January 3, 2016:

Feeling good. I got back from my trip last night around 3AM. Went to my churches dismissal this morning. Was very difficult to wake up for but it was the reason I had returned so soon. Didn’t want to miss it. My trip was pretty great. I can’t believe how much strength it took me to walk into the casino with a five dollar chip I’d had for about a year, cash it and walk out right after. I’m glad I kept my fast. It was really nice to see my friend. We had a great time. I felt accepted with her. That was nice. I had a really great time. We spent a bit of time in emergency for a cut she’d gotten. I hope she had a good time too. When I was there, the woman I went on a coffee date last week, messaged me saying she’d like to do something again. I’m really looking forward to seeing her again. Trying to play text messaging cool though. Today, I am grateful for love. I’m grateful for the healing effect it has had on me. And I’m starting to feel a bit more love for myself. In turn, this is showing in my behavior towards others, I think at least. I’ve been feeling as though I’ve been a lot more collected around others lately. I am thankful that it is not hurting me as much to walk and also that I feel loved.