October 29, 2015:

A quick update, journal. I will write more later. Today, I went to the gym where I focussed mostly on my upper body. After my workout, I went into a smaller room in the basement of the gym and stretched for a little bit. After this, I went to a really great Korean restaurant next to Finch Station. I’d been to it a couple of times before. The food they serve there is really good. There was a beautiful waitress working there. She seemed really nice. After this, it was my intention to go to the casino. I had been planning it since yesterday. So I took the bus home and made sure I was ready for when I had to catch the Casino shuttle. At the last minute, I sat in prayer and asked God what He wanted me to do. There was a tug in my heart and a soft voice that told me that whatever I do, I should just be convinced I am doing the right thing for me. I sighed and said in response, “I know that our free will is how God shows us He loves us. But I have been disobedient in my life far too many times. What does God want?” The Spirit encouraged me to believe that it was not God’s intention for me to go to the casino. For me, this was the best choice now. Right now, I am home, getting ready for bed. Tonight, I am thankful for free will. Though heavily, sometimes very heavily, influenced by our experiences and traumas, we have a free will. Praise the Lord that God loved us enough to offer us this amazing gift. Life is a free gift. This is not entirely about religion or what we can do, this is about a relationship that saves. When love enters our hearts, naturally, good works follow. I will write again tomorrow. I am going to church. I’m excited because I have prepared two Samaritan’s Purse shoeboxes to bring. It’s all for the glory of the Father and Him who He sent.