I could see the future from when I was a small child. Two
futures. Contrasting. Like images on contrary pages of a storybook. It’s like
the lights and sounds of the future city were etched into the eyelids of my
soul, my youth. I remember reading one of the prophets, who say that prophets
who prophecy prosperity are not true. That there will be need to be skeptical
of these prophets more than even those who predict God’s wrath. Something to
this effect. My brain racked around this. I suppose we all grow up and are
raised with our own unique imprint, with our own understanding of ourselves and
of the world. Perhaps this was also the case when the prophet who wrote this
conjectured. Surely, there was a place for God’s wrath in the past.
Particularly before Jesus came. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that His
justice has come to an end. But surely, God does not only desire bad times and
predict evil for us. Does He? This feels weird for me to say because if anyone
should have a pessimistic outlook for the future, surely it would be me
considering simply what I have endured. If anyone had a reason to be cynical
about life and God and society, it would be me. Yet, how is it that I – and
I’ve got to admit, at times it feels like I am completely alone in this belief
– want so desperately to believe that God can fix everything. The climate. The
nation state. The Church. The beauty. The true. The family. The child. The
parent. The heart. The very heart. Name of God. For me, I cannot fathom how God
could not give His children a chance to repent before calling upon judgement. I
have been given a hard but great grace of seeing other people through the eyes,
which God sees them with. Through these eyes, I see a wounded people, who are
as wounded and lost as I once was, looking and searching under every stone and
straw for the place from which to drink this life giving water. I see this
people who have lay aside God for their money, for their technology, for their
lusts and passions. When I think of myself, I see my heart. But I cannot think
of a future far beyond the moment in which I am living. However, when I think
of the world, the future of true society, my imagination goes wild. First, I
see a true rejoicing. I see a massive jubilation and prayerful wonder that
could only really arise from the fact that God Himself has made Himself known.
I see everything restored. Restored to what? Restored to the way the world was
intended to be. When God first created her. A world where people walk in the
light. A world where the presence of God is known, revered and loved. A world
in which the human life is cherished, nurtured and cared for. People are
misunderstanding the effect that truth will have. When the truth about this
comes out, a lot will be revealed to you.
Healing is coming. It will take many forms. Physical.
Though, I do not have confirmation of this, I believe a lot of illness will be
healed. If not instantly, the encouragement and validation of faith that is
coming will certainly set those on a path toward healing whose ailment is a
matter of foundation. I feel like there will be an undoing of people’s
emotional wounds. I feel like collected and repressed trauma of millions, in
the blink of an eye, will be healed. As if only by the touch of God. Yes, my
friends. Perhaps the greatest healing that will come will arise from the
awareness of our state of being, our state of grace before God. What a
marvelous grace it will be. It will be difficult for some, no doubt. For when
we realize how our actions, behavior and speech have affected others, what
other reaction could there be except shock? When people realize their sin,
there will be a restoration simply in this. Even for Christians. Don’t you
realize? Many of the identity politics of today and even economic politic are
based inherently in bitterness, envy and pride. How will the abasement of self,
influence the world to see the other as not an enemy? How will this
enlightenment encourage the world to see the identity and soul of their neighbor?
How will it inspire the world to view those who are truly wounded and weak?
Yes, my friends. Healing is coming. When we begin again to see life as less of
a competition, less through the rose-colored glasses that have been placed
across our field of vision by the media, by the movies, by our bitterness, the
more we will seek to see our brother with eyes of love. These glasses removed,
we will again see clearly. We will not only see. We will see the truth.
While it is not forefront on my mind, I truly believe that
there will be a sincere and honest period of peace and unity among the nations.
Let us not mince words, the purpose of a leader is and has always been to place
the needs and welfare of the people under their patronage first. A time is
coming, where power will fill the
hands of leaders who care steadfastly about their people. Western Civilization,
including the true merits of freedom and economy will be restored, healed and
glorified. Even the wounds, which the West has attained, including their sins,
will be patched over with dressing and atoned for. Again, to return to the
thought that when the abasement comes, people will not be so quick to judge and
condemn one another. Individually and collectively. Where does all of this
political and economic restoration come from? Where is its source? The answer
is simple. It is from its rooting and foundation in love. When God comes first,
morality follows closely behind. There will be no more lies. No more deceit or
powerful taking advantage of the small. Either in their innocence, their
trusting or their loving. Again, the child will be exalted in this new world. Christian
leadership is not like leadership of the world. It’s not like running a
country. It’s not built upon a framework of authority and fear. It’s not a
dictatorship. Because to be a leader, by Christ’s standards means to love, it
means to serve. Sometimes, Christian leadership means putting ourselves last so
that the flock can have what is right.
By the entire grace of God, every effect of this deceit will
restore and return to the way it once was, under more prosperous times. All
forms of trafficking will cease. All that happens in the darkness, overwhelming
light will be shed upon. The mentally ill and homeless will be given salvation
(if they desire it), blessing and healing. For we will discover, in a single
instant the root cause and reason for the advent of such enormous rates of
poverty and homelessness. That root cause will be touched as if by the finger
of God. Of course, all of the positive effects that are coming have to be
accepted. Should a soul not desire this mercy and healing, God cannot force you
to accept it. This is the reason we should all be praying. I appeal to you all
to start praying. To ready your hearts for this! People will know truth and
will not tolerate violence, lying and rioting anymore. This will arise from an
immediate change and healing to the world’s self-worth. When healing comes,
even Christians will know that to idly lay back and allow wolves to tear them
apart, over the course of ten years may not be rooted in love for the self.
What else? Oh, yes! Corporations and particularly justice will cleanse. Prisons
and psych wards will heal and restore and be once again used for their original
intent. Race relations will heal and restore. This again, will be based on the
tenet that we are all sinners, would we desire to see it. My dear friend,
Martin Luther King Jr’s words will become a reality that people will not be
judged by their skin color but instead by the integrity and the quality of their
character. I know that he longs for it. Still. There will be justice. But it
will be bearable. For God desires it to be so. Indeed, every way that darkness
has advanced over these past decades will be reset. Families will heal and
reconcile. For at the cause of the division and hurts are wounds that are
incredibly sensitive, which I firmly believe will be dressed and nurtured
completely and instantly at the restoration. At the root of this restoration
and healing of the family, will be the miracle of the touch of love. For again,
when people see each other and interact with each other lovingly, with care and
the utmost of attention, all bitterness and hatred will be evaporated. This
bitterness, this hatred, the crown of the evil one, who exists to sow discord
and rejoices in the discord and misery of families, by the grace of God and if
He wills, will be healed almost instantaneously. When the children of the world
realize that the parents have hurt and fought the same battles as they do now.
When the parents realize that the children are living and breathing creatures,
who hurt, feel and have their own destinies. When they realize that they are
entirely in this battle together, peace will come. Not only peace. Peace
abundant. Peace personified. Personified by love and joy and hope and
tenderness and forgiveness and mercy. What a beautiful existence that day will
be for the family! Selfishly, I also prophesy that the Jays will beat the
Brewers in the WS, baseball fan as I am. And of course, who can predict the outcome
of a sports match? I can’t. I only desire this to be the case. And it cannot
hurt to offer encouragement and charisma to the players. Besides, they deserve
it. It’s been a while! In the next seven or eight years, the Jays will win!
There is little doubt that the climate of the world is
changing. I remember even when I was a child, the trees and wildlife being
extremely more abundant. Maybe it was only through the eyes of a child, and
were I to return, I would see the things through different eyes. I remember
being pushed along in my stroller, when very young and in Florida, seeing the
incredibly animus insect world on the ground below me. This is proof of
nothing. However, what I also remember was the extremely lush vegetation state
over. Had there been consistent hurricanes since, which pummeled the state and
over just thirty years reduced the nature? No, it has certainly changed.
Climate change is real. However, it is its cause, which is uncertain. It is
easy to see the reason why a lot of people want to believe that we as
inhabitants of this world could have such an impact on global climate. To think
anything else would be to acknowledge the truth that sin exists and has real
consequences. Can you not see? The cause of the climate change the world is
experiencing is human sin. It is God’s response to it. I cannot remember where
it was in the Bible. The last time I read the Bible through, I came across a
number of verses stating how the lands surrounding modern day Sahara (Egypt
particularly) were extremely lush. Name of God, had I saved the verses
location! I will search for it. This is an update. I found one of them in the
Book of Exodus. Ex 10:15: “They covered the ground until it was black with
them; they ate everything that the hail had left, including all the fruit on
the trees. Not a green thing was left on any tree or plant in all the land of
Egypt.” Of course, this passage speaks of the locusts, which were a plague sent
by God due to the pride of the Pharaoh in persisting to persecute the chosen
people of God. Can you not see? God has control of the climate. He wants to
make the world lush and vibrant again. And His mercy is great. With people’s
ability to repent, great changes will come. With the restoration, I pray this repentance,
worldwide will come. I don’t have reason to believe this would not be the case.
I simply know that it is essential to it. While it would be encouraged that the
world would rejoice, it is not necessary. This truth will come, one way or the
other. People can try their hardest to prevent it. It might be like fighting
against the goad.
As for the Church, His beloved Bride, I predict that a
restoration is coming. I can really only pray the exact same for His Church as
I prayed for the world. For the Church is like a rudder, it’s like the captain
of the ship that is the world. For what happens in the Church will lead and
direct the world. Does this say something about the state of the Church? I
didn’t say anything. It speaks for itself. What I can say is that there will be
a unity in Christ unlike anything that has been seen for millennia. And only on
a grander, grander scale. Mary and the saints will be glorified. Jehanne, my
beloved Jehanne will be glorified and filled with joy! The Latin Mass,
Traditional Catholicism will be glorified. Graces for those in purgatory will
flourish and fall in abundance as of rain in the jungle atop this transitory
spiritual existence. I must admit that at a time, I truly believed in my heart
that those who had been condemned to hell would receive a second chance. Who am
I to even suggest this? I have learned that the concept is deemed a heresy by
the Church. Allow me to explain my reasons for desiring to believe this in the
past. For while, I believe that there are certain reasons for people to go to
hell, I believe that while it is often just, it is not God’s choice that those
be sent there. Rather, it is a choice of the individual and the individual
alone. I have always struggled with the belief that one who had commit suicide
would be condemned to hell. Especially after hearing a Robin William’s voice
from this plane when I was a child. I don’t know whether these souls will go to
hell when they die. All I know is that the spiritual disposition of the soul
following making of a choice of that sort, sets one up for despair. This
despair, unless one is firmly grounded in love, can be the catalyst for a soul
to not choose God. Really, what are the chances that these souls are grounded
in love if they are making choices like these? This is a reason for the
restoration. Again, I don’t know about the souls in hell. What I do know is
that when this restoration comes, a spiritual reinvigoration and rejuvenation
will occur. Why wouldn’t God desire to save such as these? These who, with new
insight about the triumph and victory of the Cross, which will come, may desire
a different outcome than the one they chose through this despair. The same Holy
Ghost that will restore people to physical health will be the Holy Ghost that
will by His grace, reach into the darkest places and illumine EVERYTHING! I
don’t know. I am not arrogant enough to discount it. Neither am I foolish
enough to preach the extremely real possibility that God will give another
chance to even those who made poor choices based on a lack of information,
shall we call it.
I imagine a world in which
children, people who are with disabilities, emotional and physical, wounded people,
elderly will be revered and honored with a dignity that is pure. Because,
honestly, is this not the badge, the ultimate token of the health of a society?
In how it treats its vulnerable, its smallest, its weakest? Let us remember the
vast complexity, indeed resilience of childhood. Though they are resilient,
they are vulnerable as well. What is done to them and around them affects them
greatly. I simply want to encourage you tonight. Children are so precious. Life
is so incredibly precious and beautiful. They are also incredibly vulnerable
and impressionable. We need to care for them. We need give them a future, which
they can laid hold of firmly and confidently, with both hands, saying, “thank
you for giving me life. I exist today, because at a point in my existence,
somebody (many people) decided that I was worthy of life and of the investment
in my life. Just like how when you are married and have children, you yourself
lose touch with that inner child, even within yourself. You are, in a moment, transformed
from the child to the caregiver. From the girl, from the boy into the woman,
into the man. And in this process, we lose out on the spiritual. For is it not
true that the child is and possesses a deeper connection to the spiritual realm
than the adult? Is this not the path intended by spiritual planes? How
sorrowful the thought that generations have passed and millennia have passed,
increasingly, more and more recently, the caregiver is stunted in growth,
hindered in its transition from child to adult. How sorrowful that we have
children raising children. This is not a sweeping statement. It might as well
be. A time will come when we will have the choice to see things in love.
Through eyes clouded over with compassion and filial brotherhood. The way we
treat our children, our vulnerable is really the most important thing in a
civilized society. No, my friends, people are not dispensable. Economy does not
matter. Politics does not matter. Science and the arts matters not. If we
cannot get that fundamental building block down that how we as society treat
the small, the weak in our world is paramount, everything will topple. What I
am advocating is a change of heart. A change in the heart of society and the
world. It is more than possible. I have seen it. This is where our utopia is
born. When this happens, the need and desire for a political utopia will be
irrelevant. When the heart of the world is healed, there will be little need
for all of that.
For the root of many of the emotional and spiritual and
physical problems of today is in shame. Actually, shame is like a tent, a
synthesis of repressed emotions. For when we as children, or even as adults
experience a trauma, something horrible, which we cannot process – something,
which we find too terrible to process in the moment it is happening – we can
fragmentize this experience. We put it away in a partition of the mind,
somewhere where it will not cause us harm. To be blunt, we simply repress the
fact that it is happening. Along with this, we repress all emotions connected
to the event. Hence, the experience did not not occur. It is simply our
reaction to that event that we forget. Still, the impact, emotional and
spiritual still have an effect on us. We can be led like slaves of our own
emotions, even while led by Christ, because of these unprocessed emotions.
These emotions, undealt with can have an effect upon our behavior, our
attitude, our very actions. For while, if we have experienced something, which
makes us angry, which we have not been permitted to feel, even if we do not
remember it, the anger is still there. We are forced to vent this anger
subconsciously as opposed to practically. This is the cause of many problems
today. When the restoration comes, it will be like God Himself has chosen to dwell
amongst us. God does not see people for their sins. For what they do or say. He
sees people for what they can be. He sees us for our potential.
This doesn’t take the pressure off of us. We still need to
get right with Him. This is the problem. A wounded heart. Do you think that I
am special in the sense that I was raised for destruction? I wish it were the
case. Yes, I am unique in how early these plans were enacted for me. In that
there were even ceremonies, ridiculous as they were. No, my friends. I weep
when I think that there are generations upon generations whom have been the
prime target of the evil one. These who do not know a better way. Church, do
you think God despises the world? No! In fact, these are all His flock. These
are all His sons and daughters. Do you not think He cares what happens in their
future? He wants them to return to Him. These poor people, even if they have
not experienced the level of trauma and spiritual propaganda I was
indoctrinated with, are lost. They are sought after by the evil one, roaring
around like a lion. Influenced by the false promises of pleasure, comfort, lied
to by some of the media, by the movies, by the music they listen to. Tempted by
the allure of sin. Yes, these are sinful, they have sinned. And yes, most of
them endure trauma and suffering based conscience manipulation as well. Nobody
is immune. They do not know any better. Church. Can you not see? These poor
people, these children of God, these prodigal children are so lost, so
despairing. Never stop evangelizing! Until the last day. We do not know who we
may save in the process. Is my spirit valuable? I do not know. Do you know
where I was? In this world, do you know what was in my future? This shows one
thing. Redemption is never out of the picture. God desires even the worst man
or woman you can possibly imagine. God desires these hearts even more than the
hearts He already has. The wolves of the world are seeking these. One by one
they are falling. Without ever knowing the true nature of God and His Son, our
Lord. All they hear is a twisted and vile diatribe about Him and His nature
from a media, which seeks not their good. These diatribe are perpetuated by
people who cling onto their empty ideas and retold with ever more bitterness.
This is how atheism spreads. Certainly, there are weeds amongst them. Will you
allow this to prevent you from reaching out to a true lost child of the
Kingdom? I have seen personally how trauma and unprocessed suffering can twist
our consciences, can root and build resentment. Even in Christ, this can
happen. We need process our emotions! I can guarantee that half of the people
who consider themselves atheist have tender hearts, if shown the nature of God,
the nature of truth and the nature of love, would fall to their knees in
repentance and awe of God. I have said before that I personally prophesy that a
lot of these, the hardest of hearts now, the sinners amongst us, will be God’s
greatest of saints in the coming days. These do not know better. Yes, of course
there are evil people in the world. There are those who in their hard
heartedness, are firm and steadfast in this hate. These are the ones who act in
darkness. But we need have faith that God will deal with them. Let us also have
faith that very soon a day is coming when the true intention of the heart of
the man will be bare as a peeled kiwi. There will no longer be a wonder about
the true nature of people. Let us also have faith that our desire to evangelize
and save these sinners who are lost, will be enormously rewarded. I pray for
these every single day. I pray for these, I live for these. If you do not think
that these deserve a second chance at repentance, I wonder about the state of
your heart. Of course, this is not a call, Christian, for us to conform to the world
or to love the things of the world. I think I have made it pretty clear that I
feel that the true Christian Way is quite set apart from the world. We need to
help these poor people. These poor souls who are stranded and shipwrecked in
the middle of the ocean. These sorrowful souls who are drowning in the sea and
clutching, reaching upward, grasping at anything. They can see you as they take
their last and final breath. Will you help them?
I am thankful for atheists. Used to be one myself. I didn’t
know any better. Thankful for them only because a lot of them are going to be
the future generation of saints. Please do not take offence at this examination
that follows. I simply desire to show you the truth. What’s the reason for your
atheism? Let’s analyze. You could believe in science. Please do not forget that
even a belief in science is an expression of faith in the unknown. There is
absolutely zero concrete examples of evidence for evolution and big bang
theory. Ultimately, these occurrences happened so long ago that it would be
impossible to say with certainty that they happened. Science is ultimately the
search for truth. What is truth? God is truth. Science actually proves word for
word, the Bible! Should you desire to see this. You could be wounded. I was in
exactly this position. As a matter of fact, I would venture to say I was the
most wounded of all. I have gone through every single argument in my head. How
could God allow children to starve in Africa? How could a good God allow bad
people to flourish and good people to hurt? How could God allow war? The answer
to each question is contained in the words: this is not the way God intended it
to be. Then, you ask, why doesn’t God intervene? He did. He did the most
beautiful thing anyone could imagine. He did what He was able to do. He offered
His own Son as a payment for us to be free. Telling you, once you experience
the love of Jesus and the peace this offers, every wound is a thing of the
past. You could be angry. Take it from me. While God does not take away your
anger and other emotions because He respects them, He redirects them, funneling
them toward love and charity. Open your heart. I was the hardest heart in the
world. There is no wound, no pain, no fear He cannot address. There is no tear
He does not wipe away. I praise my God for picking me up from the
self-centeredness of atheism and giving me the hug of hope. Don’t you realize
how much God loves even the lot of you? He sees fully how your hardness of
heart was formed. He wants to heal you. He wants you to be free. He wants to
offer you justice. You’re the reason He sent me. I should mention that some of
these ideas, which contradict atheism are not entirely my own. They have been
integrated into my mind and expressed through my own words. You could also feel
despaired and far too gone in your sin. Is this any of you? Let your dear and
precious hearts be at peace. If you should desire it, God also desires to wash
that sin away in the water and blood, which pour from His pierced heart. You know,
God showed me something extremely valuable in my conversion experience. I saw
lights, I spoke an unknown language at the time, I felt an overwhelmingly
beautiful current of love pass like electricity through my veins that day. This
was all beautiful. The most beautiful part of it was the revelation, which was
revealed to me. God showed me this day the relation between what I had been
through, the sins commit against me and the wounds that I had suffered and the
things that I myself had done, the sins I myself had commit and the wounds that
I had caused. God showed me how suffering, unprocessed hurts and childhood
formation influence and stumble people to commit sin. I haven’t been a saint in
my past. I have many flaws. I have hurt many people. God sees beyond this. God
sees me for who I have the potential to be. Because God loves me with a love
that we cannot comprehend. An otherworldly love. If this is you, if you feel
you are too far gone for God to love, I plead with you to turn upon yourselves
with compassion and mercy. Forgive yourself! God does! God wants you to be
free. And He is offering this freedom to you today. Today! This minute! This
second! All you have to do is reach out. Open your hand. Extend your fingers
and gaze. Open your heart and let it all out! God saves you today. Name of God.
Upon you be healing and mercy and forgiveness. God loves you. Even more when
you are distant from Him!
I sought out to investigate how to repair my Roman Missal
today. I really did not want to get a new one. This one is special to me. I
have been caring for it but it is quite old, I imagine. I watched a video about
book repairs and it was evident to me in this video just how much we as a world
have learned together. In passing this information onto the next generation. I,
personally, had no idea how to fix this Missal of mine. When I saw this video,
it became apparent to me just how much love and care went into the process.
When we preserve the past, tradition, we are not only preserving old rules and
obscure ideas. We are preserving the love, the lives and the beautiful ideas of
our forefathers, those who came before us, who invested their purpose into
these crafts, these trades, these ideas. I am thankful for these ideas and
trades, things, which were learned by the application of love and of attention.
It is not only in religion. This is a ubiquitous concept! Architecture done
without love does not measure up. Medicine done without love doesn’t heal.
Science without love at its center is not true. Can you not see? Love is the
answer! Love is returning! Do you feel it? One would think, with all of this
technology, with all of the modern graces which our world has been given, it
would be an easier thing to attain. In fact, we are farther from each other
than ever. Even living within cities, stacked one upon the other, we are miles
apart emotionally and spiritually. In the time I spent at the religious
community, I learned how to do everything in love. Every little act we do, done
in love. How do we achieve this? It’s in our foundations. We need to return.
Love is returning! Do you feel it? It’s going to burn away the chaffe! Love is
returning! Do you feel it? Oh yes, it will burn. It will burn. Our world, in
one moment will realize, will recognize that we are all connected. Do you feel
it? Our world is going to be healed. Our world is going to be touched by the
finger of God. Not a soul would dare say in that day that His presence is not
completely amongst us. God will wipe every tear away. God will show us again how
to love. But not before He shows us the reason we have lost that love in the
first place. When this happens, the path to healing will be given. In time,
we’ll be dancing in the streets all night!
I also know that we are living in a particularly wounded
generation. Not just in terms of sin. We have all been through a lot. With
wounds that need healing with the most tender of touches. It requires literally
a hero to be called to sacrifice this for their flock. It has most certainly
been done. The answer is in love. When we discover Christ’s love, this physical
love doesn’t mean as much. On the contrary, if we don’t know physical love, how
can we know God’s love? Here, I speak from experience. Parental love reminds us
that we are safe, grounded and nurtured. Too often this day, is that love
deprived of children. But I look at brothers and sisters at the religious
community I stayed at. I look at the pastor of my church. They have obviously
clung on to the secret. The way, so to speak. It is evident in the very
movement of their arms, the way they form their words. I long for this. I long
for this. Even over the physical intimacy that the world offers. Still, I like
so many others, am wounded in this exceptionally sacred place. I would easily
say that I am the most wounded this world has ever seen in this area. Not to
brag or to merit a medal. On the contrary, to show you why I struggle. With
this sacred wound, there are in fact many remedies. At the head, Christ. The
second most important is play. Our world has become incredibly uptight. Our
reactions are hypervigilant and overly sensitive. We react from ourselves,
within and from without from a deep place of hurt. Our world needs to relearn
what it is to be children. With ourselves and with each other. This can take
many forms. The most important form is caring for and nurturing the wounds of
others in the way that the wound has been caused. Sounds obscure? Don’t worry.
It will be clear soon enough.
I suppose I am urodivoi. Still, I am ashamed thinking of the
choice I made regarding the beautiful woman I haven’t gotten to spend the past
two years with. I am thankful for Jesus. He loves you all with an infinite
love. Jesus is the reason. You are not your sins. You are more than that. You
are good people who have been hurting too long. Jesus sees beyond your sins.
Soon, God will dwell amongst you. As in the Tabernacle. God will be your God
and you will be His people. God is watching your each and every move with the
tenderest of love and care. This is a reason not to sin. This is a reason to
know that God’s justice is very real. It is also reason to rejoice. God is in
love with you so much. Trust Him!
Thankful for who God says I am. Thankful for the fact that truth
will be a stir up. Thankful for the good times that are coming. Thankful for
God who is going to make it happen. Thankful for the fact that after the
difficult times, always comes good times. Nurture your precious faiths. God
wants the world, particularly His little flock who remain worshipping Him,
loyal to Him, to know this: God will wipe away every tear. God sees you. Your
prayer, your hard work is paying off. Very soon, you will be rewarded, little
ones of the true God. Very soon. A little while longer, He says to you. Hold
on, a little while longer. God’s love is immoveable. Nothing can shed this
love. Strengthen your resolve in this love. Around us, surrounding us, the
world, the harvest, nothing matters. Stand firm in the love of your Father. You
are His children. God is coming soon. Very soon. World, things are going to be
better for you soon. Very soon.
I don’t feel called to big things. I just want to be free to
tell my story and use the voice God gave me. Nobody has told me to be quiet. I
feel very weak and small. Still, I cannot stop talking. The SDs I have spoken
to about this just say something about the fact that when they see my life they
see the life of St Benedict Joseph Labre. I don’t know what it means! Again, I
wonder at what it means that people are trying to censor me as though my words
are important. The true revelation – or rather, revolution – will arise from
the circumstances surrounding the truth emerging. Again, it has not to do with
my message. I could be silent and truth would still come. I simply want to
prepare you. It seems unfair to deprive the world of something this good
because of me. Because of my sin. What might be the motivation for resistance
to this message? Let us ask ourselves, sincerely and honestly, why might someone
choose not to want the content of this revelation to be manifest in the world?
Private revelation, though it is. For now at least.
The point of this? When we discover that we have been lied
to, targeted and sought after for destruction, what will be the soul’s first
response? Will it be one of passivity and docility, simply allowing the current
of abuse to continue? Or will it be one of righteous indignation? Will it be a
voice that says ‘you cannot do this to me. I am alive! And I will not put up with
this. Because I deserve to live. I deserve better!’ I hope to inspire this
voice of righteous indignation with you, Christian, secular man and woman. So
that you will see that while there are certainly forces that roam about seeking
your harm, there is a God, a true, living and breathing God who cares for you,
desires your health and wellness, who desires nothing but your happiness and
love. You don’t have to support these wolves who seek to devour you. You have a
right to exist. Ordained by God Himself. For it was He who crafted you and
formed you in your mother’s womb for abundance of life.
