. Vulnerable abuse is the next. Reach out. Accept this forgiveness. Build your friendship. This is what matters. Watch what happens next. They will intensify their efforts to silence and kill me. Especially now that they know they have no control. Now that they know that God is in control. Repent. The time for sweeping your dirty sins under the carpet comes to a glorious, triumphant conclusion. Jehovah laughs in your faces. Evil ones. Ones who choose evil. He laughs in your faces. While He elevates the ones who are wounded. Who are small. Tell me, how does this make you feel? Evil ones? Does it sting? I bet it does. Rue in it. Because it is going to sting a hell of a lot more. Wait. Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows everywhere. Hell is real. And you shall find yourself there. ;) Listen to me: Either way, truth comes out. Either way, God wins. The jig is up. Crawl out from the rock you hide under. Might as well confess now. Otherwise you gonna’ feel like otherworldly morons when it happens. Do what you want to me. God vindicates me entirely. Do what you want to me. Soon, you see, you are just as bad… or worse… than me. At least, I can remember my dirty laundry. I am not speaking to the just. You, the just, shall bask in the sun like glorious summer reptiles when this occurs. You shall revel in this justice. Because you will know it has come directly from your God. It is time for you to be strengthened. Be firm, noble ones. Help comes. And it shall dash the evil to the rocky shards below your feet. That prophecy of Genesis. Gensis 3:15. This is a promise to all of us who are just and made in the image of Jehovah. Just wait. Keep faith. Keep strong. This justice will be felt by all who have triumphed. The saints, living and dead shall experience it. It is in effect, what all of creation has been groaning to experience since the early days. Wait. Evil ones, embrace your dirty, filthy fates. But know that there is still a chance for you. Repent. Or don’t. It’s up to you. But know that from the day I publish this article, my conscience is clear. I have done what I came to do. Evil is already dead. You think it is mighty and strong. Because you amass good things. You are a moron. And if it’s your choice to continue in this path, it is your choice. Not God’s. Not mine. Not anyone’s. But your own. Let the choices be made. Humans, know that you are so beautiful. God does not desire your death. Open your hearts. Call to Him. He is the only one who can save you. Satan tempts you with the feeling of power that you have in this world. That sense of control. Yes, even control over life. For who can deny? It is a godly thing to have the power over another’s life in your dirty little hands. It is an illusion. This is not life. Know, with absolute certainty – and I attest to this personally – that when you murder someone, you are in fact placing a garland wreath of golden glory around their heads. You think you are winning something in this life by gaining power over another. You think you are achieving something by silencing the lights of this world. In the Kingdom, they will be the very first to receive glory. Here’s the thing: this life? It’s not so meaningful. The Life that matters is not yet. So… do what you will. But know that you simply amass testimony against your self. While amassing crowns and mansions for your victims. Make the choice. No one’s going to make it for you. Satan? Or Jehovah? Death? Or life? It’s now your choice. Choose wisely though. Because it just may be permanent. Which will you choose? The choice is kind of right in front of you. Presenting itself. I am telling you that you need to repent. This comes from one with a spotted past like a chessboard. But, I am calling for love for vulnerables, for goodness. I am calling for goodness for this world. They are calling for sin… not openly. They want your death. Can you not see it? So, which will you choose? I may need to humble. Yes, it’s true. If I need to, you do as well. You simply have my sin in your hands. Don’t worry. Yours will be laid bare soon enough. For God to have in His hands. I am not forcing you to choose. That would be cruel. God will make the choice for you. You, the just, need to remember this promise of justice. It boils in my blood with the strongest of love. Keep searching your Bible. You will see this to be true. Keep praying. You will see it to be true. Keep faith. Your God is swooping in like an eagle. He will rescue you. Until every saint is lifted up. Until the hidden story of every child, murdered is plastered across the front page of every newspaper in the world. You, the evils, the true garbage, you need to remember this promise of punishment. All that you have fought for, is in vain. It is being built up, at this very moment, your empires, your families, your businesses – it is being built up for one purpose: to be passed on to the just. You have no part in it. If it lasts, if it is proved worthy through the testing, it is being built for the small ones who will inherit it. You who believe this world is the finality of the universe. Goodbye. So long. Farewell. So sad. I say this to shake your hearts. Wake from your sleep. Repent. God sees. Everything. You cannot escape His wrath. Repent!

Update: Told ya’ so. They will villainize me now. Every opportunity they get. Keep your awareness. They are threatened by my power. It’s the reason they try to kill me. They are threatened by my voice. It’s the reason they silence me. Peace. They try to divide you. Look: again… I am a very terrible sinner. But if you do not think you are too, this enlightenment may come as a shock. I simply want to prepare you. And if I am a king… if I do have some sort of earthly rulership in the future… if I am going to restore God to worship… then you need remember that it is subordinate to the authority of the true Kingship of Jesus Christ and our Father in Heaven, Jehovah. May His name be glorified and honored throughout the face of the earth. As it is in Heaven… Remember always, this is about Jesus.

What does the Resurrection mean to you?

I have a feeling that in future years, looking back, we will be able to say that a great heresy has existed here. Greater than Arianism or Jansenism. For the question we need ask is what do you believe about the resurrection of Jesus Christ? What we say about this fact defines our entire faith, our entire perception of other Christians and other people in the world. When we believe in the physical resurrection, we begin to see other Christians as more than their sin. When we believe in the physical resurrection of Christ, past sin is not condemning. Past sin does not haunt us. This is because when we were baptized, every sin committed prior to the Sacrament, is erased from the soul of this person.

“Baptism has six primary effects, which are all supernatural graces:

1. The removal of the guilt of both Original Sin (the sin imparted to all mankind by the Fall of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden) and personal sin (the sins that we have committed ourselves).
2. The remission of all punishment that we owe because of sin, both temporal (in this world and in Purgatory) and eternal (the punishment that we would suffer in hell).
3. The infusion of grace in the form of sanctifying grace (the life of God within us); the Seven gifts of the Holy Spirit; and the Three Theological Virtues.
4. Becoming a part of Christ.
5. Becoming a part of the Church, which is the Mystical Body of Christ on earth.
6. Enabling participation in the sacraments, the priesthood of all believers, and the growth in grace.”

Source 1

Just because someone cannot or refuses to see the fact that you are forgiven, does not mean that you are forgiven any less. Your forgiveness and justification is between you and God. Nobody, not even the Church has the grace to challenge the fact that at your baptism, at your confirmation, you were forgiven and bought with the precious blood of Jesus. Our faith in the physical resurrection has become weakened. We as Christians have allowed ourselves to believe that the blood of Christ did not cover the sins of the faithful, sending them as far as the east is to the west. We are like the pagans of old who believe that the grace of God were something we could work for. We have doubted the transformation of faithful. This is next to the fact that there are reasons for our sins, which make them more or less culpable.

For is it even possible to make the claim, with knowledge of what Christ’s mission was – of what He accomplished on the cross – that because someone has sins in their past, they do not merit the full forgiveness of Christ? Is it possible, with this knowledge, to make the claim that because of the sins of their past, God cannot make use of them now? Is a perfect life, a perfect, sinless past prerequisite for holiness? I wonder what you would have said to the Apostle Paul when He claimed Jesus spoke to him? The fact is, even if we were baptized at birth, we still have sins. Actually, especially if we were baptized at birth, we still have sins. My friends, I am not trying to scare you. But wait for the secret sins. Moses commit murder. David commit adultery. Not one of us has lived a perfect life. Only Jesus. Even with confession. Again, wait for the secret sins. What could be a greater heresy than denying faithful, righteous and repentant people access to a future in the faith because of their past sins? To do so, we should soon expect that none of us will have a future in the Church. This need for spiritual perfection and innocence is as futile as it is impossible. For what purpose is the Sacrament of Reconciliation, after all? God uses the weak, the sinful. It is precisely in this weakness and sinfulness that the transformation occurs. For to Christianity (maybe it’s not the case with worldly temporality) the transformation of heart is all that really is important. Conversions are not always evident to the eye. And there will always be people to disagree with you. But, what does one’s conversion look like? Does he dress exactly alike to you? Does he speak exactly alike to you? Here’s a pertinent, rhetorical question: Does he think exactly alike to you? Rather, does he have the same political beliefs and convictions as to you? I implore you to consider and reassess the true reasons for why these thoughts are coming. Are they rooted in envy? How about bitterness and anger? Maybe a sense of repressed justice even? One thing it is not rooted in is the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Besides, if one were a sinner, surely the best way to draw him back to Christ would not be to humiliate him every time he went to confession, by broadcasting universally his confession sin matter. This is not going to help him come and find Christ. Rather, it may push one away. Surely, the best way to draw this ‘sinner’ back to Christ would not be to install hidden cameras in his bedroom. If it were for the good of the world or for the good of this one, you would not have to do all of this creepy stuff.

Jesus loves you and has given you enormous grace. Let us not deprive other faithful of their graces they have earned because of the sins of their past. Lest you forget that you too, are a sinner and frequent the Sacrament of Reconciliation. Wait for the secret sins.

 

Sources:

https://www.learnreligions.com/the-sacrament-of-baptism-542130

A Glimpse in Faith

I     could see the future from when I was a small child. Two futures. Contrasting. Like images on contrary pages of a storybook. It’s like the lights and sounds of the future city were etched into the eyelids of my soul, my youth. I remember reading one of the prophets, who say that prophets who prophecy prosperity are not true. That there will be need to be skeptical of these prophets more than even those who predict God’s wrath. Something to this effect. My brain racked around this. I suppose we all grow up and are raised with our own unique imprint, with our own understanding of ourselves and of the world. Perhaps this was also the case when the prophet who wrote this conjectured. Surely, there was a place for God’s wrath in the past. Particularly before Jesus came. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that His justice has come to an end. But surely, God does not only desire bad times and predict evil for us. Does He? This feels weird for me to say because if anyone should have a pessimistic outlook for the future, surely it would be me considering simply what I have endured. If anyone had a reason to be cynical about life and God and society, it would be me. Yet, how is it that I – and I’ve got to admit, at times it feels like I am completely alone in this belief – want so desperately to believe that God can fix everything. The climate. The nation state. The Church. The beauty. The true. The family. The child. The parent. The heart. The very heart. Name of God. For me, I cannot fathom how God could not give His children a chance to repent before calling upon judgement. I have been given a hard but great grace of seeing other people through the eyes, which God sees them with. Through these eyes, I see a wounded people, who are as wounded and lost as I once was, looking and searching under every stone and straw for the place from which to drink this life giving water. I see this people who have lay aside God for their money, for their technology, for their lusts and passions. When I think of myself, I see my heart. But I cannot think of a future far beyond the moment in which I am living. However, when I think of the world, the future of true society, my imagination goes wild. First, I see a true rejoicing. I see a massive jubilation and prayerful wonder that could only really arise from the fact that God Himself has made Himself known. I see everything restored. Restored to what? Restored to the way the world was intended to be. When God first created her. A world where people walk in the light. A world where the presence of God is known, revered and loved. A world in which the human life is cherished, nurtured and cared for. People are misunderstanding the effect that truth will have. When the truth about this comes out, a lot will be revealed to you.

Healing is coming. It will take many forms. Physical. Though, I do not have confirmation of this, I believe a lot of illness will be healed. If not instantly, the encouragement and validation of faith that is coming will certainly set those on a path toward healing whose ailment is a matter of foundation. I feel like there will be an undoing of people’s emotional wounds. I feel like collected and repressed trauma of millions, in the blink of an eye, will be healed. As if only by the touch of God. Yes, my friends. Perhaps the greatest healing that will come will arise from the awareness of our state of being, our state of grace before God. What a marvelous grace it will be. It will be difficult for some, no doubt. For when we realize how our actions, behavior and speech have affected others, what other reaction could there be except shock? When people realize their sin, there will be a restoration simply in this. Even for Christians. Don’t you realize? Many of the identity politics of today and even economic politic are based inherently in bitterness, envy and pride. How will the abasement of self, influence the world to see the other as not an enemy? How will this enlightenment encourage the world to see the identity and soul of their neighbor? How will it inspire the world to view those who are truly wounded and weak? Yes, my friends. Healing is coming. When we begin again to see life as less of a competition, less through the rose-colored glasses that have been placed across our field of vision by the media, by the movies, by our bitterness, the more we will seek to see our brother with eyes of love. These glasses removed, we will again see clearly. We will not only see. We will see the truth.

While it is not forefront on my mind, I truly believe that there will be a sincere and honest period of peace and unity among the nations. Let us not mince words, the purpose of a leader is and has always been to place the needs and welfare of the people under their patronage first. A time is coming, where power will fill the hands of leaders who care steadfastly about their people. Western Civilization, including the true merits of freedom and economy will be restored, healed and glorified. Even the wounds, which the West has attained, including their sins, will be patched over with dressing and atoned for. Again, to return to the thought that when the abasement comes, people will not be so quick to judge and condemn one another. Individually and collectively. Where does all of this political and economic restoration come from? Where is its source? The answer is simple. It is from its rooting and foundation in love. When God comes first, morality follows closely behind. There will be no more lies. No more deceit or powerful taking advantage of the small. Either in their innocence, their trusting or their loving. Again, the child will be exalted in this new world. Christian leadership is not like leadership of the world. It’s not like running a country. It’s not built upon a framework of authority and fear. It’s not a dictatorship. Because to be a leader, by Christ’s standards means to love, it means to serve. Sometimes, Christian leadership means putting ourselves last so that the flock can have what is right.

By the entire grace of God, every effect of this deceit will restore and return to the way it once was, under more prosperous times. All forms of trafficking will cease. All that happens in the darkness, overwhelming light will be shed upon. The mentally ill and homeless will be given salvation (if they desire it), blessing and healing. For we will discover, in a single instant the root cause and reason for the advent of such enormous rates of poverty and homelessness. That root cause will be touched as if by the finger of God. Of course, all of the positive effects that are coming have to be accepted. Should a soul not desire this mercy and healing, God cannot force you to accept it. This is the reason we should all be praying. I appeal to you all to start praying. To ready your hearts for this! People will know truth and will not tolerate violence, lying and rioting anymore. This will arise from an immediate change and healing to the world’s self-worth. When healing comes, even Christians will know that to idly lay back and allow wolves to tear them apart, over the course of ten years may not be rooted in love for the self. What else? Oh, yes! Corporations and particularly justice will cleanse. Prisons and psych wards will heal and restore and be once again used for their original intent. Race relations will heal and restore. This again, will be based on the tenet that we are all sinners, would we desire to see it. My dear friend, Martin Luther King Jr’s words will become a reality that people will not be judged by their skin color but instead by the integrity and the quality of their character. I know that he longs for it. Still. There will be justice. But it will be bearable. For God desires it to be so. Indeed, every way that darkness has advanced over these past decades will be reset. Families will heal and reconcile. For at the cause of the division and hurts are wounds that are incredibly sensitive, which I firmly believe will be dressed and nurtured completely and instantly at the restoration. At the root of this restoration and healing of the family, will be the miracle of the touch of love. For again, when people see each other and interact with each other lovingly, with care and the utmost of attention, all bitterness and hatred will be evaporated. This bitterness, this hatred, the crown of the evil one, who exists to sow discord and rejoices in the discord and misery of families, by the grace of God and if He wills, will be healed almost instantaneously. When the children of the world realize that the parents have hurt and fought the same battles as they do now. When the parents realize that the children are living and breathing creatures, who hurt, feel and have their own destinies. When they realize that they are entirely in this battle together, peace will come. Not only peace. Peace abundant. Peace personified. Personified by love and joy and hope and tenderness and forgiveness and mercy. What a beautiful existence that day will be for the family! Selfishly, I also prophesy that the Jays will beat the Brewers in the WS, baseball fan as I am. And of course, who can predict the outcome of a sports match? I can’t. I only desire this to be the case. And it cannot hurt to offer encouragement and charisma to the players. Besides, they deserve it. It’s been a while! In the next seven or eight years, the Jays will win!

There is little doubt that the climate of the world is changing. I remember even when I was a child, the trees and wildlife being extremely more abundant. Maybe it was only through the eyes of a child, and were I to return, I would see the things through different eyes. I remember being pushed along in my stroller, when very young and in Florida, seeing the incredibly animus insect world on the ground below me. This is proof of nothing. However, what I also remember was the extremely lush vegetation state over. Had there been consistent hurricanes since, which pummeled the state and over just thirty years reduced the nature? No, it has certainly changed. Climate change is real. However, it is its cause, which is uncertain. It is easy to see the reason why a lot of people want to believe that we as inhabitants of this world could have such an impact on global climate. To think anything else would be to acknowledge the truth that sin exists and has real consequences. Can you not see? The cause of the climate change the world is experiencing is human sin. It is God’s response to it. I cannot remember where it was in the Bible. The last time I read the Bible through, I came across a number of verses stating how the lands surrounding modern day Sahara (Egypt particularly) were extremely lush. Name of God, had I saved the verses location! I will search for it. This is an update. I found one of them in the Book of Exodus. Ex 10:15: “They covered the ground until it was black with them; they ate everything that the hail had left, including all the fruit on the trees. Not a green thing was left on any tree or plant in all the land of Egypt.” Of course, this passage speaks of the locusts, which were a plague sent by God due to the pride of the Pharaoh in persisting to persecute the chosen people of God. Can you not see? God has control of the climate. He wants to make the world lush and vibrant again. And His mercy is great. With people’s ability to repent, great changes will come. With the restoration, I pray this repentance, worldwide will come. I don’t have reason to believe this would not be the case. I simply know that it is essential to it. While it would be encouraged that the world would rejoice, it is not necessary. This truth will come, one way or the other. People can try their hardest to prevent it. It might be like fighting against the goad.

As for the Church, His beloved Bride, I predict that a restoration is coming. I can really only pray the exact same for His Church as I prayed for the world. For the Church is like a rudder, it’s like the captain of the ship that is the world. For what happens in the Church will lead and direct the world. Does this say something about the state of the Church? I didn’t say anything. It speaks for itself. What I can say is that there will be a unity in Christ unlike anything that has been seen for millennia. And only on a grander, grander scale. Mary and the saints will be glorified. Jehanne, my beloved Jehanne will be glorified and filled with joy! The Latin Mass, Traditional Catholicism will be glorified. Graces for those in purgatory will flourish and fall in abundance as of rain in the jungle atop this transitory spiritual existence. I must admit that at a time, I truly believed in my heart that those who had been condemned to hell would receive a second chance. Who am I to even suggest this? I have learned that the concept is deemed a heresy by the Church. Allow me to explain my reasons for desiring to believe this in the past. For while, I believe that there are certain reasons for people to go to hell, I believe that while it is often just, it is not God’s choice that those be sent there. Rather, it is a choice of the individual and the individual alone. I have always struggled with the belief that one who had commit suicide would be condemned to hell. Especially after hearing a Robin William’s voice from this plane when I was a child. I don’t know whether these souls will go to hell when they die. All I know is that the spiritual disposition of the soul following making of a choice of that sort, sets one up for despair. This despair, unless one is firmly grounded in love, can be the catalyst for a soul to not choose God. Really, what are the chances that these souls are grounded in love if they are making choices like these? This is a reason for the restoration. Again, I don’t know about the souls in hell. What I do know is that when this restoration comes, a spiritual reinvigoration and rejuvenation will occur. Why wouldn’t God desire to save such as these? These who, with new insight about the triumph and victory of the Cross, which will come, may desire a different outcome than the one they chose through this despair. The same Holy Ghost that will restore people to physical health will be the Holy Ghost that will by His grace, reach into the darkest places and illumine EVERYTHING! I don’t know. I am not arrogant enough to discount it. Neither am I foolish enough to preach the extremely real possibility that God will give another chance to even those who made poor choices based on a lack of information, shall we call it.

I imagine a world in which children, people who are with disabilities, emotional and physical, wounded people, elderly will be revered and honored with a dignity that is pure. Because, honestly, is this not the badge, the ultimate token of the health of a society? In how it treats its vulnerable, its smallest, its weakest? Let us remember the vast complexity, indeed resilience of childhood. Though they are resilient, they are vulnerable as well. What is done to them and around them affects them greatly. I simply want to encourage you tonight. Children are so precious. Life is so incredibly precious and beautiful. They are also incredibly vulnerable and impressionable. We need to care for them. We need give them a future, which they can laid hold of firmly and confidently, with both hands, saying, “thank you for giving me life. I exist today, because at a point in my existence, somebody (many people) decided that I was worthy of life and of the investment in my life. Just like how when you are married and have children, you yourself lose touch with that inner child, even within yourself. You are, in a moment, transformed from the child to the caregiver. From the girl, from the boy into the woman, into the man. And in this process, we lose out on the spiritual. For is it not true that the child is and possesses a deeper connection to the spiritual realm than the adult? Is this not the path intended by spiritual planes? How sorrowful the thought that generations have passed and millennia have passed, increasingly, more and more recently, the caregiver is stunted in growth, hindered in its transition from child to adult. How sorrowful that we have children raising children. This is not a sweeping statement. It might as well be. A time will come when we will have the choice to see things in love. Through eyes clouded over with compassion and filial brotherhood. The way we treat our children, our vulnerable is really the most important thing in a civilized society. No, my friends, people are not dispensable. Economy does not matter. Politics does not matter. Science and the arts matters not. If we cannot get that fundamental building block down that how we as society treat the small, the weak in our world is paramount, everything will topple. What I am advocating is a change of heart. A change in the heart of society and the world. It is more than possible. I have seen it. This is where our utopia is born. When this happens, the need and desire for a political utopia will be irrelevant. When the heart of the world is healed, there will be little need for all of that.

For the root of many of the emotional and spiritual and physical problems of today is in shame. Actually, shame is like a tent, a synthesis of repressed emotions. For when we as children, or even as adults experience a trauma, something horrible, which we cannot process – something, which we find too terrible to process in the moment it is happening – we can fragmentize this experience. We put it away in a partition of the mind, somewhere where it will not cause us harm. To be blunt, we simply repress the fact that it is happening. Along with this, we repress all emotions connected to the event. Hence, the experience did not not occur. It is simply our reaction to that event that we forget. Still, the impact, emotional and spiritual still have an effect on us. We can be led like slaves of our own emotions, even while led by Christ, because of these unprocessed emotions. These emotions, undealt with can have an effect upon our behavior, our attitude, our very actions. For while, if we have experienced something, which makes us angry, which we have not been permitted to feel, even if we do not remember it, the anger is still there. We are forced to vent this anger subconsciously as opposed to practically. This is the cause of many problems today. When the restoration comes, it will be like God Himself has chosen to dwell amongst us. God does not see people for their sins. For what they do or say. He sees people for what they can be. He sees us for our potential.

This doesn’t take the pressure off of us. We still need to get right with Him. This is the problem. A wounded heart. Do you think that I am special in the sense that I was raised for destruction? I wish it were the case. Yes, I am unique in how early these plans were enacted for me. In that there were even ceremonies, ridiculous as they were. No, my friends. I weep when I think that there are generations upon generations whom have been the prime target of the evil one. These who do not know a better way. Church, do you think God despises the world? No! In fact, these are all His flock. These are all His sons and daughters. Do you not think He cares what happens in their future? He wants them to return to Him. These poor people, even if they have not experienced the level of trauma and spiritual propaganda I was indoctrinated with, are lost. They are sought after by the evil one, roaring around like a lion. Influenced by the false promises of pleasure, comfort, lied to by some of the media, by the movies, by the music they listen to. Tempted by the allure of sin. Yes, these are sinful, they have sinned. And yes, most of them endure trauma and suffering based conscience manipulation as well. Nobody is immune. They do not know any better. Church. Can you not see? These poor people, these children of God, these prodigal children are so lost, so despairing. Never stop evangelizing! Until the last day. We do not know who we may save in the process. Is my spirit valuable? I do not know. Do you know where I was? In this world, do you know what was in my future? This shows one thing. Redemption is never out of the picture. God desires even the worst man or woman you can possibly imagine. God desires these hearts even more than the hearts He already has. The wolves of the world are seeking these. One by one they are falling. Without ever knowing the true nature of God and His Son, our Lord. All they hear is a twisted and vile diatribe about Him and His nature from a media, which seeks not their good. These diatribe are perpetuated by people who cling onto their empty ideas and retold with ever more bitterness. This is how atheism spreads. Certainly, there are weeds amongst them. Will you allow this to prevent you from reaching out to a true lost child of the Kingdom? I have seen personally how trauma and unprocessed suffering can twist our consciences, can root and build resentment. Even in Christ, this can happen. We need process our emotions! I can guarantee that half of the people who consider themselves atheist have tender hearts, if shown the nature of God, the nature of truth and the nature of love, would fall to their knees in repentance and awe of God. I have said before that I personally prophesy that a lot of these, the hardest of hearts now, the sinners amongst us, will be God’s greatest of saints in the coming days. These do not know better. Yes, of course there are evil people in the world. There are those who in their hard heartedness, are firm and steadfast in this hate. These are the ones who act in darkness. But we need have faith that God will deal with them. Let us also have faith that very soon a day is coming when the true intention of the heart of the man will be bare as a peeled kiwi. There will no longer be a wonder about the true nature of people. Let us also have faith that our desire to evangelize and save these sinners who are lost, will be enormously rewarded. I pray for these every single day. I pray for these, I live for these. If you do not think that these deserve a second chance at repentance, I wonder about the state of your heart. Of course, this is not a call, Christian, for us to conform to the world or to love the things of the world. I think I have made it pretty clear that I feel that the true Christian Way is quite set apart from the world. We need to help these poor people. These poor souls who are stranded and shipwrecked in the middle of the ocean. These sorrowful souls who are drowning in the sea and clutching, reaching upward, grasping at anything. They can see you as they take their last and final breath. Will you help them?

I am thankful for atheists. Used to be one myself. I didn’t know any better. Thankful for them only because a lot of them are going to be the future generation of saints. Please do not take offence at this examination that follows. I simply desire to show you the truth. What’s the reason for your atheism? Let’s analyze. You could believe in science. Please do not forget that even a belief in science is an expression of faith in the unknown. There is absolutely zero concrete examples of evidence for evolution and big bang theory. Ultimately, these occurrences happened so long ago that it would be impossible to say with certainty that they happened. Science is ultimately the search for truth. What is truth? God is truth. Science actually proves word for word, the Bible! Should you desire to see this. You could be wounded. I was in exactly this position. As a matter of fact, I would venture to say I was the most wounded of all. I have gone through every single argument in my head. How could God allow children to starve in Africa? How could a good God allow bad people to flourish and good people to hurt? How could God allow war? The answer to each question is contained in the words: this is not the way God intended it to be. Then, you ask, why doesn’t God intervene? He did. He did the most beautiful thing anyone could imagine. He did what He was able to do. He offered His own Son as a payment for us to be free. Telling you, once you experience the love of Jesus and the peace this offers, every wound is a thing of the past. You could be angry. Take it from me. While God does not take away your anger and other emotions because He respects them, He redirects them, funneling them toward love and charity. Open your heart. I was the hardest heart in the world. There is no wound, no pain, no fear He cannot address. There is no tear He does not wipe away. I praise my God for picking me up from the self-centeredness of atheism and giving me the hug of hope. Don’t you realize how much God loves even the lot of you? He sees fully how your hardness of heart was formed. He wants to heal you. He wants you to be free. He wants to offer you justice. You’re the reason He sent me. I should mention that some of these ideas, which contradict atheism are not entirely my own. They have been integrated into my mind and expressed through my own words. You could also feel despaired and far too gone in your sin. Is this any of you? Let your dear and precious hearts be at peace. If you should desire it, God also desires to wash that sin away in the water and blood, which pour from His pierced heart. You know, God showed me something extremely valuable in my conversion experience. I saw lights, I spoke an unknown language at the time, I felt an overwhelmingly beautiful current of love pass like electricity through my veins that day. This was all beautiful. The most beautiful part of it was the revelation, which was revealed to me. God showed me this day the relation between what I had been through, the sins commit against me and the wounds that I had suffered and the things that I myself had done, the sins I myself had commit and the wounds that I had caused. God showed me how suffering, unprocessed hurts and childhood formation influence and stumble people to commit sin. I haven’t been a saint in my past. I have many flaws. I have hurt many people. God sees beyond this. God sees me for who I have the potential to be. Because God loves me with a love that we cannot comprehend. An otherworldly love. If this is you, if you feel you are too far gone for God to love, I plead with you to turn upon yourselves with compassion and mercy. Forgive yourself! God does! God wants you to be free. And He is offering this freedom to you today. Today! This minute! This second! All you have to do is reach out. Open your hand. Extend your fingers and gaze. Open your heart and let it all out! God saves you today. Name of God. Upon you be healing and mercy and forgiveness. God loves you. Even more when you are distant from Him!

I sought out to investigate how to repair my Roman Missal today. I really did not want to get a new one. This one is special to me. I have been caring for it but it is quite old, I imagine. I watched a video about book repairs and it was evident to me in this video just how much we as a world have learned together. In passing this information onto the next generation. I, personally, had no idea how to fix this Missal of mine. When I saw this video, it became apparent to me just how much love and care went into the process. When we preserve the past, tradition, we are not only preserving old rules and obscure ideas. We are preserving the love, the lives and the beautiful ideas of our forefathers, those who came before us, who invested their purpose into these crafts, these trades, these ideas. I am thankful for these ideas and trades, things, which were learned by the application of love and of attention. It is not only in religion. This is a ubiquitous concept! Architecture done without love does not measure up. Medicine done without love doesn’t heal. Science without love at its center is not true. Can you not see? Love is the answer! Love is returning! Do you feel it? One would think, with all of this technology, with all of the modern graces which our world has been given, it would be an easier thing to attain. In fact, we are farther from each other than ever. Even living within cities, stacked one upon the other, we are miles apart emotionally and spiritually. In the time I spent at the religious community, I learned how to do everything in love. Every little act we do, done in love. How do we achieve this? It’s in our foundations. We need to return. Love is returning! Do you feel it? It’s going to burn away the chaffe! Love is returning! Do you feel it? Oh yes, it will burn. It will burn. Our world, in one moment will realize, will recognize that we are all connected. Do you feel it? Our world is going to be healed. Our world is going to be touched by the finger of God. Not a soul would dare say in that day that His presence is not completely amongst us. God will wipe every tear away. God will show us again how to love. But not before He shows us the reason we have lost that love in the first place. When this happens, the path to healing will be given. In time, we’ll be dancing in the streets all night!

I also know that we are living in a particularly wounded generation. Not just in terms of sin. We have all been through a lot. With wounds that need healing with the most tender of touches. It requires literally a hero to be called to sacrifice this for their flock. It has most certainly been done. The answer is in love. When we discover Christ’s love, this physical love doesn’t mean as much. On the contrary, if we don’t know physical love, how can we know God’s love? Here, I speak from experience. Parental love reminds us that we are safe, grounded and nurtured. Too often this day, is that love deprived of children. But I look at brothers and sisters at the religious community I stayed at. I look at the pastor of my church. They have obviously clung on to the secret. The way, so to speak. It is evident in the very movement of their arms, the way they form their words. I long for this. I long for this. Even over the physical intimacy that the world offers. Still, I like so many others, am wounded in this exceptionally sacred place. I would easily say that I am the most wounded this world has ever seen in this area. Not to brag or to merit a medal. On the contrary, to show you why I struggle. With this sacred wound, there are in fact many remedies. At the head, Christ. The second most important is play. Our world has become incredibly uptight. Our reactions are hypervigilant and overly sensitive. We react from ourselves, within and from without from a deep place of hurt. Our world needs to relearn what it is to be children. With ourselves and with each other. This can take many forms. The most important form is caring for and nurturing the wounds of others in the way that the wound has been caused. Sounds obscure? Don’t worry. It will be clear soon enough.

I suppose I am urodivoi. Still, I am ashamed thinking of the choice I made regarding the beautiful woman I haven’t gotten to spend the past two years with. I am thankful for Jesus. He loves you all with an infinite love. Jesus is the reason. You are not your sins. You are more than that. You are good people who have been hurting too long. Jesus sees beyond your sins. Soon, God will dwell amongst you. As in the Tabernacle. God will be your God and you will be His people. God is watching your each and every move with the tenderest of love and care. This is a reason not to sin. This is a reason to know that God’s justice is very real. It is also reason to rejoice. God is in love with you so much. Trust Him!

Thankful for who God says I am. Thankful for the fact that truth will be a stir up. Thankful for the good times that are coming. Thankful for God who is going to make it happen. Thankful for the fact that after the difficult times, always comes good times. Nurture your precious faiths. God wants the world, particularly His little flock who remain worshipping Him, loyal to Him, to know this: God will wipe away every tear. God sees you. Your prayer, your hard work is paying off. Very soon, you will be rewarded, little ones of the true God. Very soon. A little while longer, He says to you. Hold on, a little while longer. God’s love is immoveable. Nothing can shed this love. Strengthen your resolve in this love. Around us, surrounding us, the world, the harvest, nothing matters. Stand firm in the love of your Father. You are His children. God is coming soon. Very soon. World, things are going to be better for you soon. Very soon.

I don’t feel called to big things. I just want to be free to tell my story and use the voice God gave me. Nobody has told me to be quiet. I feel very weak and small. Still, I cannot stop talking. The SDs I have spoken to about this just say something about the fact that when they see my life they see the life of St Benedict Joseph Labre. I don’t know what it means! Again, I wonder at what it means that people are trying to censor me as though my words are important. The true revelation – or rather, revolution – will arise from the circumstances surrounding the truth emerging. Again, it has not to do with my message. I could be silent and truth would still come. I simply want to prepare you. It seems unfair to deprive the world of something this good because of me. Because of my sin. What might be the motivation for resistance to this message? Let us ask ourselves, sincerely and honestly, why might someone choose not to want the content of this revelation to be manifest in the world? Private revelation, though it is. For now at least.

The point of this? When we discover that we have been lied to, targeted and sought after for destruction, what will be the soul’s first response? Will it be one of passivity and docility, simply allowing the current of abuse to continue? Or will it be one of righteous indignation? Will it be a voice that says ‘you cannot do this to me. I am alive! And I will not put up with this. Because I deserve to live. I deserve better!’ I hope to inspire this voice of righteous indignation with you, Christian, secular man and woman. So that you will see that while there are certainly forces that roam about seeking your harm, there is a God, a true, living and breathing God who cares for you, desires your health and wellness, who desires nothing but your happiness and love. You don’t have to support these wolves who seek to devour you. You have a right to exist. Ordained by God Himself. For it was He who crafted you and formed you in your mother’s womb for abundance of life.