A Note:

Things seem to be happening a lot over the past couple of days, which are encouraging me greatly. I think my memory is pretty reasonable. A couple of days ago, a gentleman with whom I lived in university, who I hadn’t seen in four or five years saw me across the street on Finch ave. I recognized him immediately as he was waving. I nodded and I approached him. When he asked me to remind him of my name, I remembered his name and announced it. He seemed pleased that I should remember his name. I even remembered in what program he was studying. Well, I thought he had taken Sociology. He took Anthropology. He is doing well and asked me to search for him on facebook. I looked but couldn’t find him. Yesterday, I went to the casino again. I’ll come back to that. But the minute I sat down at the poker table, a guy I hadn’t seen in probably close to fifteen years. He recognized me initially and said hi. The minute I saw him, I recognized him and his name. It was awesome to see him and we spoke on facebook afterward. I don’t intend to go back to the casino for a while. When I went in Niagara, I came away with money and last night at Rama I lost a bit of cash, not much but enough to leave an effect. What bothered me the most about this was that I was playing very conservatively. I was playing pretty well. It’s good to have fun every once in a while. I believe that this is not what God wants for me right now. I don’t know entirely at the moment whether people believe me. I wish you could see how incredibly painful for me it is to be called crazy. It’s revictimizing to have truth so obscured. At the same time, I need to be understanding of your perspective. And it’s not your fault. Believe me, I understand. I am praying a lot lately. I pray before and after entering the Word. I am trying to make prayer more of a continual habit. I want to keep my prayers between myself and God. Just to say that I have noticed a shift in my prayer. You’ve all been through so much. Just remember that there is a reason. The right thing will happen. Truth will come out.